I have been a ghost on xanga as of late. My apologies. I will try to become one with this weblog community again, but not today, no not tod..........

Okay so it's been a little while. Lol, three days, what an eternity.

My friend told me, "You can't be happy with other people until you're happy with yourself." It seems like a simple comment but it is so true. And I'm trying very hard to be happy with myself. But it is hard to let go of an entire philosophy you've believed in for so long.

Anywho, the first step in letting go is for me to stop relying too heavily on my friends. They are good to me, but if or when they let me down, I crash emotionally. I can't be a slave like that to another persons whim. Especially that girl I used to like.

But hey its getting easier to forget her, especially since i have a full dating schedule this week. 3 girls and there's another i'm thinking about asking out. She's 18 though, and i guess that's a little young, but she's very nice and very mature so I dunno. Oh also she's black, which doesn't bother me in the least bit, but I do live in the south and people here still aren't very tolerant of interracial couples. Whatev's, that isn't going to affect my decision, it's just something I thought about.


I'm keeping the face up because we've spent a lot of time together recently. He apparently doesn't want to write on here, but that doesn't mean he isn't gone. At least things have gotten better in that regard.

Dear Dallas,
I'm writing to you in ink,
So it'll smudge like my memory,
With all the shots I drink,
Sincerely, me.