tonight as i told my best friend good bye as he was getting ready to head off to college, this all became a reality to me. high schools over. everything i've come to know and love is done. everyone that i've became close to and shared memories and called my friends are leaving. it's time for the real world. something new. and it scares the hell out of me. am i ready for it?

                                                            j-blunt

If you see her, tell her I'm doing fine
And if you want to, say that I think of her from time to time
Ask her if she ever wonders where we both went wrong
If you see her.
If you see her.

Oh, I still want her
And I still need him so

Oh, I don't know why we let each other go

If you see her, tell her the lights still on for her

is there ever someone or something or some event that is just always on your mind? that's always there? that effects your life and how you live? that just makes things seem so impossible?

what do you do? how do you deal with it? what relieves this unbarable pain?

lost

forcing myself to do the right thing. even if it is what hurts the most. hoping it will help you.

i miss you.

you know those movies... where in the end, everybody leaves and goes about there way? i feel just like that right now. the last 18 years of are lives are comming to an end. and we're all going to go about are ways and go on to something else. and the thing about the movie is, is that it's the end so you don't see what happens after that. we don't know what is happen after this. we all write our own "after the movie lives."

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