Are we moving?
Hmmmm...
About 16 years ago, Tom moved me, very pregnant with our first baby, plus two cats, a whole bunch of fuzzy, crazy, adorable kittens, and a little U-haul of our meager belongings hitched up to the back of our 1978 black Camero, from Louisiana to Houston. If I remember correctly, it actually took two trips to move our stuff. (And that move was an adventure - a whole 'nother story in itself!)
Anyway, my entire life -all 19 years of it, tee hee- I just knew that I would always live in Louisiana, and of all places, I would never live in Houston. So, when I found out that we were moving to Houston, I was quite distraught. Feeling our precious baby growing and moving in me, I knew that I had to go for Baby, for financial reasons. I told myself to think of the Baby, suck it up, and do it for him.
But I was majorly depressed over it. I comforted myself by saying that we'd only live in Houston for 6 months, maybe 1 year tops, until the economy got better for us in Louisiana. Well...obviously that didn't happen.
All these years I've been trying to be a good trooper, a sweet wife by not driving my husband nuts about it - I'm afraid I haven't fared very well with that, actually. Thankfully, Hubby has been very kind with me about it.
Now, I'm not saying that we're moving back to Louisiana (darn), but it looks like maybe we are going to get to move outside of Houston. It's kinda crazy, really - we will both have to commute. And so it's not Louisiana, but it's not officially Houston. 
I'm trying soooo hard to not get my hopes up, because it's not for certain just yet. But I've been trying to get the heck outa here before I even got here. I can still remember when we first entered Houston - as I saw the landscape turn into concrete, and the tall bridges and humongous buildings and nasty pollution and nastier bill board advertisements, tears just poured down my checks. I was trying so hard to have a good attitude about it, but I felt like I was having an anxiety attack or something. I wanted to just jump out of the moving car and run back home.
So I'm still not going back home, but maybe I'll at least be able to get outa here!
*and I'm sorry if I've offended anyone who loves Houston - but it's my blog, so deal. HA!
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I've been trying so hard all these years to come to be happy here, but I just can't. I want to be a happy person for everyone, but my heart has been aching for so long. Waaaaa...I'm homesick. But apparently God had/has other plans. I know God's plans are better than anything I could plan, but knowing that doesn't get the country outa the girl. I am the Wayfar'n Stranger. I can change my grammer, even my accent, but not my heart.
If I cain't go back, I hope I can at least get out of here a little ways, even if we do have to commute. But I don't know fer sure just yet.
But am I being selfish? ...Will I push my Hubby too hard to have to drive so much? Will it drive my kids nuts? And while you're telling my fortune...what's the winning lotto numbers for next week?
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