Currently Listening Wolves in Wolves Clothing By Nofx see related

Just got off work...

Waiting on Jennifer to get home.

I got to see her yesterday. She came with me and Sid to Jason's house and we watched a movie with Lama and Jason. So I'm happy today.

Currently Listening Media Blitz By The Germs see related

So there comes a time when you know you've been beat. Your take your loss and go on with your life. If you weren't important enough to her to fight for... you won't ever be. Her family says they won't love her if we go to prom together, so obviously no prom for me. So even though I might not get a prom, I  have a decent family I can appreciate. What kind of family tells you they wont love you anymore when you disagree with them. So I appreciate what I have. There must have been some asshole that took a piss in their gene pool, because apparently being a shallow conceited cumdumpster runs in their family. She will be offended by this and no one else will care but I'm venting and it feels good. I took this quite well in my eyes. It was a huge slap in the face and I will remember it always as I was the lesser priority, contrary to what she likes to tell me. People can sing bullshit lullabies and then fuck you when you go to sleep. I still love her a great deal and am going to be with her....but when its more convenient for her. I'm expected to writhe about in misery during the times that her family is around....and be as happy as can be when she decides to call me for 5 minutes. It fucks with my mind. I think it's causing small symptoms of monophobia. Maybe I deserve it but I seriously disagree. So I take my pills and forget her and her family of hate-driven worthless lives for the day. The scary part is that I think I'm falling in love with another. The Effexor is there for me everyday and it doesn't have asshole grandparents to give me shit all the time. And to think I believed that the pharmaceutical industry was a scam. I'll say it again....she will be offended by this but it is healthy. She shouldn't be offended with me sharing my thoughts when she is ashamed of me in the first place.

In other news.... Someone is going to jail today and I've been waiting for them to go down for a long time....that makes me smile.

So, yes, I'm a complete ass and I know it. It keeps me able to deal with things. My life is so off-track right now and thats the way I love it. I still have my friends and my drugs. What more could someone ask for.

Currently Listening Wolves in Wolves Clothing By Nofx see related

It's that feeling when you up against another. Your more honest, righteous, and patient. You still lose everything. You want to say " At least I did what was right" but you can't. Because now you wish you had cheated and lied your way to the winner's circle. But someone took it first. Nice guys finish last.

So Sid and I get up at 8 a.m. yesterday and voyage to Tyler in anticipation of the ride home with the new NOFX album "Wolves in Wolves' Clothing" in the CD player. Fuckin awesome, which comes as no surprise. Go buy it.

Currently Listening At Folsom Prison By Johnny Cash see related

Had a great birthday...

Got to spend it with my friends and the girl I love...

THE NOFX ALBUM DROPS TOMMOROW...WOLVES IN WOLVES' CLOTHING...GO BUY IT!

im at sids house

things are good

i love jennifer she loves me

thats all i can ask for

until next time

 -wasted