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Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 10:13:12 GMT

Fuck that.

I need to re-evaluate my friends
because most of them can kiss my ass.
I put up with your bullshit until you did that,
and that was the straw that broke the camel's back.
So fuck you, I don't want
anything to do with you.
You used to be more decent than this,
but when everything falls through I'll be long gone.
You're a dumb cunt that doesn't know what the fuck
you're doing.

And if we hadn't been so close I'd make
my way over there and kick your ass.

At a loss for something different to say
I've said everything, we've
said it all before.

An Extra nail for your coffin.

I'm going to ride that horse
we've beaten to death
And deliver its stinking carcass
to your doorstep.
A gift from all the dead
children

That are the progeny of your
ballistic union.
Borrowing from Peter to rape Paul
No news is good news, but
I've got some news for you
Fetch me a rope, Lynch mob of
one.

An extra nail for your coffin.

Sometimes its been mentioned
For uncertain reasons
You will never quiet this storm
A cold win to chill your bones

I bring the hammer down

Borrowing from Peter to rape Paul
No news is good news, but
I've got some news for you
Fetch me a rope, lynch mob of one

Let chaos entwine
On defenseless soil
Remove errors of man
And sweep all the weakening kind

I am war, I am pain
I am all you've ever slain
I am tears in your eyes
I am grief, I am lies

Bygone are tolerance
And presence of grace
Scavengers are set out
To cleanse the human filth parade

I am pure, I am true
I am all over you
I am laugh, I am smile
I am the earth defiled

I am the cosmic storms
I am the tiny worms
I am fear in the night
I am bringer of light

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 15:35:23 GMT

In the great book of john - you're warned of the day
When you'll be laid - beneath the cold clay
The angel of death - will come from the sky
And claim your poor soul - when the time comes to die.

Chorus
When the angel of death - comes down after you
Can you smile and say - that you have been true
Can you truthfully say - with your dying breath
That you're ready to meet - the angel of death.

When the lights all grow dim - and the dark shadows creep
And then your loved ones - are gathered to weep
Can you face them and say - with your dying breath
That you're ready to meet - the angel of death.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 10:42:43 GMT

My friend Tabby is moving in with me.
I'm not quite sure when, just soon.
We went job hunting yesterday.
I applied at the following:
Moe's, Applebees, Outback, Chick Fil A,
Arby's, Sonic's, and the Ice Palace and Texas Roadhouse.

I'm doing something with Paige later
and I'm going to see a movie at midnight with Jake.

I like my summer so far. I can't wait to go to
Rock Hill with Sarah. But now that Tabby's moving in
I know she'll want to go. I wish she wouldn't because
it was supposed to be just me and Sarah. Oh well.

I hope everyone's summer is as good as mine/

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 12:02:10 GMT

All I can say is I fucking love my
summer. I don't want school to start EVER
and I'm trying not to think about it.

We sail through endless skies
Stars shine like eyes
The black night sighs
The moon in silver trees
Falls down in tears
Light of the night
The earth, a purple blaze
Of sapphire haze
In orbit always

While down below the trees
Bathed in cool breeze
Silver starlight breaks down the night
And so we pass on by the crimson eye
Of great god mars
As we travel the universe

Because

Free

Friday, June 27, 2008

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 10:27:04 GMT

The boat was SO epic.

It was me, Sarah, James, their cousin Nealy who's fuckin
cool as hell, Derek, Shelby, and Karly.
At the end of the night, it was just the girls
awake, drunk as hell jamming out to metal
and walking back and forth between the boat and the beach
and skinny dipping.

It was crazy.

I have so many blisters on my feet from walking
to the beach bare foot.
It hurts to stand.
I didn't sleep at all that night, and didn't
get back till around 10 last night, and
I straight up crashed, I was so tired.

I love that boat.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 18:13:04 GMT

Man, I am so fucked up.

Let me just review my day so you know why.

Last night I stayed at Karly's. But before
that I was at Dave's house, getting blizted.
So I go to Karly's house, and get more high and
have a 24 ounce.

Wake up this morning, go clean a friend's house.
get high before, during, and after. A lot during.
And instead of paying me in cash,
he get me a 1/2 g of blow.
So I leave with Sarah, do a little
running around, and we take
bumps. Then we go to the mall
a bit, and burn a joint on the way home.

And I'm home now,
and I'm soo fucked up.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 11:17:50 GMT

The doctor says he thinks I'm manically depressed.
I told him otherwise, but he refferred me to a psychologist anyways,
and he says he really hopes I get the right medication.
I told him to piss off.

I am not touching that shit. I know what it does
to you, and I'm not going anywhere near it. I won't
let anyone do that shit to me.
I have my antidepressant, thank you very much.
Marrryyy Jaaannnneee

[Verse 1]

Lets have a mid city fiesta with your west LA connections
Hop inside the vehicle start crossing intersections
We learning life's lessons
While we blaze this herbal essence
A man was still a child and I have so many questions
A struggle on my life till we vade the misconceptions
To find a place to live between the negatives and positives
While trying to make money slanging synonyms and homonyms
I went to pops house so I can visit moms and him
Cut to the mall got them brand new pair of timberlands
Then dipped down a one way trying to skew up double k
And chill with my people on this bright and sunny day
My nigga spliff was sippin beck's I'm slappin hands with guests

Ok the shady spot so we can circulate the stress
Mary Jane invades my brain now I can't complain
I'm sayin what else is there to do besides relax
Let the problems in your mind become ancient artifacts
Perhaps these raps can help you alleviate
The things that's got you trippin you watch me demonstrate
First you ignore the nonsense and clear your conscience
Let your pen touch the paper write verbs and consonants
As the words become a sentence you start to feelin different
The stress is out your mind you feel like the weight was lifted
Terrific I'm glad we had this time to discuss
I'm outro call me if you want to blaze one up

[Chorus]

When the stress burns my brain just like acid raindrops,
Mary Jane is the only thing that makes the pain stop.
I let the music take over my soul, body and mind
To kick back relax one time and you goin find
When the stress burns my brain just like acid raindrops,
Mary Jane is the only thing that makes the pain stop.
Just let the music take over my soul, body and mind
To kick back relax one time and you goin find

[Verse 2]

I try to keep it stress free take everyday at a time
Make sure the families in place and let the music unwind
I got men to take charge like major outlet
Ride around the country chillin in my LA express
On every street corner
The importance of having fun
If he bottle spill tobacco don't nobody carry guns
We keep our minds on fun and let the drums do the bangin
On any given day like Mr. Cooper yo we hangin
Under the blue sky the state laced the small
Belucchi quarter inched cables with all the sound that we brawl
Can't get enough so brother pass another cold one
Feel like a dad at a ball game mappin with his son
Chuck D yo word up we buggin over time
From the light to the lime original star time
It's the double criss one
It camel brought the ammo so we can shoot
Game like thugs on your sport channel
Take off the du-rag replace it with a thinkin cap
If you didn't know tell the bro he should have known that
We here for one thing and that's to remain
What's the name...name...name...nigga

[Chorus]

When the stress burns my brain just like acid raindrops,
Mary Jane is the only thing that makes the pain stop.
I let the music take over my soul, body and mind
To kick back relax one time and you goin find
When the stress burns my brain just like acid raindrops,
Mary Jane is the only thing that makes the pain stop.
Just let the music take over my soul, body and mind
To kick back relax one time and you goin find

[Verse 3]

Yo L.A. hit me one time make it funky
Double down on my underground sound I'm feelin lucky
For this jackpot I jacks pot to feelin my crips
We lay back chillin and feelin the music relates
We on the to the two hangin with my crew
Bullshittin while we sittin down drinkin our Sabu
And to the afternoon turns to the moonlight
Funky tracks and nickle sacks freestylin all night
Doin it right no one with time music make it better
My crew banging two blocks like shots from my berretta
Snub no's to the hoes who pose I suppose
Honey you gotta understand your mans got flows
And I'm leavin you so by the time I get the phoenix
Underground ground hits are goin to fiend this musical genius
Transglobal by the books
Like Barnes with noble hooks
Armed with overlooked talented guests of while bless crooks
Who still lose and keep this shit alive
Something for your truths to sit around and bye bye
For camel double invest to ease stress
We bout to hip hop so have fun and god bless

[Chorus]

When the stress burns my brain just like acid raindrops,
Mary Jane is the only thing that makes the pain stop.
I let the music take over my soul, body and mind
To kick back relax one time and you goin find
When the stress burns my brain just like acid raindrops,
Mary Jane is the only thing that makes the pain stop.
Just let the music take over my soul, body and mind
To kick back relax one time and you goin find

Something Tells Me

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 13:07:05 GMT

This summer's going to be the best one yet.

Graduation and my birthday were on saturday.
Jake's family really likes me, and I got some good pictures
of everyone in their cap and gown.
We all went to melissa's that night, and I was
on 2 valiums, so I felt wasted even though I only had 4 beers
and a couple of gulps of some liqour Russ had.

Jake didn't make his move,
but he tried to last night at Karly's. Except
I didn't hear him. The whole crew has been going the river like,
every day. It's nice.

But I asked about this today, the two of us, and if
it's really what he wanted. He said he doesn't think he's
ever been more sure of anything, that he just thinks I'm amazing.
Let me quote:

me- "Are you sure you like me? you just don't act like it,
and I don't want you doing anything you don't want to do."
him- "To be honest, I've never been more sure of anything when it comes to
something like this. I think you're amazing. I'm just not very good at expressing these
things. Sorry."

James is back in town for a couple of months. He's staying
at Karly's (they're back together) Then they're going to move away.
Then Sarah's moving away to Alabama.
Then I'll be the only girl left in the crew.

Lately it's been Roger, Hesh, Jake, and I in the day.
Roger's aunt and cousin came to visit him. They were
on their way home, back to Virginia, and the aunt and cousin got in
a car accident. The aunt was 27 and the cousin 8, they
died, and Roger...oh man. I mean, he seems to be handling it
well, I've talked to him about it and yadayada.

leaving on a better note, I'm going to try coke
this week, and Dave got his own place :)

I rise in spheres of madness

Tue, 27 May 2008 14:42:15 GMT

Let's recap, shall we?

Friday, I get dropped off at karly's.
Her, Andrew and I are walking around
for hours trying to raise money for some
shrooms. Never got it. Instead
we got a bottle Henry McHenry
and got everyone drunk.

Before the fucking sun went down, I was trashed.
Spent the rest of the night throwing up, being drunk
with everyone in Tyler's front yard, passing out a couple
times, doing stupid drunk shit, making many stops
at the gas station for more beer, and just partying
around the neighborhood.

Saturday we go swimming. Saturday night
I stay at my grandparent's, who luckily live in the
same neighborhood as all my friends.

Sunday I go out to eat with Jake. I'm trying to remember...
oh yeah. Jake got a 24 pack of coors and we went over to greg's.
I'm sick as a dog and only have 1, and greg
gives me this kickass cough medicine.
The next morning I take more, but I don't have
a teaspoon so I take a couple gulps. High
for the rest of the day. We were up till
5 that morning, just me Greg and Tyler.

My Family.

We were laying on plastic slides
of yellow youth and fresh awakening
staring at the bubble of the sky,
my atmosphere, your atmosphere.
Those black birds,
skittering here and there,
sang us a song,
a symphony
about a future that doesn't matter now
Stay that way for a moment
and I swear
we'll stick in time.
We've got the heat and hunger
and that tree over there,
the willow a few days too young,
is my witness
Bear all arms!
They've got us surrounded
We'll be laid to rest under the grass,
grass green eyes of God,
and I've got the symphony
down.by.heart.
We never needed to be believed,
just a little less time
and a pinch more of patience
We've got the willows and the birds
on our side,
and the Trial of Yellow Slides
is our only proof.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Thu, 22 May 2008 20:37:28 GMT

So I never have the same ride home.
I'm always switching it up, and
today I was really scared that I would'nt
be able to get home.

Thank god for that 7 bucks.
But now I don't have any stoags for
the rest of the weekend, god dammit.
Stupid friends bumming shit all the time.

Met a new guy, doubt it will go
anywhere because I'm so fucking
indecisive.

I never go to 4th period, and when
I do, everyone in that class knows it's just
because I didn't find a ride home yet.

Fuck em

Tremble you weakings, cower in fear
I am your ruler, land, sea and air
Immense in my girth, erect I stand tall
I am nuclear murderer I am Polaris
Ready to pounce at the touch of a button
My systems locked in on military gluttons
I rule on land, air and sea
Pass judgement on humanity
Winds blow from the bowels of hell
Will we give warnings, only time will tell
Satan rears his ugly head, to spit into the wind
I spread disease like a dog
Discharge my payload a mile high
Rotten egg air of death wrestles your nostrils
Launch the Polaris, the end doesn't scare us
When will this cease
The warheads will all rust in peace
Bomb shelters filled to the brim
Survival such a silly whim
World leaders sell missiles cheap
Your stomach turns, your flesh creeps

High priests of holocaust, fire from the sea
Nuclear winter spreading disease
The day of final conflict
All pay the price
The third world war
Rapes peace, takes life
Back to the start, talk of the part
When the Earth was cold as ice
Total dismay as the sun passed away
And the days where black as night

Eradication of Earth's
Population loves Polaris