My life has been pretty shitty this past month. I honestly am to the point where I could care less about my obligations and responsibilities, but I will follow through on them out of necessity. Sometimes I look at my actions and see myself as very culpable for everything and I probably am. I do screw up and I'm not perfect, but I think I crossed the line and really came off as an asshole tonight.

I could go into it. I could go into how I personally feel unjustifiedly assualted by some things this past month. But I won't, because I know somewhere else in the world someone is in a much shittier place than me. And as much as I want to bitch it's not going to do anything.

So I can only make ammends and try to rectify what I have seen as a bad month, and learn lessons. Maybe next time I will be better prepared when shit hits the fan.