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Witchinghour
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Country: United States
State: Texas
Birthday: 6/15/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: Writing, guitar, climbing, helping people, thinking, drawing, photography, metal sculpture
Expertise: scaring people, climbing any-everything, helping people
Occupation: Artist
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Member Since:
10/19/2003
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| Who caresNo one reads xanga anymore. But I'm writing on it anyway. Who cares right? I'm writing for two reasons. The first and most important is that right now I just really feel like writing. The second reason is that if I write something that slightly meaningful that might make a difference for someone and there's a remote chance that that someone might read this then I'm gonna write here. Like I said, though, the first reason is the important one. I just really feel like writing. I don't care about getting comments on this, I don't need feedback. If I wanted feedback I'd get a myspace or something else that someone might read. I just want to write.
It's so annoying how people seem to break their own rules constantly. I hate it. There's not a lot that I hate. But this I hate. I wish when I found a principle that I believed in I could stick with it. I wish other people could, too. I just know too many times when I've really felt like I know what believe or what I think or what I feel. Then I change my mind or I lie to myself or I just plain forget what I was supposed to believe. It's really a terrible feeling knowing that something bad has happened and it's your own fault. That not only did you not try to stop it, but you made it happen. It sucks so much. It's a lot easier to forgive someone else who makes a mistake, even if it's something really bad. But when it's something you yourself have done it's almost impossible to let it go. You know without any sort of doubt exactly what you did, and why you did it, but at the same time you just think "why the fuck did I do that?" And when you realize that there's nothing you can do to change what you did, no matter how hard you wish for that time machine to take you back and keep it all from going wrong it's not going to happen, you hate yourself. You can't stop thinking about how stupid you've been, how selfish you were, how much you took someone for granted, it becomes an obsession. You just hope to god that this obsession will go away eventually, that you'll be able to stop hating yourself, that all the little things that remind you of that mistake will stop haunting you, that life might just go on, and maybe you could really be happy again someday. But in you heart you know that that's not gonna happen. You're gonna regret this for the rest of your life. You've made the biggest mistake of your life and every time you think about it you're gonna hate yourself, every time you think about it you're gonna remember how stupid and selfish you've been. But maybe someday I'll be able to wake up in the morning, and even though I'll hate myself and carry one regret with me forever, maybe I'll be able to live with it. | | |
| Life is in every breath we take. Each breath is new life. Each moment is life. | | |
| Why do so many people have to be so full of shit? People aren't honest with eachother, they're not even honest with themselves half the time. I am so sick of lies, and deceit, and people not telling the whole truth, bending the truth, word games, and any other SHIT along those lines that I might have missed. People say one thing infront of one group of people and another thing infront of another group of people to win favor, avoid unfavorable opinions, dodge balme, and steal credit. Why are so many people so gutless? Why do so many people try to impress people that they normally don't even like? What are people afraid of? Are they afraid someone might not like them? That seems to be the case.
It's not just words that lie. It's the people themselves. A lot of people change themselves to be something that they're not whenever someone else is around. Too many people can't just be themselves. They just change who they are every time the company they're in changes. How can people be ruled so easily? Rather than stay firm in anything they might believe in or at least have a passing opinion on, they just change and cater to the opinions of others around them. Why???
Do any of them care about the truth? Would any of them hold firm to truth? Would any of them die for the truth?
Is any fear so powerful, even the fear of not being liked, even not being liked by people you don't even like, that people will give in to its every demand? If all anyone has to do is make a threat to get their way then what the hell kind of world are we living in? If all a politician, or the media, or even a regular person on the street has to do to make us bow to their every whim is hint at a vague threat then who among us is anything like a free person?
Well, if that's the world that we are living in then I say NO MORE!!! Is there anyone else out there who is sick and tired of being afraid, of being intimidated and exploited by any and everyone trying to get us to go along with whatever they want us to? I'm I the only one who thinks it's about time we stopped being afraid? I'm not asking a rhetorical question, I'm not posing this question to an empty and objective void of cyberspace. I'm asking people! I'm asking any and everyone out there if they're sick of being afraid! I'm asking all the people in this world if they're ready to stop being afraid.
The world is what we make it and I say it's time we made it our own! Let's make it a world where no politician, republican, democratic, independent, will threaten us! Let's make it a world where no media group, television, magazine, newspaper, conservative, or liberal, will intimidate us! Let's make it a world where no one will ever again exploit us with fear! If we're going to let someone else's threats rule our every moment then why bother living at all?
I don't know how many people really care about anything in the world other than themselves, but here's what I know. The world really IS what we make it. If we sit around and just do nothing, that still has an effect on the world, just not a good one. It doesn't start with powerful governments or corporations. It doesn't start with huge organizations. It starts inside each and every person. Each and every person can change the world if they start with themselves. That's where it all begins. If people really wanted to we could make the world a better place. If enough people had the guts to stick by what is right and to never falter then anything is possible. But like I said, it won't start with large groups. We can't wait for something to start and then join in later. It starts with us. We are where it all begins. It starts inside us all.
And here's how I'm going to help start it. I'm not going to be afraid. I'm not going to let someone else rule me through fear. I won't sit back and try to pretend like it's not my problem when I see something that's wrong. It is my problem. And I won't hide from the truth. I won't become a deceiver. I won't be so afraid that even the truth is too much for me to stick by. I will stick by the truth, even if that means dying for it. And even if I'm the only one who feels this way I won't change to match them.
This is our world. Everything that happens in this world affects us all. We have a say in how things go, no matter how small people think their voices are, no matter how powerful others might be. This is our world. This is our life. It's time we realized that.
It's time to stop being afraid. | | |
| Hey everyone. How's it going?
They say that the best part of a job is the self-satisfaction that comes from knowing you've done good work.......no, it's getting PAID :)!!!!!!!...... ok, so getting paid wouldn't be worth anything to me if my job sucked, and forturnately I have a job that I love, but getting paid still rocks! I love having money. Money can't buy happiness, but it sure helps :). And now I must think of what to do with this money..... Mike, if you're reading this I'd be willing to spend it on three hours of shooting pool at Dave and Busters.
I can't believe it is actually raining. It poured down this morning.... TWICE! It's awesome! Anyone who looks out the window every once in a while can tell that our climate seems to be changing and it's kind of an ominous thought, but I have to say that it's nice to have some rain again. | | |
| Woohoo! I'm in a new semester of college it F-ing rocks! How is everybody? I'm still laughing from this morning when I saw the coverage of Bush's State of the Union speech. I know it's such a little thing, but come on he's still saying "nuke-U-ler". Pronunciation isn't a good way to judge someone's character, but I still find it amusing.
I'm in a karate class at school and it is awesome. There is much more to is than just kicking and punching. I've only been in the class a couple weeks and I've learned so much. It's both my favorite and my hardest class.
So how is the world today? Is everyone enjoying this phenomonally weird weather? First it's hot, then cold, then hot some more, then rainy, and now it's been hot and cold on the same day for a couple days now. Does anyone have any explanations besides global warming? Maybe there is a god and he's simply decided he doesn't like us anymore. He's put a curse on Texas. | | |
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