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Name: APRiL Gender: Female
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"i'll always be here for you" left.
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| Sometimes, you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life.
i'd rather live my life to the fullest then to conduct myselfin a certain way to gain approval from others.i have no regrets ++ especially ;no apologies "This girl I know... she's been through hell. I mean she's strong, but she's not unbreakable. Not by a long shot. The truth is, I really don't think it'd take much to completely and totally destroy her. She's brave, and rather coldhearted. She acts like nothing gets to her, but if you're one of the lucky ones she lets in, you'd see that a lot of it gets to her. People call her a bitch because... well... she has a tendency to be one. But it's not really true. She acts like that because if she doesn't, somebody might get close enough to realize that she is in fact one of the nicest people... ever. She'd go out of her way to make someone else happy, when it took her every fiber of her being just to get out of bed that morning. She's really strong, she is. But she's really fragile too. It took her a hell of a lot to get up, but she did it In order to get over your past ... ... you have to make a new beginning. ARMED WiTH AN ATTiTUDE THAT SHE KN0WS H0W T0 USE, SHE'S G0NNA GET THERE ANYWAY SHE CAN. N0W SHE KN0WS WHAT SHE WANTS, N0 0NE iS G0NNA ST0P HER, N0THiNG'S EVER G0NNA H0lD HER D0WN, F0R All THE D0UBTERS, N0N BEliEVERS, THE CYNiCAl THAT 0NCE WERE DREAMERS 0NE 0F THESE DAYS Y0U'll KN0W Y0U WERE WR0NG <3 &&. i'm still deciding if meeting you was a good thing.. I think I'm finally getting used to The sucky days caused by you, The fake smiles & "good times" The glances over that now Mean absolutely nothing, How whenever I get that "1 New Text Message", I'm always hoping that it's you, The plans that never really happen. I think I'm finally getting used To liking you & all that comes with it. There are two things in this life that makes me cry. The first is death, because it's a lost life; the second is love, because it never wanted me. I've never been in love, so I guess I don't know the happiness of love. I've never been nor am I now. I'm kind of afraid to step that deep into something, because I'm just tired of giving everything I've got. But it's hard, when you know that you could be giving more, but you're just giving what you want to give. Not because you're receiving less, but just because, just simply because, you're afraid to admit to yourself that you would give that person your whole world. And you're just afraid that your whole world or your everything just might not be enough. You just don't want to end up empty handed & admit to yourself that you wanted to give them everything. He has the most adorable eyes you could ever fall for and the cutest smile that takes your breath away. He has the ability to make you laugh every time he speaks and whenever you look into his eyes it's so hard to turn away She could feel him wrapping his arms around her and giving her one of the hugs she missed so much. You wonder why I’m so cold You could’ve been more involved but no. I'm not the girl that you knew before I can't believe you didn't know I'm grown now She’s moved on & I feel sorry for you because she thought you were the most amazing boy ever. If she could have any guy in the world, she would have picked you above all the others. She thought you were different, she was wrong. You’re just another guy to her now. Always tell someone how you feel. Mean what you say & say what you mean even when it’s hard because opportunities are lost in the blink of an eye, but regrets can last a lifetime. But I’m too tired to go to sleep tonight and I’m too weak to follow dreams tonight. For the first time in a long time I can say that I want to try to get better and overcome each moment in my own way. I think the hardest part about this situation is that neither of us know what's going on. Neither of us knows what each other is thinking & we're both trying to make decisions based on information we don't know.
You're going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it's always their actions you should judge them by. It's the actions, not words, that matter. You didn't intentionally break my heart. You even said you were sorry. But I cried anyway. I know the truth that you're to scared to admit. You're with her, but when you're with me, you can't remember her name. I want to trace your scars with my fingertips, want to follow it's fracturing line. I think you should know how beautiful and brave you already are.
Alice: I simply must get through! Doorknob: Sorry, you’re much too big, simply impassible. Alice: You mean impossible? Doorknob: No, impassible. Nothing’s impossible. - Alice In Wonderland.there's nothing i wouldn't do to hear ur voice again I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel
"if we threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone elses, we'd grab ours back."
For one split second she almost turned around, but that would be like pouring raindrops back into a cloud. So, she took another step and said, "I see the way out, and I'm gonna take it." He misses you? Good, he should. You're sexy, pretty, fun, outgoing, and fun to be around. Guys that haven't met you yet, miss you. But don't get back together with him, because somewhere out there is a guy searching really hard for you. He's the one that deserves someone amazing like you. Let him have it and not the jerk that left you. He says he's jealous of the moon, because you look at it. He's jealous of the sun, because it warms you. He says, "I feel you, even when I'm not feeling you. I talk to you when I'm not talking to you. I love you, even when I'm not loving you." I'd like to think the best of me is still hiding up my sleeve.one has ever gotten to me like you. I've never found anyone who makes me laugh like you. You're the one person I can honestly see myself happy with. The definition of love to me is you. "I know it seems hard sometimes but remember one thing. Through every dark night, theres a bright day after that. So no matter how hard it get, stick your chest out, keep ya head up.... and handle it."-tupac++ Cut it out. Don't start with your pathetic excuses. Lies come out of your mouth like breath. And I'm starting to realize that'll never change. You'll never change. You can't find the truth, so you pick the lie you like best. The guilt in your voice leaves me no room for words. If your looking for the truth, you have to Chances are I'll never get a moment like this again, So here's everything I ever wanted to tell you. No
shut up. Most people I know fill their days with meaningless bull shit, small talk, and trivial diversions just to keep the noise in the their own heads down. that's all drugs and alcohol do, they cut off your emotions in the end. It's amazing how it can take a lifetime for you to get over him, but he can always get over you after a few days. Like nothing ever happened. But it all happened; the first kiss, the long nights, the stupid fights Fate is like a strange unpopular restaurant filled with odd waiters who bring you things you never ask for and don't alway like -Lemony Snicket I wish we'd never met. I'm tired of being bored. I'm through with the headaches. Hiding my hands that tremble like earthquakes. Under the table, under the daytime sky. GoodBye. sleep is overrated. We stay awake and cry. If this is love, than kill me now. And save me from my life.
I wrote a goodbye not in lipstick on your arm. When you passed out, I couldn't bring myself to call, except to call it quits.
And you'll hear a break of laughter as she smiles, an outburst of noise. The perfection is there if you crawl underneath the first layer of mistakes and insecurities. And there you'll see that person worth listening to, the one that most people try to find in themselves. The brutal truth is you just gotta wake up and look around. We are not in 3rd grade anymore and your heros, your angels--whatever you want to call them--well, they can't save you for much longer. | | |
| Speak when you're pissed. It'll be the best speech, You'll ever regret i've got some problems but we've got ten dollars that's enough to get us wasted before the night is over these past 5 days i've been completely sober, but tonight i'm getting ripped wide open You may feel alone when you're falling asleep and every time tears roll down your cheeks, but I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet, and someday you will be loved.
It`s so weird, & confusing that when I say I don`t know what to do, I really mean it. One minute you`re making me laugh out loud, like no other guy can, & the next I just want to get up & leave cause you piss me off so much. I'm not going to stress over you anymore. It isn't worth it. I tried to work something out, but you ignored it. I'm not trying to say that I don't want you, because I definitely do. All I'm saying is I'm done chasing after you.
actually , to be honest i dont give a fuck; i lose & make friends/enemies day by day. it doesn't change anything. remind you; ima still be me regardless he was born to be a leaver, and destined to deceive her. he was the wrong kind of paradise. but I guess that’s just another lesson in life He's the kind of boy you can flirt with, yet still talk to like he's your best friend. he asked me if I was alright and, shocked, I looked at him. after ignoring me all day. "you ripped out my heart. threw it on the ground. and jumped on it several times yeah I'm alright. dumbass."
She was trying to figure it all out. Maybe she liked him, or maybe she liked the idea of him it's good to be scared. it means you have something you're afraid to lose. I can see myself waking up next to you. Your face being the first thing I see Every day with your bed head hair And that sleepy smile. you've changed me ; shaped me into this girl who is actually capable of loving someone * when just months ago, she couldn't even love herself. &The world looks so much brighter with you by my side<3 girl: i love hoodies. they're like my comfort clothes. boy: comfort clothes? girl: yeah. the things that always make you feel better. like comfort food and stuff. mine's chocolate. you know what i mean? stuff like that. boy: does that make you my comfort person? <3 i know technically we're not together, but forget the title and whatever. because if you look into my eyes and listen to what i have to say, you'll know i`m the one girl who will never walk away.. <33 I remember when I used to be the happiest, loudest, spunkiest person alive. Nothing could get me down for very long. I smiled all the time and laughed nonstop. I still see glimpses of that girl sometimes, but not much. I miss her. She was a good kid. sweetheart; he's just a lesson you needed to learn. When you look at a person- any person at all. Just remember that everyone has a story. Everyone has gone through something that has changed them. It's like acoustic guitars and faded tube socks. Worn down converse and a broken in sweatshirt. You're so last season, but baby I never follow the trends. Truth: Girls read between the lines, analyze everything you say, and late night convo's always have backspaces with what she is trying to say. The real trouble with my sarcasm, is that half the time when people think I'm being sarcastic I'm actually being quite sincere. the world is lurking with people who are out there to hurt you in any way possible.
Sometimes it just takes patience for everything to happen. You won't get respect in just one day, you can't be in love with someone that you just met & you won't be able to forgive yourself in a second. I've learned that helping people is good, but helping someone too much won't let them grow. You grow by making mistakes, getting hurt, & learning from your regrets. Thoughts are there to help guide you to your decision. It's you that have to take that first step into the pathway of happiness. It's your doing that makes you who you are. Don't assume; get your fact straight. That is what messes a lot of people up. There's always the true story & reasoning behind everything. We are all different, but have one thing in common; we all want happiness. It is like we're all trying to fight for it, trying to get what we want & it make us forget the whole reason why we wanted it in the first place. Nobody said life is going to be easy; life is what you make of it. Change for the better; don't change for someone else. Change for yourself. Don't be selfish. Don't limit yourself from doing things just because you don't think you can make it through. Remember -- time isn't going to wait for you, so make the best of it. Don't you get it? No matter how many times you ask if I'm okay, its always going to be the same answer, "I'm fine", "I'm okay", "I'm good." I can't tell you that I'm not okay, that answer would get old after a while because you see every time you have asked if I'm okay and every time I nodded and smiled...it was lie. Shes living up to the expectation of never letting anything get to her... but something wrong with that smile today... Congradulations kid you got to her. Sometimes, all you can do is not think not wonder; not obsess; not imagine. Sometimes you have to just breathe. breathe in, breathe out. | | |
| remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something. Sometimes , someone just says something and it [ fits ] into this empty place in your heart <3He looked at me and said, "Do you ever feel like you're working for something you're never going to get. You shoot and miss kind of deal like, no matter what you can't have it, but that makes you fight for it just a little bit more?" I looked at him, stared at him for a second and replied, "Everyday..." life is kinda hard sometimes, especially when every move you make feels like a test of strength to survive anotherday without breaking down don't get attached you know better than anyone what happens when you get attatched if ductape, band aids, Advil, or Tylenol can't fix it, you have a serious problem. There's always that one person, no matter how long it's been or how badly they've treated you, if they say "I love you", you will always say it back. I'd much rather be a princess than a slut with regrets; because diamonds are better than cigarettes. I yearned to get better; I told myself I was getting better. In fact, the depression was still there, like a powerful undertow. Sometimes it grabbed me, yanked me under; other times, I swam free. Throw up you're a bulimic doll. Throw up those sleeping pills too. Suicide isn't pretty. Beauty-it's what you strive for. Glamour never came easy I hate it when people tell me, "I can't believe you don't have a boyfriend!" Well what's so hard to believe? I've never been good enough for anyone I like him, okay? So shoot me. It's like a crime to you, isn't it? Oh well. Not like he would ever think about dating his best friend. anyone can make you smile, many people can make you cry.but it takes someone really special to make you smile with tears in your eyes. it's amazing how every girl has that one guy, that could call her up, at 3 in the morning, & say "lets hang out, i'm coming to get you" & put aside her show, her excitement, her anger or her hate for him.. she'd give him only 4 words.. "Give Me 10 Minutes i look at you and motherfuckingassholeihopeyoufuckingdie comes to my mind
it's funny when people say "i don't think she likes me." honey, if i don't like you, you're going to know about it -Julia Roberts Chemistry can be a good thing & a bad thing. Chemistry is good when you make love with it. Chemistry is bad when you make crack with it. -Adam Sandler I miss you a little, a little too much actually. And a little more everyday.
"in my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your butt. that's the kind of person that's worth sticking to." - juno i love that you get cold when it’s 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you’re looking at me like I’m nuts. I love that after I spend a day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it’s not because I’m lonely, and it’s not because it’s New Year’s Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. -- When Harry Met Sally I’m not allowed to fall in love," she said.I’m not allowed to care this much." But when you're staying up late, hoping to God he's tossing and turning, thinking of you, it's too late already. & ya words can't reach me; you are so beneath me . a queen is a queen because failure has not stopped her"
I dont get my hopes up anymore. sorry.there are a lot of things about me that aren't what you thought, but if you love me you have to love all things about me -dirty dancing you can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, even months analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, should've, would've happened. or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on. "if someone were to harm my family or a friend or someone i love, i would eat them. i might end up in jail for 500 years,
but i would eat them" -Johnny Depp
One day you're jumping in puddles [&&] the next thing you know, 30 years have passed [&&] you're telling your kids to walk around them. Everyone is taught to look both ways before crossing the street [&&] to talk quietly in the library. But no one ever learns anything that matters, like how to keep breathing when your heart breaks in half <|3 Hug the hurt, kiss the broken, befriend the lost, love the lonely.
he who does not feel me, is not real to me; therefore he doesn't exist. so POOF.. vamoose, son of a bitch. - jay z
the game's out there, and it's play ; or get played. that simple. - the wire could it be? it can't be, hun i'm callin ya bluff i must be high off this weed cus i ain't fallin in love the problem ain't who i hear it from, it's that i didn't hear it from you. - leave it to beaver stop talking about love. every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. it means nothing. it still doesn't mean anythiing. what you feel only matters to you. it's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters. it's the only thing that counts.
your fingers hooked around my belt loops ; leaning up against my riide... remember the first time ii touched you. iit doesn't matter, ii've held you a miillion tiimes and iit still feels good. If you're not ready, you're not ready. Please stop acting like you are. I asked him one day, 'Why all the drugs?' He told me then and there, 'I find that life is easier when it is all a blur.' | | |
| I looked out the car window today and i'm realizing that i miss you again, it's funny how out of nowhere you came to mind, the truth is, i wish you were still here. & you ask why I haven’t talked to you, Well maybe its because you slowly pushed me out of your life. I'm glad you're finally noticing. Now I do as I please, and lie through my teeth. Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me. I should probably feel cheap, but I just feel free. Cause the way I see it, the more people that hate me, the less people I have to please So finally, at night, her make-up and smile come off, and she reveals who she really is. A Girl, who's found too much wrong with the world on a day to day basis. and in the end, it's not about who's skinnier, or who's prettier. it's about who can survive through all the name calling, and dirty looks. it's about who has the strength to not care.
you say i'm always happy & that i'm good at everything i do but what you'll never realize is that i'm a damn good actress too you're cold, but you're beautiful. you're a mess, but i like it that way. if you're always looking for reasons not to be with someone, you'll find them. but at some point you just have to let go, and give your heart what it deserves. && I'm not so sure if I'm sure of anything, anymore and this is the last night that you'll be keeping secrets from me hit the lights before you leave you know of the million things you had to say sorry just might have found it's way in there somehow someway but don't worry sweetie cause I already know keep your head up. keep your chin up and most importantly, keep smiling. because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.
I don't believe in the word "regret" I believe in the phrase; you fucked up and now you learned from it. and i almost love this town when i'm by your side. here's a toast ; to the good days, the better friends. the ones that you just can't live without. the people that have taught you how to party, how to live, how to have a good time just sitting around. here is to the people that, no matter how bad things seem, are going to be there for you to lean back on and catch you if you the funny thing is, nobody really ever knows how much anybody else is hurting. we could be standing next to sombody, who is completely broken, & we wouldn't even knowShe was the girl who knew how to act happy, even when she was sad. And thats important & He's the kind of person that makes me wanna fall in love some day. caída en amor con mí [[ fall in love with me. ]]Take a chance, break a sweat; you come on strong & I'm impossible to forget.
She's got a fractured heart and she'll be out the rest of the season my parents bought me my first fish to teach me about loving and caring for another living breathing creature of God. six hundred and forty fish later the only thing i know is everything you love will die and the first time you meet that someone special, you can count on them one day being dead and in the ground.
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and in the end, i might be smiling, but that doesn't mean i'm okay. She has a fear of heights, the way you feel when you're leaving on your first flight. She's like a sinking stone, fading from the surface, but we are never alone. She's on a tightrope, losing balance, yet something's pulling her towards hope. I want to run to her, but I've already played that card, so I will fight the urge. Eyes closed, fingers crossed; praying that she's lost... You'll never know what's around the bend. "Avoid the unknown" is ringing in your head. She has a fear of love, accepting everything but what she really dreamed of. She keeps her heart locked; no she won't ever answer even though she hears a knock. But love is at the door, and after all isn't that what we are here for?
Growing up back then had its perks We watched great television and learned how computers worked But before you dismiss us as a shallow sugary cereal generation Take a look at our life education You may have seen your president get shot But we see brutal violence in our school parking lots You came out of Vietnam with a few heroes But there were a lot of deaths at Ground Zero You were judged by your color and race But that was before school shootings took place So life may have been tough back in 1967 But was it worse than seeing what happened on 9/11 Was the media pumping you with fear all the time? Harvard was a famous school not Columbine And no one knew what mad cow disease was You fought battles overseas but we fight ones with ourselves daily So next time you think you're traumatized and real We'll be in the bathroom throwing up our meals
you say we're best friends and all.. but how does that work when you only talk to me when you have to, you only tell me things when i ask, you're only there for me when i call.. oh wait, that's right.. you're never there for me at all
i don't have enough middle fingers to tell you how i really feel about you (: as of today, i have absolutely no regrets. i think i am a mature person now who can take things in stride. i am grateful for people in my past. they helped me get to where I am, wherever that is. but now, i`m thinking for myself. - Marilyn Monroe ♥ He said, "I'm sorry". And with one finger I said, "Fuck that." i shed no tears for unworthy guys i feel no regret for revealing your lies when i am queen i will only exist with a perfect scar upon each wrist welcome to hell let me be your guide just so you can see the magical place inside demons sleep as humans weep over problems we cause, and out own mortal flaws people dream that violence & terror will stop people dream that their pain will end people dream that lost lives will return, but a dream is what it is, a dream and dreams never come true [Cinderella] believed in dreams, all right, but she also believed in doing something about them. When Prince Charming didn't come along, she went over to the palace and got him. -Walt Disney
You change for two reasons. Either you’ve learned enough that you want to, or you've been hurt enough that you have to." The greatest feeling in the world is to be around someone who wants to hold you, to kiss your forehead, and to be around you. Who wants to call you at night, to see you smile. But, what's better than that is finding someone that does it all, because he wants to see you happy. sometimes your closest friends end up hurting you more then your worse enemies would ever come close to You couldn't erase the past, you couldn't even change it. But sometimes life offered you the opportunity to put it right. This was how girls left. They packed up their suitcases and walked away in high heels, they pretended that they weren't crying, that this wasn't the worst day of their lives. -White Oleander It's like all of the bad stuff that you went through, that you hated along the way; the people who disappointed you, the things that didn't go the way you wanted; suddenly you feel grateful for them, because those are the things that got you here, to this. You will learn how to help yourself. It will break your heart, & it will make you strong. shes a good person to others but when it comes to herself.. she doesnt care. She's got that smile that lights up a room but she never shows it. Music gets her by when all she wants is just cry She's been crushed by the one she loved, but she's still here trying to make it through the day without completely breaking. And every time you feel like crying, I'm going to try and make you laugh. And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad, then we will wait for it to pass. And I will keep you company through those days so long and black. 
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