Nobody to Remember

This is fuking shit..i really cant take it anymore..i just want it over with...theres nothing to do out there..i hate this fuking town...im gonna die without living...im too scared of it all..i dont know what to do anymore...what should i do? what should i do? somebody please tell me. angered. frustrated. This is all bullshit. i really hope this isnt it. I really hope this isnt life. im scared its going to end. Im already done. I need whats out there but it wont come to me. I need the freedom to go to it..gotta get out of this fuking place and start over. I dont know whats gonna happen but somethings gotta change..Fuck this all. Fuck all those liars and cheaters and "best friends" i never needed you..you only brought me down...Fuck everything that gets into my way...........Im already gone.

              BOOO FUCKING WHOOO

                               XANGA DEPRESSES THE FUCK OUTTA ME....IDK Y..ITS JUST SOO SAD..IF ANYONE WANTS TO STILL TALK TO ME MY MYSPACE IS XSPANKY182X.....WELLL....BYE BYE FOR A LOOOOOOOONG TIME <333

WONDER.......

   i havnt been on in a long long time... busy with myspace and school and finals and everything else....im sitting here at my computer trying to study for 5 finals at once...ive been on since 1:00 doing so... i wonder if theres more to life then this...im only 17 and im already board with life...I have at least another 60 more years to go....if im board now what will happen when im older....i dont know...i guess im just to young to really appreciate life... people say these are the best years of your life and to enjoy them because once there gone...there gone...well i guess so because once you graduate college i think your life is over...you cant be carefree anymore and you have to work untill you literally die...its kinda sad when you think about it. You start school when your 5 and keep on working untill at least 65 and then your to old to go do anything....kinda makes you wonder if were really free and if were the only ones on this earth.... what if someone was playing with us like dolls...when we were little we played with barbies and G.I Joes...well what if there were higher being that play with us and were there toy..... I dont know what to think...all i know is that i want to make something of my life....myself...and I AM NOT GETTNG ONE OF THOSE CORPARATE JOBS where i have to work untill i die.... im gonna be my own boss... im gonna do what i wanna do...die when i wanna die... i just want to go to college start my life over and be in a band and have a family... thats all i ask for....why does life make this so hard to do...somedays you just want to give up...i know i do all the time but i cant now because if i give up now what will happen... IM TOO FAR AHEAD OF THE GAME AND TOO FAR BACK FROM REALITY.  i shouldnt be worrying about all of this now..i have to enjoy life now before its gone forever.. I NEED TO EXPERIENCE!

                                          sign off,

                                                   Megan                                                  

WOW! I dont know why i havent been on is sucha long time......well ive started school...duh...and umm thats about it.....i made new friends who i really like and umm yeah thats about it.....me and monique had our one year anniversary and im going to go to alot of concerts soon. comming up is one month without D becasue of M!. im glad about that. well anyway thats about it.

                  Monique <333   Hustina <333   <luv ya guys!