I’m officially on Facebook:  Anne Witteveen.  Please stop by & say hi…I don’t really use Xanga anymore.  I’ll be picking & choosing pieces of my Xanga blog to put in my Facebook Profile…

~Namaste’

WORDS OF WYSDOM (WOW):  “Follow Heart while paying attention to Head; the two need to work in tandem or you WILL be out of Balance.”

Love and Light to you,

Enna aka Anne

…and I didn’t think the “other one” would be me… but I was told Friday, at 4:15, that my employment of 21 years was done – we’ve been downsizing/re-organizing (very hard times here in Michigan!), and somehow I naively thought I’d be protected….NOT!… I am scared! I am feeling a bit lost, and feeling a lot vulnerable…. So please send lots of strong, protective, healing energy my way… I feel like the wind’s been knocked out of me, and I can’t quite get my arms around the reality of this… Last time I lost a job, I was young & stupid & deserved it… Now I’m older, wise(r) and DON’T deserve it!!  But Life’s not fair is it?!   Understatement…  I’m hoping a year from now I’ll be re-reading this post & wisely nodding my head… But right now it HURTS; they didn’t want me, they wanted someone younger & less expensive…. because she & I have the same knowledge-base… And if she’s reading this, that’s OK, cuz she & are tight, & we’ve been talking, & she far more needs the money right now than me… My husband will need to come thru for me & support me thru this… And I’ve been praying to All that’s out there, for guidance, for strength, for protection, for healing… The story of Job (from the Bible) comes to mind:  he put up with a lot worse than what I’m going thru & did not lose his faith – & he was blessed bountifully for his pain!  Don’t know if I’ll be “blessed bountifully”, but I need to ‘keep the faith’ more than ever right now… Just wish I had a crystal ball to gaze into so I could reassure myself that my future will be OK…

Sorry, no Words Of Wisdom right now – I could use some from you!

~ Love, Light & Blessings,

Enna

~Namaste’~

I’ve been hiding, I think… or is it more like hibernating? how ’bout “hide-rnating?” – that sounds more like it… deep musings, rumblings, in my head… don’t like some of them, but can’t get rid of any of them, so need to face them as I have the strength/desire…

Still missing the boys like crazy – they are my blood, I feel them when they’re not here – I send them energy all the time… To some this will sound crazy, but sign out then – you don’t have to read this if it bothers you!! When you’re connected to people you do feel them… it’s not logical or empirical, but it is a high sensory experience (& I don’t mean high w/ any substances!) – To those who are more “grounded”, they do not understand because they’ve not been able to do this… To those of us who sense those “higher vibrations” aka “feelings” about stuff, high five! you absolutely know what I mean!  I used to curse my ability to feel on that higher level, but now I cherish it & have come to look @ it favorably, as a Gift… Just wish I could know more ppl with this gift, or at least an appreciation for my Gift! Perhaps just writing about it will draw those ppl toward me…

WOW (BTW, in this blog that means “Words of Wysdom” – *not* “World of Warcraft”) - Face your fears, feel your fears, fight your fears… and tell them to fuck off!  For you are a formidable, powerful Younique person & no one has the right to make you afraid…

Namaste’…

Love & Light to you my fellow travelers…

Enna

4:30 p.m. – Well, it’s Thanksgiving Eve… my anxiety is at a low hum thanks to the glass of wine I’ve had… what I really need is to be in a cottage by a lake somewhere with no one around! I desperately need to re-charge/re-boot/re-new (you get the idea)… My brother has been in the hospital several times since I last posted – I just hope he makes it thru the Winter… my boys have moved out (2 weeks ago) to their Dad’s & I really don’t know why, I can only guess… the daily stress w/ RB really gets to them, & they’re not in love w/ him so they easily get pissed off by his rules, over-controlling behavior, & the way we yell @ each other some times… I hope they will be able to sit down & tell me/us some day b/c it will do them a world of good to “get it out” & to learn that problems must be resolved face-to-face (you can’t always run!)… easier said than done, though…

On a positive note, I have realized it’s time to “re-build” my life; I can no longer operate in “Mom-as-reason-for-existence mode… My boys are both over 21, they are living their lives, I am always available to them (& they know this)… I have lived so long in that mode, though, that it’s hard to think of another way to live… I don’t exactly enjoy being a “Wife” – whatever that definition is!  I love RB, enjoy parts of living with him, but I am taking it a day @ a time… I am going to explore my love of spirituality/mysticism more, & plan to join a like-minded women’s group…

Time to find more wine!

WOW (Words of Wysdom) – May you be Thankful, May you be Blessed, May joy be a-plenty to you my dear guest… OK, I wax poetic now & then! 

Namaste~

Love & Light,

Enna

It’s been a rough Spring… extremely busy @ work, which speaks to the great need for more resources to help those w/ mental illnessesses… & more importantly, my brother was hospitalized for 2 1/2 wks, they’re still not really sure what initiated it… he’s DD, & can’t communicate real well, & it was like he had a psychotic break or something, which we don’t understand… so there’s alot of angry frustration & helplessness w/ nowhere to direct it!  I spent yesterday in the E.R. w/ him again – my brother-in-law was there too – b/c the nursing home says he was too agitated to deal w/ him – he’s been @ the nursing home since d/c from the hospital 2 wks ago to get rehab before he can return to the AFC which is home for him (David’s House Ministries)… Even the doctor said getting him back to his “own” environment (i.e. David’s House) is the best thing for him cuz right now he’s in an environment he doesn’t know, w/ ppl he doesn’t know, w/ no familiar structure – and that alone might be contributing to his agitation! There’s no way to fully know!!  And I hate feeling so damn helpless!!  And it triggers my own PTSD crap…

With that said, I am glad it’s Spring:  warmer weather, all kinds of birds singing & building nests, flowers growing! 

If you read this, please send some Love & Light my way… I surely need extra doses right now!

Sorry, but no WOW today… I will have to read some of my previous ones, and those from others I keep on file.

Love and Light to my fellow travelers in this adventurous journey called Life…

~ Enna

…thought I’d finally write again…

I’ve been passing the time exploring alt-spiritual stuff.  For example, I’ve had an attunement with a Reiki Master, so I am slowly getting more involved w/ that.  My logical mind keeps battling w/ my emotional mind though…

Seems that spirituality always has elements of faith, & my wonderful brain tries to interrupt the flow of faith.  I can see why most science-based folks cannot embrace any type of religion or spirituality since the essence of it cannot be empirically explained.

At any rate, I’ve been having fun! Along w/ Reiki, I’ve been researching angelic symbols, & “was led”/stumbled across the writings of Thoth.  Extremely interesting!  He speaks of keys and numbers, & I’ve been having fun trying to figure out if he is speaking literally or figuratively, or a combination.  Reminds me of how Dan Brown writes in the “DaVinci Code” and “Angels & Demons.”  I love solving problems & riddles, so all this is really appealing to me!

I still want to find out more about angel writing, symbols & names.  The “Prophecy” movies are a bit campy, but very intriguing to me, & I watched the 1st three last week, which spurred this recent research of mine.  So far I haven’t found a good resource for what I’m looking for, which is the glyphs/symbols of the angel names.

WOW:  Balance your logical & emotional sides so you can embrace the wonders that are out there!

Love & Light to you…

 Namaste’, Enna

We’re going to hit record snowfall in Michigan this Winter, I’m betting… it’s been snowing every day except one since Dec. 1.  The past 3 days it’s been basically blizzard conditions, & I have not literally been outside for 2 of those 3 days!  I daily pray for strength to endure this, cuz I am NOT a winter person, & I always get bad sinusitis & other related respiratory infections.  I wonder if I’ll need to move to a warmer climate as I become older, just to stay healthy!

I am trying to stay positive, thus the title of this post:  Merry Yule!  This season can be a time of joy and blessings if we choose to see it, so I’ve been reading up on the stories, legends & myths that abound in various cultures.  You might choose to do the same.  Or another thing I do during Winter is my own version of hibernating:  I cook more, snuggle into blankets more, and “turn inwards” more to reflect on whatever needs reflection, and muse about the upcoming new year and the opportunities it could present.

WOW:  “May this Yule time be Merry, may the Season be sweet; and may you be blessed by all whom you meet.” – made up on the spot by… Enna

Love and Light to you…

~Namaste’~

Happy Post-Thanksgiving Day!  This has always been a favorite day of mine b/c I take the day off from work in order to have a much-deserved long weekend.  I stay up late Thurs. night, usually drink many glasses of my favorite wine, indulge in several pieces of pie (cherry & pumpkin), then sleep in Fri. a.m.  I gave up shopping on Black Friday some years ago, so now it’s a day of rambling & talking to whomever stays over for ther holiday.

WOW:  May your day today be blessed with relaxation and comfort, whatever forms they take.

Namaste’, Enna

I wish to be immortal… weird, huh?!  As I get older, thoughts turn now & again to Death… actors & musicians I’ve “grown up” with are dying, every now & then I hear of someone my age who has died… quite disturbing to me!  I’ve always been fascinated w/ vampires, so now I’ve been thinking of them even more, wishing I could be a “good” one…  or maybe I could be an elf like in LOTR – they are immortal also… my life isn’t very exciting, & sometimes there’s horrible moments, but when I think of dying, I protest!  Idon’t want to wither & wrinkle & creep! When I’m old I want to be of sound mind & body, just older!  I don’t want any old age illnesses of body or mind… I’m terrified of becoming trapped in a useless body where others have to do everything for me cuz then I risk being victimized… I pray for enough wealth in this lifetime to afford a very good live-in nurse in the event I cannot think straight, or if my body betrays me… sigh…

WOW: Enjoy the journey, don’t fret about the destination…

Love & Light to you my fellow travelers…

Namaste’ ~ Enna