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Wednesday, July 23, 2008

  • My Prayer

    My heart and mind can't agree,
    On exactly who I'm supposed to be.
    I am trying to focus above,
    And fill my heart with Your love.

    I don't always have the words to pray,
    But you know what I'm trying to say.
    I am wanting to rest in you,
    And remember only what's true.

    Help me to always look your way
    With the grace you give everyday.
    I struggle to feel you near,
    But know you are still here.

    Help my heart to know your word,
    And always want to call you Lord.
    With your hand protecting me,
    maybe my heart and mind can agree.

    I am here to be yours always,
    No matter the number of my days.
    I want to always be with you,
    In every little thing I do.

    I know you are faithful to me,
    So I long to be,
    Your loving child all my days,
    Who follows all of your ways.

    Help me love you more,
    And keep it from being like a chore.

    Amen

    (Originally written on 4-25-08)

Saturday, July 19, 2008

  • Currently Listening
    Jesus Draw me Ever Nearer- Track
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    Just some thoughts..

    So when I was at Cedarville we had Keith and Kristen Getty come.  They were with us for two chapel services.  For those of you that don't know Cedarville has chapel Monday-Friday at 10am and you are required to go.  You only get 8 skips per semester.  Thankfully I didn't skip either one of these chapel services.  I got to thinking about these two chapels and why I loved them so much.  Not only is their music enjoyable to listen to, it speaks volumes.  They are the ones who wrote In Christ Alone.  Now while this is their more popular song, I have fallen in love with another one.  The words are AMAZING!  In light of the things I have been dealing with these past 4 months or so, they words speak to me so much!

    Jesus draw me ever nearer
    As I labour through the storm.
    You have called me to this passage,
    and I'll follow, though I'm worn.

    (To me this opening verse reflects where my heart is right now.  God has called me to this storm and I am worn, but I will follow.  I want Him to draw me nearer to me, otherwise I can't get through this storm.)

    May this journey bring a blessing,
    May I rise on wings of faith;
    And at the end of my heart's testing,
    With Your likeness let me wake.

    (I really do want this journey to bring a blessing.  It would be one of thes best gifts God could give me.  I pray daily for the faith to get me through things.  I know this is a testing of my heart, because the Lord is showing me what I need to change.  I also pray to be more like Him through this process.  It is one of those things that I know God is going to bless it when the timing is right.)

    Jesus guide me through the tempest;
    Keep my spirit stayed and sure.
    When the midnight meets the morning,
    Let me love You even more.

    (I definitly need God's guidance right now.  My spirit goes up and down quite a bit.  This verse of the song encourages me because it helps me to know how to pray.  I can ask God to keep my spirit stayed and sure.  I am also always striving to love Christ even more, so being able to pray something like let me love You even more when I wake-up every morning is great.  I need that reminder daily.)

    Let the treasures of the trial                                 
    Form within me as I go -
    And at the end of this long passage,
    Let me leave them at Your throne.

     (So this final verse sums it all up.  I have actually prayed for trails from God knowing that they draw me closer to Him.  I want more than anything to look back on this season of my life and say that I could leave them at His throne.  Placing my burdens at the feet of Jesus is a wonderful feeling.  This is a great way to end a song.)

    So yeah, I just thought I would share this song with you all and the impact it has on me.  I know I will continue to enjoy it for some time and have been blessed by it already.  I hope it has been an encouragement to you as well.  The Getty's sure do have a way with words! 

Friday, July 18, 2008

  • This is what happens when Mary doesn't want to think...

    Welcome to the 2008 edition of getting to know your friends. Change all the answers so they apply to you, and then send this to a whole bunch of people including the person who sent it to you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little things about your friends, if you did not know them already.
     
     
     
    1. What time did you get up this morning? almost noon...lol
    2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds
    3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Walle
    4. What is your favorite TV show? Gilmore Girls!
    5. What did you have for breakfast? I woke up at noon so I ate lunch and breakfast at the same time..I had PB&J
    6. What is your middle name? Olivia
    7. What is your favorite food? Italian
    8. What foods do you dislike? Califlower (sp?), Olives, and lots of other things I can't remember right now..lol 
    9. Your favorite chips?  Cool Ranch Doritos
    10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? hmmm....I really only listen to iTunes these days..not CD's
    11. What kind of car do you drive? 1992 Pontiac Grand Am (Her name is Roberta!)
    12. Favorite sandwich? Meh..doesn't really matter!
    13. What are characteristics you can't stand? Liars, cheaters, and snobs 
    14. What are your favorite clothes? Anything old navy works..
    15. If you could go anywhere on vacation, where would it be? Europe!!
    16. Favorite brand of clothing? Old Navy
    17. Where would you want to retire? Wherever God wants me i guess
    18. Favorite time of day? Late nights
    19. Where were you born? MD
    20. Where have you lived? MD and Ohio
    21. What is your favorite sport to watch? I like Baseball and Soccer live, Football on TV
    22. Who do you think will not send this back? I dunno really!
    23. Person you expect to send it back first? hmmmmm....good question!
    24. Pepsi or Coke? Pepsi
    25. Beavers or ducks? UHH Ducks....lol
    26. Are you a morning person or a night owl? Night owl!
    27. Pedicure or manicure? BOTH!
    28. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with everyone? ummmmmmm............yeah not so much...lol
    29. What did you want to be when you were little? An artisit...if you know me then this would be you reaction to that "BWWHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!"
    30. Briefly, what are your favorite childhood memories? Anything to do with my Ballet days, and being with my Grandparents in Lansing for a few weeks every summer.  :)
    31. Piercing? Ears
    32. Ever been to a foreign country? England
    33. Ever been toilet papering? Nope
    34. Been in a car accident? yep
    35. Favorite day of the week? Friday
    36. Favorite restaurant? LOTS!
    37. Favorite flower? Red and white roses
    38. Favorite ice cream? Mint Chocolate Chip
    39. Favorite fast food restaurant? Chick-Fil-A
    40. How many times did you fail your driver's test? Never!!
    41. From whom did you get your last e-mail? Facebook...lol
    42. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Old Navy most likely...lol
    44. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? OOHH....not sure!
    45. Last person you went to dinner with? The Staffords
    46. What are you listening to right now? MMbop-Hanson...hahahaha
    47. What is your favorite color? *snicker* PINK!  hahaha 
    48. How many tattoos do you have? A BIG FAT 0
    49. What time did you finish this e-mail? 4:47pm
    51. Favorite magazines? Brio
    52. What's your greatest fear? outside the spiritual realm? Rejection
    53. What book(s) do you plan to read this year? whatever ones I'm given...or look interesting :) 

    Yeah.....I'm bored....

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

  • Count Your Blessings

     I know it may seem odd to some people, but counting your blessings really does have its benefits.  I was thinking about a lot of things the other day and instead of getting all depressed over my circumstances, I started to think about what good things I have in my life right now.  I wanted to think them all through so I wouldn't loose focus of why I am in love with my Savior.  I started to just say off the things I was thankful for and before I knew it, my mood was getting better and better.  I have so many people in my life who I love ever so dearly and who help me through the hardest days of my life.  God has blessed me with some of the most incredible people I have ever know.  Through them I can see how much God loves me and why He did for me.  They are faithful to remind me how great of a sinner I am and how GREAT of a Savior He is.  So I want to take this post to introduce you to those special people in my life that are having the greatest impact on me right now. 

    First there is Kaitlin and I

    Kaitlin & I

    Kaitlin is my level-headed friend.  I can tell her anything and she will know what questions to ask me to help me see things in a different light.  She has been ever so faithful to pray for me and check up on me these past 4 months and I can't thank her enough.  Kaitlin knows me really really well.  She can tell things about me just by looking at my face.  Not many people can do that with me.  She always points me back to the Cross and helps me to realize that my Savior loves me more than I can EVER comprehend.  I thank God for her all the time.

    Then there is Andrea and Catherine.

    Andrea & Catherine  

    These two girls have blessed me more than I can say.  They both live in MD and everytime I came home, I came with them.  Sharing a 7 hour, one-way drive with these two was always awesome.  Andrea has such a great heart for others and she is sooo caring!  I treasure her because she is wise beyond her years.  Catherine is one of the best encouragers I know.  She has a way with saying the very thing that needs to be said.  (She would probably deny this..)

    Then comes Meredith and Katie

    Meredith & Katie

    These two girls are beyond wonderful.  Katie is so so faithful in prayer.  She never ceases to have a verse for me or a prayer in her heart.  She is so sweet and gentle, I love her to death.  Meredith is just awesome.  She isn't as girly as I am, but we work really well together.  I can talk to Meredith and she will give me the straight to the point answers.  She just knows what I need to hear and says it.  I am a pretty blunt person as well, so I can appreciate that in someone else. 

    Then there is Mister Jordan Link.

    Jordan Link

    Jordan is one the BEST listeners I know.  Whenever I just need to talk something out, he is there to listen.  He has heard some pretty crazy things from me and still sticks by me.  He also has really great taste in music and my iTunes library would be CRAPPY without him.  :)  Jordan is one of those guys that I hope to know for a very long time to come.  He is truly awesome.

    And of course, I can't forget Kyle.  :)

    Kyman!

    Kyle gets it.  He knows me inside and out.  If there is something going on with me, odds are he knows about it.  He has proven to be one of my best friends.  No matter how I'm feeling or what is going on he can make me smile and laugh.  I wish I could explain how truly amazingly awesome he is, but words won't do it justice.  He is just one of the best people on this planet.  End of story.

    There is my mentor as well.  I don't have a picture of her, but she is amazing.  The advice and counsel I have gotten from her as proven to be the best.  I just can't express how much I love her and I don't know what I would do without her.  She is just one of those people who I can never get mad at and she understands where I am coming from before I even say anything. 

    Now of course there are FAR many more blessings in my life than just the people surrounding me, but God is really using them to show me those others blessings.  My church family is wonderful.  They uplift me in prayer so much and I am so very thankful.  So many of the people I know, have helped me to grow and change through this difficult season.  I cannot thank God enough for His love for me.  I know that He is blessing me with these people for a reason.  He is continuing to teach me about His love, grace, and mercy everday and I am so glad that I have these people to help me see it.  All credit goes to Him for these people.  It had nothing to do with me. 

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

  • It Occured to me....

    So I was thinking the other day and it occured to me that God really doesn't give people more than they can handle. I have been facing the most challenging days of my life recently and to be honest, I didn't think I could get through them. And yet I have made it through each and every one of them and learned a lot in the process. I would love to think this is of my own accord, but I know it's not. I know full well that everything I have learned about myself and others is a gift from God. He is slowly taking me to breaking points so that I can see Him more clearly. It's kinda odd how I am starting to want God to break me more. I never thought I would come to a place like that in my life. I mean who WANTS to be in a place where everything seems too much to handle and wanting to run away? I most certainly didn't, and then I realized that when I am in those places, God is working the MOST! He is taking advantage of my weaker states to show me how strong He really is. HOW COOL IS THAT?!?! I know it all seems kinda trivial, but it's SOO true! Because God gave me such wonderful people to walk me through this earthly process I can see so much more of where I am going. I still have a LONG LONG way to go, but I am not really worried about it. I have a Savior who loves me beyond anyone else, and He knows what my life's plan is and will see that it happens. What other assurances do I need outside of the cross that God is REAL, who He SAYS He is, and LOVES me more than I can comprehend? :D

About Me

  • Jesus is my passion for living. I LOVE dancing..I'll try anything. Faith, friends, family, fellowship, and food just a few other things that take up my time. I'm pretty open to people and love getting to know new faces and personalities!

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  • Wishing_for_Cali
    I am doing nothing but school work..lol It is crazy. There is SO much to be done!! I can't wait for my fall break in 3 weeks. What about you??
  • i_am_katie_anne
    Mary... Let's chat! What's new with you?