Well it's been a great week for me. I've learned a lot about myself in the last week or so. About where I am in my walk with God, and where I thought I was. Last week I had the pleasure of surprising Christine with a special date. It was great. I don't have enough battery life on my computer to tell you all about it, but it was great. This last weekend I got to go home for a night and take Chris with me. I love taking her home. It's makes me so happy that my family loves her. In fact I'm not certain, but I think that they love her more than they love me. That's cool though because I plan on keeping her around for a while. As I sit here in chapel typing this, trying to multitask, I'm finding it hard to type because the sermon is pretty good. I love this guys accent. He has a big southern draw. Reminds me of home. I know what your thinking. I should be paying attention and not typing out a xanga post, but hey I can multitask. I'm good like that. Anyway, I'll try to post more later this week, but I just wanted to post something, since I get yelled at for not posting often.

I hae been "tagged", whatever that may mean, and I guess I'll give five random facts about me.

1.) I hate these stupid things, and can't honestly tell you why I'm doing this.

2.) I am deathly afraid of clowns. All clowns! Except maybe Krusty the clown, he's a cartoon, and Bozo, too many fond childhood memories and that crazy clown and the Grand Prize Game. You older folks can appreciate that. Man I miss Bozo and Cookie.

3.) When I was a kid I used to pretend to like to play Barbies with my sister. What she didn't know is that when she left the room I would pull my He-Man or GI Joes from my back pocket or wherever I happened to hide them out and preceed to establish an all out assualt on the Barbie dream house. The Barbies had to burn. Ken didn't stand a chance.

4.) I've read my favorite book "The Legend of Huma" close to 15 times. I love that book, obviously. However I have a hard time opening my Bible and reading small amounts of scripture everyday. Makes me wonder where my heart truly is.

5.)  I spent the first five years after I figured out there was no such thing as Santa Clause pretending I still believed, cuz I thought my mom would stop buying me presents if I didn't believe anymore.  Not to mention how fun it was knowing that my mom was clueless to the fact that I knew.

Hey guys, well as I've been told over and over for the last week or so, I need to update so here you go. This has been a very eventful month for me. And honestly, though most of my post are rather long, if i tried to sum this month up, it would take me an hour to type it all out. Things started out well, I went camping for Christine's birthday. We had a great time there, playing in the lake, skipping rocks, taking walks late at night, staying up all hours of the night, sleeping under the stars, driving for hours just to find fire wood only to find everyone asleep upon our return(it was a good trip though, I had great company), and just spending time around the fire joking and having fun. The highlight of the month I would have to say, and probably the best thing to happen to me in quite a while, is the development of a great relationship with Christine. Even through the drama.  I know some of you are dying of shock right now. Yes, I know it's hard to believe, but Tommy does finally have a girlfriend. Hold your applause until the end please. I know the shock of finding out that I'm not gay will be too much for some of you to handle, but I pray for God to comfort you, and see you through this confusing time. But seriously, she is a wonderful girl and a beautiful person. I feel very blessed that she is willing to be a part of my life. I certainly don't deserve her, and I pray that as our relationship develops we learn to care for each other in ways that neither of us has ever known before. Please as my friends be in prayer for God's leadership for Chris and me. This last week I had the privilage of taking Christine home to meet my family. It was a great trip and I was very pleased with the reception she recieved from my family. I had forgotten how exciting it can be to be in relationship, and the sense of fulfillment that fills your heart when you find someone who compliments you so well. I'm so thankful for her.

Well I'll stop embarrassing her and move on to some of the things that God has been showing me. As I read my Bible this morning I turned to Psalms 1 and read this.

"How happy is the man who does not follow the advice of the wicked, or take the path of sinners, or join a group of mockers! Instead, his delight is in the Lord's instruction, and he meditates on it day and night. He is like a tree planted beside the streams of water that bears its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers. The wicked are not like this; instead, they are chaff that the wind blows away. Therefore the wicked will not survive the judgment, and sinners will not be in the community of the righteous. For the Lord watches over the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked leads to ruin."

As I read this the Holy Spirit began to speak to me about my focus in life. How often do I look away from the things of Gd for comfort? How often do I seek worldly pleasures to fill the spot in my heart that is meant for God? Why then, when I seek these things out do I not find true happiness? Honestly I felt so stupid in that moment. I can't tell you how many times I've been knocked on my rear by God when He reveals my selfishness to me. I can't tell you how many times I've fallen on my face, either literally or metaphorically, and asked God to forgive me for being the selfish person that I am, only to pick those desires and actions that I tried to cast away right back up when God's conviction has lessened. I am conviced and have known for some time that true happiness is found in Christ and Christ alone. Not in things, possesions, prestige, or relationships. My girlfriend will never be able to fill God's spot in my heart. My job won't. Or one of my greatest desires, a new guitar won't. These things, while in thier own respect can be fulfilling, are but chaff in the wind. Happiness, true happiness is found in the Righteousness of God. In reading His Word, in doing His work. It is vanity and wickedness to try to rely on things or people for happiness. To walk in past and revel in the life I used to live is idiocracy.  To remember and speaking fondly of times and things I did while living in a sinful lifestyle is foolishness.  Christ has given me so much more.  His blessings are eternal.  I know that this scripture doesn't really talk about these things but this is just what was spoken to my heart as I read.

Also please be in prayer for my family, My grandmother passed away last night.  It'll will be a time of sorrow for many, and I hope and pray that God would reveal Himself to many on that side of my family through these traggic circumstances.