Currently Listening What If? By Emerson Drive A Good Man see related

Now im not one to whine about much.. but lately, my life has sucked like no other.  Lots of confusing things going on and im not sure how anything's gonna roll anymore.. don't know if i want to know how it's gonna roll..

my dreams arent that complicated..
i wanna be the one
when all is said and done
who lived a good life
loved a good wife
always helped someone in trouble
on the day they lay me down
i want everyone to gather 'round and say he was a father, neighbor, brother and friend
he was a good man..

Nickelback's "Far Away"... pretty much explains current/past/future situations

This time, this place
Misused, mistakes
Too long, too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
You know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
You know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long

So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go