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These past couple of weeks I have learned a lot. Most people know whats going on w/ me. But the sad things is mostly everybody knows a differnt story whether it means I told to much or didn't say enough. No one knows all the truth............ Except for me.

                               I feel like I live in a world that doesn't exist. I have learned something very true, but I can't seem to follow it, and it's hurting people because I can't do it. I have learned the most way to feel good is letting people in, and you don't have to keep pride, you can ask for help, and I have tried so hard to do so but I just can't. And it's killing me, I have to let go of something that was a big part of my life, but it's so hard. I want to be completely happy and I know I can't be fully happy until it's gone, but what do you do when a part of you still what's it in your life even if its in a differnt way then before?  :sigh: I guess I am gonna have to learn in time, or learn how to push my pride aside and let go.

                                                                                     Sami

OK............ I know there are gonna be a whole bunch of people mad at me. But here is the rest of the story for those of you that know what happend.

                  Yesterday night I went to the pool hall w/ Jonna. Not the best decision, it was really uncomfortable. Me and Jonna talked, but the more me and him talked the more I realized how much I care about Daniel. To me Jonna did not sound sincere about a lot of the things he said, so finally towards the end of the convo I explained to him how much I care about Daniel. And I was actually starting to get mad, I was getting mad at myself for going and talking to Jonna after what he did to me back in september, it's like what is the deal. Jonna does something a million times worse to me and everybody is ok w/ it? I dont get it...........

                            SO anyways, we were at the pool hall, I really wasn't talking I just wasn't having fun. SO when me and Jonna were talking and I explained to him that my heart was w/ Daniel. And after that I asked Jonna to take me him. So we were on our way home and Jonna was still trying to talk to me about it, and the whole time he was talking I was staring out the window just praying to god, If I am supposed to be w/ Daniel give me some kind of sign that I am supposed to be w/ him. And not 2 or 3 seconds later Jonna screams out "There's Jeremy and Daniel's in the car too." My heart dropped I told Jonna to turn around, and he told me there probably on there way to the pool hall. And sure enough when he got there Daniel was there. I ran out of Jonna's car and hugged Daniel. everything from there is so confusing. I can't even remember a lot. But me and Daniel are back together and I would really appreciate it, if ya'll respect my decision. by the way we are talkin things real slow this time

Hey all. School started last week. It was pretty ok, nothing real big happened. It was just school. There has been some drama already, but its no big deal I am staying out of it this year. I'll talk to my friends, but if I hear people saying stuff about me I am just gonna ignore it. It's not worth it at all.

                      I am so bored. I finally got my computer fixed today. Yay! Maybe i'll update more, when I have the time. Well that's about it. Me and my "life"  Later ya'll

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                       "Live like you were dying"