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Name: Andrea
Gender:Female
Location: Miami, FL
Status: Single
B-Day: 9-16-89
Sign: Virgo
School: Doral Achademy
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Laugh When you Can, Apologize When You Should,And Let Go Of What You Can't Change.
Behind My Smile Is A Hurting Heart. Behind My Laugh I'm Falling Apart. Look Closly And You'll See The Girl I Am Isn't Really Me.
To any girl who feels lost inside, broken hearted like no one understands, just remember, when you fall at one point, a boy is going to see you & give you his hand, he'll help you up from being put down, he'll love you & treat you how he should even if you have no hope...just keep looking, he'll be there waiting
There are only 3 things a girl needs in life...love to make her weak. Alcohol to make her strong and friends to pick her up when they both make her hit the floor
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Somebody put me back in school I forget everything I used to know how to leave the boy the boy behind without having to watch him go.- "The Twist" By Metric.
But i'm gunna make it right the future in my eyes(bright) Hush don't explain When You Water Down My Name. I'll Be Up To Late Call Me When You Get Better At Your Game You Haven't beat me yet. Though My vision is strainen...- "White Gold" By Metric.
I'm No Barbie Doll, I'm Not Your Baby Gurl, I've done ugly things, I Have made mistakes, and i am not as pretty as those girls in magazines, I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed, So What if i'm a baby bird hangin upon your every word. Nothing ever spells of roses that rises our of mud. WHY DO YOU LOVE ME(X3) iT'S DRIVEN ME CRAZY! wHY dO yOU lOVE mE (X3)IT'S DRIVEN ME CRAZY WHY DO YOU LOVE ME (X3) IT'S DRIVEN ME CRAZY!- "Why Do You Love Me" By Garbage.
Doodle takes dad's scissors to her skin, And when she does relief comes setting in, While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes She sings:Hey baby can you bleed like me?C'mon baby can you bleed like me? Therapy is Speedie's brand new drug, Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun, It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun, And she cries: Hey baby can you bleed like me? C'mon baby can you bleed like me? JT gets all fucked up in some karaoke bar, After two drinks he's a loser after three drinks he's a star,Getting all nostalgic as he sings "I Will Survive",Hey baby can you bleed like me? C'mon baby can you bleed like me? You should see my scars (X4)And you try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend(X3)- "Bleed Like Me" By Garbage.
Love can be so strange, Don't it amaze you? Every time you give yourself away It comes back to haunt you, Love's an elusive charm and it can be painful,To understand this crazy world, But you're not gonna crack, No you're never gonna crack. Run my baby run my baby run, Run from the noise of the street and the loaded gun, Too late for solutions to solve in the setting sun, So run my baby run my baby run.- "Run Baby Run" By Garbage.
I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll,I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds,But oh God, I feel I've been lied to, Lost all faith in the things I have achieved. And I, I've woken now to find myself In the shadows of all I have created, I'm longing to be lost in you Away from this place I have made, Won't you take me away from me. Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins, I look into myself but my own heart has been changed, I can't go on like this,I loathe all I've become.- "Away From Me" By Evanescence.
Meet me after dark again and I'll hold you, I want nothing more than to see you there, And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away, We'll be lost before the dawn.If only night can hold you where I can see you, my love. Then let me never ever wake again. And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away,We'll be lost before the dawn.- "Before The Dawn" By Evanecsence.
I heard the words come out, I felt that I would die
It hurts so much to hurt you. Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore, You're silently broken.- "Forgive Me" By Evanescence.
Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear, Sealed with lies through so many tears, Lost from within, pursuing the end, I fight for the chance to be lied to again.You will never be strong enough. You will never be good enough. You were never conceived in love. You will not rise above. They'll never see, I'll never be. I've struggled on and on to feed this hunger Burning deep inside of me. But through my tears breaks a blinding light, Birthing a dawn to this endless night. Arms outstretched, awaiting me, An open embrace upon a bleeding tree. - "Lies" By Evanescence. |
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| I'm engaged. its supose to be a secret my parents don't exacty know about it. but all the same he got e a beautiful engagent ring it's a little big but ill get it resized. goddess i love him with all my heart. and ofcoarse we're not gunna have the traditional wedding oh no. i'm not catholic or christian neither is he he doesnt even have one he just belivs there is a god. he's agnostic u see but he respects me though he does have a habit of pissing me off eh... that's an aquarius for you. it's soo odd aquarisus are supose to be the space cadets while virgos are extremly grounded but in this case its the other way around. then again i'm virgo 3 not the avrage virgo. so yar. i'm engaged. and yule tide just passed blessed be. though my family is catholic so we celebrated christmas. i got a digetal camera and a razor though i didn't really want it that phone is everywhere u kno... it's annoying... but n-e way. i spent my holiday vacation up in nyc with my love and my family. i saw old friends but i wish i could have seen her one more time.... i didn't go back to my old home out of fear. i braved the neighborhood but only for a short while to try and see melissa. my little cousin... her family is in a custody trial por lil thing shes a special child and shes not getting the attention she needs with her mother. i wonder is my cousin still has that spell card i gave her for luck at court or if she lost it in that botomless pit of a room. but either way i do hope they win. blessed be to all i don't have much more to tell.... | | |
| Attention or Depression?i don't kno that's wrong with me these last few days... i feel like i'm regressing although i'm trying hard not to. saturday and sunday was the first time in a while that i felt like cutting again. i'm being honest i know it's not good but on sunday i started scratching... it's not too far off that's how i started b4. my parents were lecturing me on college and leaving to new York and how i can barely take care of myself... i don't want to stay here... i don't want to deal with the stress of my parents... but as they were lecturing me i began to cry. their right i'm spoled and i don't know how to take care of myself... i'm messy... i don't like washing dishes, and i don't know how to do laundry. i'm just a big ol slo arn't i? atleast to them i am... i'm neat hen i want to be and when things get too gross for me i do clean up. i'm not gunna wait untill my house in infested with roaches to start cleaning... yet they think i am... ow i have to prove them worng... they pulled out my brother and my sister as examples and i just got soo mad... atleast i'm finishing high school... atleast i want to go to college and to say i don't need their help is just nieve of me... i know damn stright i do need them... but if they don't want to help me then they can go to hell... anyway as their lecturing me my nails are scraping the back of my hand... i'm traising my vains and ignoring the sting... my nails are pretty long now... atleast hey were i cut them after last night... i made my skin so raw to the pont that i almost broke through my skin and started bleeding... their are no marks now you can't even tell... but goddess i was so mad... not mad at them more like mad at myself... because to a certin extent they are right... i don't do anyhing around the house... i don't help out and i spend most of my time on the computer writing... but that's what i want to be a writter... for some reason now their starting to hate the idea though they've read my poetry ... atleast my mom has... i've been published in books more than 13 times now... i'm sure the number is a little higher... but it hurt me so... i can handle reality... but only bit by bit... i take everything one step at a time. like now i'd rather focus on current assignments in school than the s.a.t.s which are next month... htey expect me to do it all at once... and i just can't... they won't listen to me whn i try to explain... somehow i don't think they'd understand... on a happir note ill be going to New York for Christmas where i will get my drivers lisene one and for all..... this is all i really have to say for now... the ret will work itself out... or atleast i hope it will.... Blessed Be *Bruja* "Cup Of Coffee" By Garbage You told me you don't love me
Over a cup of coffee
And I just have to look away
A million miles between us
Planets crash into dust
I just let it fade away I'm walking empty streets
Hoping we might meet
I see your car parked on the road
The light on at your window
I know for sure that you're home
But I just have to pass on by So no, of course we can't be friends
Not while I'm still this obsessed
I guess I always knew the score
This is how our story ends I smoke your brand of cigarettes
And pray that you might give me a call
I lie around on bed all day just staring at the walls
Hanging round the bars at night, wishing I had never been born
Give myself to anyone who wants to take me home So no, of course we can't be friends
Not while I still feel like this
I guess I always knew the score
This is where our story ends You left behind some clothes
My belly summersaults
When I pick them off the floor
My friends all say they're worried
I'm looking far too skinny
I've stoped returning all their calls And no of course we can't be friends
Not while I'm still this obsessed
I want to ask where I went wrong
But don't say anything at all It took a cup of coffee
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| I can't belive she's dead i con't belive she's gone. not to long ago i saw her siling face as she served me and my friends food. now where is she? dare i ask... back in june believe i lost someone close. i didn't weep too much it was her time... she was 98 i belive if not somewhere close to her hundreds... dear little Nenita a woman i had held dear to my heart but had long sense let go. she had cared for me as a baby and now... dear sweet Nora is gone aswell... laster year she was diegnosed ith Lucimia... cancer to the blood... none of us belived it true... she couldn't die from it... after her diegnoses she go better and recovered... only to have the reched desease return... three months ago she was rediagnosed and went back into kemo therapy... a month ago she was hospitalized... she was so strong... she tried to fight it off... we all thought she would make it... but alas.. yesterday she closed her eyes and didn' wake... It took her life... so sudden.... so sad.... she left behind a husband, a son, a daughter... and so much more... she was a young 50 and didn't look her age.... she as so young and vibrant... dare i say... the woman loved cooking... and feeding aswell... a funny thought that brings tears welling up into my eyes... dear sweet goddess i hope they rest with you... dear Nora i know- i sense- has already passed into the summerlands where she has mostlikly already been reborn... Nenita dearest is by your side... she's lived too long to want to do it again so soon... she's watching over all she held dear... and through all this tradgedy still i find i easy to move on... if i don't think about it.. if i push it out of my mind... i can go on... the more i linger on it... te harder it is for me to move on.... bu i know if i were to go to her funeral on saturday... i'd shatter... My face would be red with tears and my body trembling with the sobs that eco around the funeral hall... i don't know if she's being burried or burned... bu i want to know... my moms going back to nyc for the funeral she said... i want to go too... but alas i have school...we can't all be greedy... but ill be here in florida thinking of her... to the gods i prey... guild her sprit through her new life... let it be a pleasant one... let her start anew... Blessed Be *Bruja* | | |
| School BlowsHEY GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT!!
she told... the principle called me into his office and we had a talk i wasn't i |
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