Caught up in the moment/
squeals of pleasure and pain escape me/
as/
inside me/
you go./
Wonderful/
Incredible/
with intent/
to explode./
Thrusting and/
screaming/
while/
your back is/
bleeding/
from/
the nails that pierce it in ecstasy./
And in that moment,/
I'm guilty/
of adultery./
Feels too right/
to be/
oh so wrong/
but/
most of all/
unfair./
To think that if you don't see it,/
it's not there/
and I am SO sorry./
If I could take it back,/
I would/
to not be misunderstood/
as a liar/
and a cheater./
Baby, I want neither./
I just want to be only yours again./
End.

Overwhelming and intense is the nature of this night.
This night
where I must
think twice
about
whether or not you are
lying
next
to me.
Kissing,
touching places,
gently
but you cant be, see
because,
I know you're there,
and I'm over here.
I'm over here
trying to sleep and
seemingly alone
and, trying to sleep
but
wishing you would hold
me,
oh so lovely.
Sweetly
and
softly
to remind me
why I chose you,
you
to give my entire self to.
For your comfort
and for your joy.
For your unbridled pleasure
infinite
and
beyond measure,
I'm yours.
And I prefer to be.
Especially this night
you're not
next
to me.
Kissing,
touching places
gently,
but you should be
because, I miss you
and I can't sleep because
I miss you
Do you miss me?

Tossing around some thoughts. Nothing new. Thinking about the summer. What I'm going to do. How work might be. Short program and interview on the 20th. Pretty excited about this job and I'm hoping against hope I get it. It'll be good to be back at camp. Even better: Camp Kaufman. Haven't been in years. Not since those times in high school with Girl Scouts. I think that although I cannot stand them, and I can think of a million and one other things better to do, I'll be working with children  for the rest of my life. I already know I may delve into teaching...history, and I already know that I want to be as cool as Dolita. So dream job in about a year: Teaching English to children in China.

Teaching
China
Children
Best of all worlds...

I wonder if I can make it happen.
I feel like I'm going to be horribly unprepared.
Hope not though.