Sometimes I wish I could have even more patience.  It's pretty bad if I have this mental suppression every day.  There are a couple lines in the episode Dwight's Speech in the Office that reflect what my mind says all the time this summer:

1. Say something that people care about.  [Well I don't agree with this utterly, but I really wanna scream when people try to tell me minute, unimportant, unnecessary details that I don't care...including someone's course code.]

2. Pam, I am public speaking.  And now, you are public interrupting.

The Bible says a good friend confronts with another person alone if the other person has some wrongdoings.  Well, what if I'm not the right person though?

What is progress?  Is it measured by the result one obtains or by the amount of work one performs?  While I spend so much time aligning optics and keep modifying my design, it's a process of obtaining good results.  But before I can attain any results, am I making progress?  Cuz me modifying stuff could as well mean I wasted time on something and now since it's not good enough, I gotta modify it.  So, is it fair to say I'm not efficient at work?

One thing I'm sure is that I know I made mistakes and I learnt from them.  One danger though is that the lesson you learn may be some sort of obstacles that contrain your creativity or boldness in experimental science in the future.  Well at least it's a perspective that I have and can remind myself of when I come across a similar problem in the future.

Stuck on the same experiment for a month... I guess I can tell people how difficult this experiment is and that is.  A result-oriented business doesn't care though.

This is miserable...

I was too thirsty before I was tired enough to go to bed.  The only thing I got in my fridge was just beer.  Got one and passed out on the couch when I was guiltily watching the Chelsea Lately.  Waken up by the TV at 4am and was too awake to fall back to sleep.

Does it really have to happen on a Friday?

As crazy as it sounds, I'm willing to go to the Y at 5:30am and run my fat off after the unhealthy frozen pasta and grilled steak dinner last night.  Oh man, life can't be more chill.

Alright senioritis is totally uncool.  It went fine for me at the beginning of my senior spring semester until the glorious China Tour.  Two weeks of absolutely no work, sleeping, rehearsing, chilling, bus-riding, eating, performing and partying have turned me into a bum.  I seriously do not wanna do school works.  Or I just do not wanna meet deadlines.

SOOOO to clear my mind, and to make sure I know how screwed up I could be if I have this frickin' I-don't-care-about-shit-anymore-cuz-I-got-into-grad-school attitude, I needa \begin{enumerate} what I have to before graduation.

1. Fluids project: Read papers on optical vortices and correspondence of optical physics with fluids.  Do simulations and write up the report.
2. Quantum optics homework as usual.
3. In Itay Cohen's words, work like an animal for 410 because there's no extension.  (Man, this guy's up my ass about me being late.  Suck it jerk!)
4. Figure out graduation weekend housing for my family = = my parents + my sisters + my brother-in-law.  Juniors, POST YOUR HOUSING AVAILABILITY SO THAT I CAN EXPLOIT YOU GUYS!
5. MOVE OUT OF ITHACA AND MOVE SHIT TO BOSTON!
6. FIND HOUSING IN BOSTON WITHOUT GETTING MESSY WITH PEOPLE!
7. Work out more?
8. Possibly thesis follow-up?
9. Figure out how to come back from Corning to Ithaca to join the Reunion Weekend.

See?  There're things to do!  Going out at night is one thing, but getting shit done is more important.

You know this is a bad sign when you sleep in on a weekend cuz you thought it was Saturday.  Real bad sign...