WaitingFor_My_Ruca's Xanga

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 21:45:42 GMT

gosh it is really hot! man i had one crazy weekend!!!!

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 01:39:16 GMT

Hey there, I know its hard to feel like i dont care at all.

Where you are and how you feel.

With these lights off as these wheels keep rolling on and on.

(and on and on and on....)

Slow things down or speed them up.

Not enough or way too much.

(and on and on and on..)

How are you when im gone?

[chorus:]

And i cant make it on my own.

(and i cant make it on my own.)

Because my heart is in ohio.

So cut my wrists and black my eyes.

(cut my wrists and black my eyes)

So i can fall asleep tonight, or die.

Because you kill me.

You know you do,you kill me well.

You like it to and i can tell.

You never stop until my final breath is gone.

Spare me just three last words.

"i love you" is all she heard.

Ill wait for you, but i cant wait forever.

[*2]

[chours:]

And i cant make it on my own.

(And i cant make it on my own.)

Because my heart is in ohio.

So cut my wrists and black my eyes.

(cut my wrist and black my eyes)

So i can fall asleep tonight, or die.

Because you kill me.

Friday, May 20, 2005

Fri, 20 May 2005 04:34:51 GMT

hiya guys its been a while...but not really much to talk about,like always but hey i still get lame ass comments. lol ...anyways school is gay, just like anyother school...i was getting into trouble for cussing. funny thing is i didnt realize that i was cussing.

Thursday, April 28, 2005

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 21:49:06 GMT

man i have to go to court on a friday!!! (tomorrow) it blows but oh well, whatever happens happens

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 23:07:50 GMT

i cant believe i got stalking charges filed on me! wtf?

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 00:23:07 GMT

You kill for revenge.
That is because you have lost something or someone you held very dear. Now you can't seem to get over the loss that marked your soul, and the only solution is to go after the one person who brought all this pain to you. Chances are you are angry inside and you bottle everything up and don't talk to anyone about it. People may want to help, but you think that they can never understand your pain and only get frustrated because of this. But it is important to see all that you have left and be thankful of that even if you have lost something great. It may not be true that Times heals all wounds, but with time and talking about your feelings, maybe the hurt will ease.

Main weapon: Yourself
Quote: "You can close your eyes to reality but not to memories" -Stainslaw J. Lec
Facial expression: Gritted teeth and teary eyes

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 22:50:53 GMT

courts coming up...

Friday, April 01, 2005

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 00:31:47 GMT

well they killed that one chick today. well she died today, but they killed her. i mean i dont know why some people tried so hard for this woman to die. its gay. i kow i wouldnt want to die from not being able to eat or drink. well but the only reason why she was like the way she was, was because she was anerxic...ok well however you spell it. but the reason why she was brain damaged was because the toxins when she threw up. but its still fucked up shit!!!!

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 02:24:29 GMT

sorry if you look at my site and i dont write stuff...but im writing now. well alot of stuff has been going on right now.i have to go to court on march 30th and my mom thinks im going to have to go to juvinial hall. ok well i dont know how to spell it but what ever. But as of right now i have two felonys; agrivated assult and possesion on a deadly weapon on school grounds. well what ever to them. but anyways me and yvonne still talk i dont even know why though. all we do is fight and its dumb because i always win oh well though.im going to stop talking to her just cause she is a real bitch. and shes turing my other friends against me also. *sigh* well theres not really ne thing that i can do about that. well life kinda sucks and its not really stuff that i like or want to talk about but if i talk to you on a regular basis then you would know. umm well i gues you now have something to right soi hope your happy i think im going to to and do something im kinda mad at alot of stuff right now. and whoever writes me about this we should go out cause only my friends write me so...

Thursday, February 24, 2005

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 15:03:59 GMT

well comes monday my brother is going back to jail...*sighs*

you know i really like this song...its the type of song that i can listen to over and over again and not get tired of it

THE USED

"all that ive got"

So deep that it didnt even bleed and catch me

Off guard, red handed

Now i'm far from lonley

Asleep i still see you lying next to me

So deep that it didnt even bleed and catch me i...

I need something else

Would someone please just give me

Hit me, knock me out

And let me go back to sleep

I can laugh

All i want inside i still am empty

So deep that it didnt even bleed and catch me i...

I'll be just fine

Pretending I'm not

I'm far from lonley

And It's all that i've got

I'll be just fine

Pretending I'm not

I'm far from lonely

And it's all that i've got

I guess, i remember every glance you shot me

Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat

I squoze so hard

I stopped your heart from beating

So deep that i didn't even scream fuck me, I...

I'll be just fine

Pretending i'm not

I'm far from lonely

And it's all that i've got

I'll be just fine

Pretending i'm not

I'm far from lonely

And It's all that I've got

And It's all that i've got

Yeah it's all that i've got

It's all that I've got

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me

So deep that i didn't even scream fuck me

I'll be just fine

Pretending i'm not

Im far from lonely

And I'ts all that Ive got