so. hi. its me. ya know. this is the last entry in here. im done. seriously.  and i just want to say thanks for reading this after all the years. i dont even know i think i-ve had it for about 3 or 4 years. seriously. but i-m moving on. hahaha. Its kinda funny that i actually have to write an ending entry in here. but seriously. how could i just abanden something i confided in for so long. i hope you know xanga has been a big help to me. just getting things out. writing. what not. its been inspiring to read others entries as well. it makes me think deeper when i open up the blank white box. but. those days are gone. so. i-m ending it now. and if you want to know whats going on with me. i dont have a job right now. but i-m trying to get one. i-ll be done with school may 10th. and i have no idea what the heck i-m gonna do. i know i-m going to continue doing hair... but ya know?... i-m really scared to get out there. in all honesty. i-m just a little too insecure i guess. no matter how much i use positive words.... i never really think that way. BUT i-m only insecure about things i-m unsure of.... and when its anything to do with a change..... i usually run away from the right thing to do, because i usually dont have enough balls to face a challenge. i guess thats just me though.

there are so many people involved with this stupid ass website that i have shared a million memories with. and i thank you all for supporting me. i know i never recieved the normal 12 comments per entry that everyone i know and their mom gets, but i believe that people read this xanga. (and i-m not talking about the recent entries that have no importance) And that supported me. Just knowing that someone new how i felt was an okay thing for me.... because i wasn't saying it outloud.

so. you fellow xangazords, i-m out of here. and i wish you all the best. i love you all.

have fun in your xanga world.

sitting here with a malibu on my head. because i have so much iron in my water that its ridiculous and before i color it i have to do this every time. blahhh... so i-m actually and finally coloring my hair. same color. dark brown red violet. not to interesting. but i-m planning on either putting a black junk in the front a blonde one. i can't decide so if you want to comment on that. tell me which i should do. the black wont be as damaging so i-m thinking i-m going to go with that. hmmmmm.... so whats new you ae probably wondering? nothing really. ha. shit what a let down. i-m going to a cavs game nxt weekend with jeff for valentines day and we are staying in a hotel up there. i can't wait. <3

uhh..... i miss summer time so bad it hurts my bones. i can't wait until its 70 degrees outside. 80 degrees 90 degrees.i love hott weather. give me summer and i-ll come running. i never wanted it to end last year, but it always does. thats why i need to move somewhere warm. its actually nice today. wahoo.

tonight won't be so boring its friday night and jeff and i will probably go to bischels and get wasted or something. ha.

today i realized how much i am slacking. i really dont know what the hell i-m doing and where i am going. but i-m not sure if i want to at the moment. i just want to have fun and live day by day.... but my mind doesn't let me. because i worry and think too damn much. my mind is constant. like change. and so my mind is constantly changing. i can't concentrate on one thing for longer then 10 minutes. i guess its the gemini in me. i LOVE being a gemini. and I LOVE that i-m so true to the description its scary.

okay off to put a blow dryer on this for the remaining 15 minutes.

i loved this movie. and oh my. jake. I love you by the way. <3 haha hes so DAMN HOTT!

Kurt. I admired your existence.

you are beautiful.

the show last night......

yea. it was,"How You Say?"

                                 !!!FREAKIN AMAZING!!!