PoEmZ bY eRiN: I lay back and i think, bout how life, has changed, ever since that one day, i made that mistake, how dumb could i be, to take that wrong path, now it hurts me so much, kuz i cant take it back. Im goin crazy, kuz im helluh depressed, how could one mistake, cause me so much stress. What hurts me the most, is the fact that i, might hurt the people, that mean the most in my life. i let God down, and i lost His trust, but i hope that my faith, can bring that back up. And as of right now, i hope you consider the fact, that you must always ALWEYZ, THINK BEFORE YOU ACT!! There once was a boy, Sixteen years of age, He was raised to respect,Yet a gangsta’s what he became. He thought he didn’t have a choice But to lead a life of crime, Since he believed that school and work, Was just a waste of time.He relied on his boys,Almost all his life, Until one day they betrayed him, And made him do time.His parents came to visit,His first night in jail,They started crying while asking,How did we fail? You know we love you,You know that we care, But how you’ve treated us, Just doesn’t seem fair.The boy couldn’t look at his mom,He couldn’t stand to see her cry,When he didn’t say a word,His parents just said We Love you and Goodbye.He walked back to his cell,Holding his tears back,He prayed to God for strength and said “I need to pay them back.”Now he’s Seventeen years old,He’s back in school and doing well,His reason for change was,His parents helped him up when he fell. That’s why I refuse to remain silent, While our future is lost, To Senseless violence. We’ve died and we’ve cried enough, But where is the source Of love inside of us? Motivation is they key to success And when you find that motivation Then it’s time to resurrect. It’s hard to stop lovin someone wen yur heart still does, but wat if yur reason is just becuz? R yu sure dats da person dat will treat yu rite? Do yu kno dat person well enough to know dat dey wont make yu cry? Is dat person a person yu can truly trust? Do yu love da person for a reason other than just becuz? Through past experiences, stories and observations, I’ve learned some things from different relations. One is dat yu shouldn’t trust people right away, don’t always believe every lil word that they say, two, get to know them better, then you can make yur conclusions, first impressions are always important, yet it’s possible that it’s jus an illusion. Look past the sweetness, look deeper inside, be aware that certain things people say, can jus be a buncha liez…… My life has escaladed back and forth, between happy and sad, I went from being cheerful, full-of-life, to being depressed and always mad. But all throughout my life, I’ve experienced many little things, which led up to me accepting life, and accepting everything it brings. Everything happens for a reason, people say, everyone has a purpose in life. I may not know what my purpose is, but the answer, I’m not in a hurry to find. This is a brief description, of how I learned to love life, and accept everything that happens, whether it’s wrong or whether it’s right. Life seemed easier when I was little, I didn’t have to worry about anything, and now that I’m pretty much grown up, I feel I have to worry about every little thing. At one point in my life, I got tired of worrying, I started to gradually change, I just decided to stop caring. The more days that passed by, the more attitude I gained. People saw me differently, I just wasn’t the same. I always talked back at my parents, I got in trouble a whole lot. I got annoyed most of the time ‘cause everyday we had fought. We fought about the stupidest things, with no purpose, whatsoever. One week to a month, was how long we’d ignore each other. Well one night I got to thinking, and tears fell from my eyes, as I realized that I wasn’t only hurting myself, but I was messing up my parents’ lives. They didn’t deserve the way I treated them, they’ve given me everything to survive, I thank my family, friends, and God, for blessing me with this life. I’ve seen people trying to live harder lives, to the point where they just can’t take it. It may not apply to everything when they say that life is what you make it. You can choose the wrong path or the right path, a good life or a bad. Life has sucked for me at least once in my lifetime, but I’m thankful for what I have. So I got up when I fell down, even through heartbreaks and all the stress, I try to keep my head up all the time, and I try not to have any regrets. Silence kan sumtymez hoLd more pain than the Loudest kriez Sumtymez u kan see da pain wen u Look into onez eyez U may not notice it but sum peepo r in disguise Sumtymez it takes more than Lookin, to see wuts behind onez smiLez… Peepo these dayz r growin more n more suicidal, I’ve also seen that bein suicidal leads to homicidal I understand y peepo r like this, n the causes for their behavior I been thru dis myself, but all I needed wuz a Savior I asked God for help, and he made me see clearly He reminded me how life has always treated me beautifully i’ve had love and a good home, everything I needed to survive the only thing I need now is the experience of bein alive I’ve been kept in this home full of love and care but it makes me so mad knowin dat life isn’t fair I get all this love and care, but yet I don’t have that much fun It may seem kinda weird but too much luv makes me wanna run i try not to disobey my parents kuz their the onez who gave me life sooner or later they’ll have to let me go kuz das only rite, rite? I’ve had lots of time to think, so I made a plan for my life First of all I hope I’ll live long enuff to even get to try If not den ish koo, it wuz meant to be No one but God knowz my tru destiny I’ve decided to concentrate on skool work, keep my parents proud Trying to make my parents’ livez easier is what I have vowed I’ll turn to God for help, hopefully he’LL give me the toolz I need I pray that He’ll be there to guide me n help me to succeed. Lots of peepo take their lives for granted, N I understand y they would But I’ve seen many peepo change, change for the good. Im proud of those peepo, hopefully others will change too I’ll continue to pray fo the worLd, kuz rye now das aLL I can do. Bakit ngayon ka lang, dumating sa buhay ko Ikaw lang ang lagging, nasa isip ko Matagal na akong naghahanap ng katulad mo Ngayong nandito ka na, buong puso ko ay nasa yo Kahit ano man ang mangyari, Mamahalin ko pa rin kita, Kahit mag hiwalay man tayo, Ang damdamin ko’y hindi mag iiba. I havn’t experienced love The way I want it to be experienced Some things have gone wrong in the past So wrong that I just decided quit. I didn’t wanna get involved I didn’t want to care for anyone I thought my words were final I thought it wuz aLL sed and done But den yu kame aLong N obviousLy wut I sed wuz unTRU I kno I mite regret sayin it But I think im faLLen for yu -you can't make anyone Love you, aLL you can do is Let yourseLf be Loved. but if it was reaLLy meant to be, then you'LL get that Love you've been dreamin' of. i kno sometimes you may Love someone, but they don't Love you back, it hurts inside doesn't it? sometimes so much that you just get off track. which hurts the most, do you think, when you caLL their name but they don't Look back? or is it wen you smiLe at them everyday, but they just don't smiLe back. weLL at Least once in ur Lifetime, a person wiLL feeL the same about you, and that everytime u ignore them, they'LL go thru the same thingz u went thru. don't Let these things put yu down, don't Let them ruin your Life, u'LL Love someone that Loves you back, when the time is right. Da cHoiCeZ u MaKe iZ a MaJoR fActoR tO uR oWn DeStiNy 1st adViCe: tHiNk b4 u Do 2nd: dOnT bE aFraiD tO LiVe 3rd: cherish EvRy LiLo SeCoNd oF uR LiFe DeR r 4 tHiNgZ i NeEd fOr a GoOd LiFe: God, faMiLy, a hOmE, & fOoD... DaS aLL i've eVeR NeEdEd, dAs aLL i'LL eVeR nEeD, eVryThiNg eLsE iZ jEsS a BoNuS

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