And so thats what began my worst week ever.
I spent days on end  crying and wanting to diee .. going to school which i thought would be the hardest thing to do, was actually the best because as much as i hated it, it still seemed to get my mind as much as possible "off of him". My friends helped me so much.. but spending 19 months of your life with one person..and then all a sudden one day leaving him behind.. is absolotley impossible. He would still call me every day and tell me he loved me.. but always said he needed some "time".

So I had made it almost a week without him.. when on friday night I got a phone call from him telling me he was about to have emergency surgery to have his appendix & part of his colon out and that he loved me. I litterally fainted.. i couldn't beleive it, oh and to make matters worse, he had been in a car wreck just the day before.. thankfully he was fine. So friday night i spent crying and praying w/ my best friend that he would be okay. Finally i got a phone call at about 12:00 pm that he had come out of surgery and was doing great.. it still hurt me to know he was in pain though.

Saturday I went to see him in the hospital.. thats when I REALLY lost it. I walked into a dark cold hospital room.. he was laying there on the bed with a tube up his nose and two or three IV's attached in his arm.. he was pale but yet still beautiful. 1000 thoughts ran threw my mind within those 5 secounds.. "is he in pain?" "does he love me?" "does he miss me?" "is he happy to see me?" "does he want me back?" "will we ever get back together?" .. it was too much to handle and i began to shake as i sat down beside him.. the boy i loved more then anything in the world.. and had hurt.. and there he was.. omg i still get chills.

So I spent basically the whole day there by his side.. I had been worried he'd act ockward around me and it would be a disaster.. but he talked to me like nothing had ever happened between eachother.. which I was so thankful for <33 he told me things like "i looked good" and "he loved me".. I took every word to heart.. and promised myself i would never take him for granted ever again.

I spent sunday doing the same thing.. sitting on his hospital bed beside him.. and the same thing on monday.. & thats when we finally decided to try this thing again.. OMG i was thrilled.. litterally exstatic.. my life had been put together <3

As much as I hated that week.. I learned so much about life. "NEVER make a guy your everything.. because when you loose him, you'll have nothing" ... and never take someone who loves you for granted.. because there are only a few who ever "truly" will.

Marc Jacobs By Marc Jacobs

Wow.. long update.. okay well i'll probably post something tomorrow cause its going to be another long boring day. Kaleb's out of the hospital now and is at his house.. but he's still in pain & isnt in the best moods.. so its hard talking to him but i usually spend the weekends with him.. so that makes it better <3

everyone have an amazing week. xox.

 “Luxury is inseparable from simplicity.”
-Gabrielle Chanel-

hello loves. <3
wow school has been so hectic.. ugh & so boring. i miss the summer like shhhit! haha everyone was like "ohh highschool will be soo much fun".. im still looking for it. ohh well, i guess things will get better as the year goes on.. i am looking forward to homecoming next weekend.. that should be fun

well lately i've been spending alot of time with kaleb..
i feel kinda bad cause i never hang with my friends very often anymore..
hopefully il find some time this weekend to do something.

isnt this a sweet picture?
<3<3<3 romance = beauty <3<3<3

"incase you failed to notice.. incase you failed to see
this is my heart bleeding before you.. this is me down on my knees"
-Jewel / Foolish Games

okay well im thinking of gettin my sidekick crystaled -- but my mom thinks it looks "too much" lol.. which i somewhat agree with but everytime i see one i just fall in love with it..

ahh its so cute tho.. <3

neways.. i gotta go get ready for laguna beach to come on.. ahh im so excited.. haha i feel like a little kid in a candy store ; im crazy.

& I can honestly say. .
that I've never, ever ever  felt this way <3

Happy 18 month anniversary baby.
I love you more then anything,
Katy & Kaleb - Always&Forever

Wow, tonight was amazing. My boyfriend & I went to this fabulous resteraunt that had the best food.. ahh it was so good. Im tryin not to eat alot.. but i couldn't resist this, it was incredible! Afterwards we went to see Red Eye.. it was soo good! I loved it.. then we stopped by starbucks & then came home and hung out..

I cant really put my finger on the "amazing" parts of our night. But for some reason.. we just seemed to bond tonight better & closer then we ever have in 18 months.. I dont know what was so different.. but something was.

I love him more then anything in the world. I couldnt imagine spending the rest of my life without him. Hes simply perfect.. I dont understand how i ever even deserved a guy like him. Just looking at him.. it makes my heart stop. And even after such a long time.. i still get those same butterflies when Im with him.. as I did on our very first date.

and love has never felt this good.

Well. Back to my first week of school. Hmm.. highschool is interesting.. and yet terribley boring. Haha, everyone is acting so fake & "cool".. because "thats the way highschoolers act".. gahd its driving me crazy.. no one is fun & acts like theirselves anymore.. thats why i live for fridays when i can be with kaleb whose actually real.. one of the only things real in my life.

Sara Lynnes Birthday was last saturday night.
We had so much fun..

Kaleb(hah) Me & Lane

Lane Me & Sara.. W/ our cool umbrellas!

Me & My girl

Sara & Brad.. aw so cute.

mm.. thats hot


The crazy birthday singin japanesse people!
haha they were scary..

haha neways.. that night was fun.. tonight was our big kinda jamboree football game that I didnt go to.. but Justin (saras brother) got a concussion & was dehydrated and is now in the emergency room.. sara just called me. im so scared and i hope hes okay.

omg speaking of clothes.. haha (somewhat random) there is so much i want for my birthday..

Burberry Quilted Jacket $375.00

omg most gorgeous bag in the world. . my friend has it
prada doctor bag  $1,395.00

Haha.. and thats basically all i want right now. I already got my disk belt & sidekick i "originally" wanted.. so now i just want those..

well church in the morning.. "highschool" church.. lol its kinda weird for the first time ever im in the same room as kaleb.. lol seniors & freshmen go prefect together!

cutest tennis shoes ever <33 Lacoste $ 120.00

okay well im sleepy.. xo
always: katy

Laguna Beach = Tonight!z

well this week shouldnt be too interesting.. i get my  hair cut & colored on thursday.. we leave for indiana friday for the race (that should be fun) & thats about it..

<33 leave sweet comments please <33

Laguna Love &HEARTS;
( for drama at laguna beach, simply add water!)

well i just got home last week from boston! wow it was a blast. we shopped non-stop for 4 days! they had amazing italian resteraunts and great stores.. ahh i could have stayed longer but i had to come home to see my baby! heres a few things i got on my trip:

New Kate Spade Shoes &HEARTS;


Steve Madden Cowboy boots &HEARTS;

Gucci Wallet &HEARTS;

COCO Chanel Perfume &HEARTS;

2 Coach wallets for friends&HEARTS;


Kate Spade Book Carrier & Pencil Holder &HEARTS;
(a must have for school!)


Abercrombie skirt ¢¾

BCBG sequined shaw &HEARTS;

Steve Madden Wedges &HEARTS;

Juicy Couture Track Jackets &HEARTS;

Ohh what a shopping trip it was.. <33

well back to the important things.. like school coming up in 3 weeks.. omg i am so not excited! atleast i have a new clean campus to go to. unfortunetly we have to ware uniforms.. =( gross. but there really not that bad.. thats why those kate spade slippers go with them perfect! and i cant wait to use my new sholder carrier!

Ok what do yall think about Britneys new hair? I dont know.. but i really dont think I like it. Her boots look so cute ..

omg nicole & her boyfriend are soo cute

&HEARTS;&HEARTS;
okay well this week has been kinda fun, last nite me, logan, lane, drew & andrew went to see charlie and the chocolate factory.. it was fun! omg drew looked GORGEOUS! gah he is the hottest thing ever.. i would absolotley love to date him.. but i could never let go of kaleb. he means to much to me. i keep promising il date drew sometime tho.. oh well we'll see.

Ezra Fitch Embellished $148.00

omg.. this shirt is so cute. i want it so bad.. i think i mite go to the
mall this weekend & get it.. im in love <3

Allegra Applique

$59.50

omg this is adorable.. i wish i could ware it to school but i cant =( oh well
im still gonna get it!



Morrocan Disk Belt (Urban Outfitters)
$48.99

Okay this has to be the cutest new belt out there right now.
Any who doesnt have it is crazy and has to go out & get it! Im ordering it today.. it sucks we dont have a urban outfitters in
memphis =(

Okay well Kaleb comes home today! I am so excited.. i haven't seen him in a while so we'll definetly have to do something..

thats it for now my loves. xo
&HEARTS;&HEARTS;