ohhhhhhhhhh boyeee . i need a job !

sooo everything's beeen falling into place =] since the start of senior school year .. i guess i was able to finally prioritize ( if that's even a word ) everything that was going on in lifeee . grades are pretty good except ap psych . ohhh man . i can't survive staying awake in that class . it's all lecturing .. i hope ill get used to it sooon or else it'll keeep ruining the look on my report card >_< as for counseling .. i dont know why lately i havent beeen really "Feeeling" it . for some reason i feel like im not doing the right things or saying the right stuff anymore . agh . hopefully it aint from all the drama & everything . i dont know . lets hope it gets better & we'll all be lovey dovey happy family again .

as for the family life . ohhh man . so many changes . soo it's official now .. jewlie & troy are gettin` married next year -- july 19, 2008 . crazy crazy . imaginee it . it'll be right after i graduate and everything . im going to be busy busy . but im soooo excited .. i'll be the maid of honor for the church part & then troy's sister will switch with me & be the maid of honor for the reception part since i'll be busy with performing dances & singging . maaan im scared .. i dont even know who's going to be my partner & be the groomsman .. i asked a couple of people but i guess they either dont want to be my partner .. or they just dont wanna do it period . ugggh .. but imagining trying on dresses to  not sleeeping the night before cause i know jewlie wont be sleeping and pluus we're gonn havta go to the salon place by 3 am just to do our makeup & hair on time ...... =] =]
besides that .. the family drama pretty much died down .. brother & his family are close with us now . but as for the uncles .. not so very great . i guess everyone's just tired of trying to fix things .

as for friends . i've been trying to even out my time so i could spend a little bit of it with everyone .. but for some reason i can't seem to get it right . i guess with the whole night school thing & going back to thieu nhi makes it all more complicated .. but its not like im complaining . im so glad im back in thieu nhi .. and thats basically why im not working yet when i should be to pay off everything for senior year . boo hoo . i feel bad though cause i havent been talking to a lot of people that i used to talk to 24/7 .. especially the best friend . but im thankful she understands <3 but yeea .. this school year has been different from the rest . let's just say it wasn't really what i expected . i dont have any classes with most of the people i had for classes last year . so it was kinda like starting over again with a new group of people . it's good in a way i guess since ill be able to concentrate more .. but it's bad since the classes aren't as fun .. suucks since it's senior year .

as for myself . to be honest . i said everything has beeen falling into place . except for one thing . my feelings . i don't know if you noticed .. but my blog basically went on & on about so many different things . im not even sure what my point in writing this entry was for . even though im back in tn and my grades are up and im able to focus more in school and everything in the family is great now, i feel so confused & lost inside . i get these weird random moments where i'd just zone out & feel so saaad -- without even knowing why . well, whatever it is .. let's hope it goes away before it ruins my whhole senior year . especially with the holidays coming up just around the corner .

soo saturday turned out better then me & my friends/ classmates thought =] got to school . the morning started off really slow . we were moved to the cosmo's classroom so we were all cramped up in the back . as far as where we're working at on saturdays . id rather be in our room where its roomy & stuff & work there insteaaad . but yeaa .. so i didnt get any clients until janine came in . which was my first one for the day .. she was supposed to get a spa manicure .. but her dad was waitin so i couldnt take long . therefore she only got a regular one .. yuuup . we got some laughs here & there in betweeen her  manicure .. then she left .. and from then on . wow . it was packeeed . we had clients back to back after that for the rest of the day until 3:30 ish ? yuuup . i saw this girl gettin a wet set which is like gettin your hair permed . except it only lasts a couple days .. & i really really liked it . soooo the upcoming saturday hopefully imma get mine done for free unless we have a lotta clients . compared to gettin it done outside at a shop which is 35-40 $ =] yuuup . blahblah .. so then after school .. dad picked me up & we got home . i was supposed to get ready for church .. but i ended up knocking out at the computer table until 5 minutes before my parents were gonn` leave for church -_- maaan i was so tired at church . i was trying really hard not to fall asleeep cause shoot . tired tired tired . yuuup . that night i didnt go anywhere causeee no ridee & the person i wanted to chill with was i guess busy or didnt wanna talk to me . again . whatever i dont even wanna get into that .

sundaay . man . started off so slow & boring .. all i basically did was babysat gloria & helped mom until like 7 ish ? justin calls to go eat but i was still doing stuff .. so he gave me half & hour to finish & shower >_< wtheeck . so i took a 7 minute shower which btw was the shortest shower ive ever taken . punk . it started sprinkling too but i didnt wanna wear a jacket so i stood in theee pretty sprinkling rain until he came =] he was beinggg kinda moody cause of some stuff .. so yeaa .. the ride there was kinda quiettt & weeird .. we picked up bryan .. then nick & ryan .. then went to guppies . he parked supperrrr far . whatta loser =] we hadda wait for a good 20 minutes ? then got seated .. and we all ordered except bryan .. they decided to mess wid kristine & say bryan was in college going to uci & stuff .. she came .. & they told her & she believed it .. so on so foorth . i was kinda out of it cause i guess earlier in the day i was being reminded of things i didnt really need to think aboutt anymore .. yeaa .. nick was being mean for the first time to me .. but its okay . cause i was mean back =] soo yeaa .. justin bryan peter & nick came up with this K4 thing .. and whoever else who aint in it are 'commoners' and i guess im oneeee of that .. so they kept picking on me & ryan .. but its okay . cause they're lame os =] so thennn after that we all got in the car & went to nick's .. the boys were inside chillin for a bit while me & kristine were int he car .. then took bryan homee .. & from there until kristinee got dropped off it was another quiet awkward moment cause justin was kinda mad . it was the first time ive seen him like thaat . hmm . it wass preettyy weeird . mhmmmmm . i got home & looked in my bag for my keys to find his bag of gushers that i saved for him >_< so then i just ended up eating it & i said id replace them some other time =] yuuuup . later on in the night he called & we talked for a goood hour & a half ? i was glad we did =] we havent had that kinda talk for a loong time . it felt nice havingg him to talk to every night again =] along with marian's lovely goodnight calls <3 and janine's random sneakky calls ;]

as for todaaay everything went back to beingg boring & tiring & exhausting agaaain .. all the bookworks & lectures drives me crazzy >_< today my mom didnt make me any lunch either so i basically starved for the whole day . mhmmm . as for the rest of the week . im hoping to see some of my friends & stuff come in for more manicures or wudever =] hopefully that'll come through . OH ! and yesterday at guppies .. brittani called me . wow i just noticed ever since nail school i havent talked to anyone from poly reallyyy . i miss my peer counselors =[ <3 but yeeaa .. she called to see wassup . & alsoo she's president of the yellow ribbon suicidal prevention club .. & she wanted to ask me if i'd be vice president . annnnd of course i said yes =] soo now ill be yellow ribbon's vice president . o0h wee im excited =] yuuppp . its waaay past my bedtime now . goodnight world =]

<3

what a looong week . & it aint even over yet -_-

so this week was the first week we started having walk - in clients . boy oh boyyyy was itt packeed . it was definitely fun though . mhm =] so my first clieent was a man . then all the clients after that were ladies . soo i guess i was unconsciously nervous or sumtyn cause i wasnt nervous at all .. but before starting anything .. i was supposed to soak the client's hands/feet in a tub full of soapy water . but dumb mee .. i forgot to put in soap .. so my instructor was like psssssst . juuudy .. im like yeaa ? shes like uhh .. wheres yur soap ? i was likeee its there =] shes like no its not ? maaaan i felt soo stupid .. aha .. to think that my client was sittin there in the plain water tub for a good 10 minutes .. aha .. yeaa .. & all of us instead of puttin the dirty towels in the towel bin .. we ended up puttin` it into the trashcan .. so by the end of the day we had to dig out about 6-7 towels .. aha .. it wasss for sureeee fun though =] i got tipped 5$ the first day .. and a couple more the next couple days =] yuuup . thats basically all i did this whole week . school & work . tomorrow will be our first dayy of working on saturdays too . rawr . 6 out of 7 days a week for work . exhaustin ! but i guess its good practice .. & then janine's coming in at 10:30 tomorrow to get a manicure =] i hope tomorrow turns out great though . cause we're being moved to the cosmo.'s room to work instead of being in our own room where we would have our own space & everything . rawr . i hope they're not mean =[ especially with their attitudes they be giving our class =I  yuuuuuuup =] thats about it . im tiireddd so imma sleep now =] goooodnight ! <3