Midwest love affair. 
 I bend when I am bored. 
Late night liquor blue will lead me to the floor. 
Can we fake it? 
Can we make believe? 
I'm so full of love, It deeply sickens me

if you play dumb,
then i'll play tragic,
&& you can break me,
like a bad habit

[with demons dancing off mirror images reflecting all that you wanted. so far from perfect, onward we will strive. take it for what it's worth, this truth that you've realized.
you're not who you thought you were, it's time to see the other side of what you have become.]

[desperate endeavor, you've got to take it or leave it, if you will.]

[so get out, stop dreaming, if you're one for breathing. sacrificial moral standards of two reflections. truth and fire, something you'll live for. ..so close to perfect.]

[it's not so convincing that you're the only one who could be like me.]

[don't bother keeping your heavy breathing down for the one who can't hear you scream.]

[never pass off your guilt lines, just wear them like a noose on your neck, i'll help you keep it tied tight.]

[i can see how the sting, and the speed, and the wings of the plane home make you nervous. oh, mr. shoddy content, swept all your dignity under the covers, she'll be lying, keeping secrets, keeping quiet. now you understand what it's like to dive. take it back, taken back, she forgets you. now she pleads "forgive me again, it's the last time i will..."]

[you're the worst actor that i've ever seen, but if this script called for liars, you'd play the lead.]

[did you get what you wanted, the silent type. did you even come close, did they let you taste it?]

[you think you're saving face but i'll tell you what...as far as you're concerned , the next breath that you take should be underwater. you're worthless. you've been told once before, this time you're gonna get back a little more than you paid for.]

[you said it, you mean it, you want it, you've got it. i've been waiting far too long for this.]

[spill fiction when my back is turned, when you've got an easy target.]

[you're taking chances for the worst and the worst is yet to come.]

[in this home we've made, you're never welcome again.]

[you don't know what it is to regret..]

[i've been the secret that you've been keeping..]

[i can't hear you scream. hold the phone to make it better. i can't hear you scream. i wanted to feel this safe..]

[just look at this cardboard cutout, this puppet that you've become. let me be the first to acknowledge, you've no pride, you've no purpose. it's so typical to think less is more when you're out of the lead.]

[your secret's out, what you held within. you've found your plague, your cancer, stop. i bet you've got something clever.]

[decisions, make decisions for your fate. your choice is the chance that you have to take.]

[you've found all of the answers, so take a breath and end this chapter. i'll bring the fire if you bring the water.]

[this battle of mind over matter's spent.]

[burn quick, sink slow, your heart grows colder than regret.]

[..well it's not like it hurts that much anyway.]

[oh, did i mention when i see you it stings like hell? to the fact that we could have something that'll never happen. will you hear what i have to?]

[so show me something we haven't heard yet, but i'm not convinced and your hopeless songs wont stick. but i, i'll sing you something you wont forget. for the first time i know this is not who i am.]

[you kiss me like an overdramatic actor who's starving for work, with one last shot to make it happen.]

[take back everything you ever said. you never meant a word of it. you never did.]

['cause i regret every thing that i said to ever make her feel like she was something special, or that she ever really mattered. did she ever really matter?]

[i'm not saying that I'm not breaking some hearts tonight, girl.]

[my eyes can't believe what they have seen. in the corner of your room you've stockpiled millions of my memories.]

[oh doctor, doctor, i must have gotten this sick somehow. i'm going to ask you a series of questions, and I want them answered on the spot, right now. is it serious? i'm afraid it is. am i gonna die? well son, death is gonna catch up to all one day, but yours is coming quicker then ours, then ours.]

[hold your head high, heavy heart. so take a chance and make it big, 'cause it’s the last you’ll ever get. if we don’t take it, when will we make it? i make plans to break plans, and i’ve been planning something big, planning something big, planning.]

[i’ve never tried to make the best of my time, when i thought that i had plenty of it. is this serious? i don’t know what to think. is it all a lie? well one thing is for sure, i'm taken back to the glory days. when we were kids without a brash or bitter thing to say.]

[now my life is one big make it, or break it.]

[we've got one chance to break out and we need it now. 'cause i'm sick and tired of waiting. sick of this fucking apartment..]

[love me or leave me or rip me apart. this is the voice that i was given and if you dont like it take a long walk off of the shortest pier you can find.]

[so afraid of anything that may not come that easy. too afraid of anything that you may not have seen before.]

[so you're selfish, and i'm sorry. when i'm gone you'll be going nowhere fast.]

[would you believe me if i said i didn't need you?..'cause i wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me.]

[someone, somewhere said some things that may have sparked some sympathy, but don't believe. don't believe a word you've heard about me.]

[i'm not the type to forget about nights like this, where every single move that i make is documented and scored for style points. the once ambitious one now holds the smoking gun. and if i die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be?]

[did you buy what i sold and did you feel what i told you? i hope you still do. will you promise yourself that this isn't all we've got?]

[when you said you were falling apart i thought you meant that you were falling apart.]

[he's got a decent voice, he's got that crooked smile. hold on, you havent heard the best yet. he writes great storylines, he's got those honest eyes. so take him home for just $9.95. he'll sing the songs you like, he'll keep you warm at night.]

[so there you are, and here i stand, as far as i remember you weren't half bad.]

[so suck your so called pity down. hey, that's not so bad, is it? so take your cold, cold heart and drown and don't forget to take deep breaths.]

[don't explain, 'cause i know exactly what your going to say. big words, recycled phrases, and the bittersweet taste of other boys on your lips.]

[you get me out of the rain, you get me out of my clothes. you hope i don't make a sound, you hope that nobody knows.]

[downtown, looking down, down, looking over the crowd, i hope you're out there, look at me now. well it's not the same. just look at how we've changed.]

[i don't ever want to see you again, my friend. this is the end. out of the house, she grabs the keys, runs for the hills and doesn't leave a letter. that way the impact will be much better.]

[you dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.]

[the writers weren't kidding about how all good things must end. then again, some things are far too good to go ahead and let go.]

[go ahead and tell them again. well, i think that i know that they won't remember. go ahead and tell them twice. yeah, twice is nice, but three times is just right.]

[i'm missing you to death, but it's all for the best, i know.]

[i'm on my feet. this isn't like us anyway. i'm running...our time is almost here.]

and he said:
you're cynical and beautiful
you always make a scene.
you're monochrome delirious
you're nothing that you seem.
i'm drowning in your vanity
your laugh is a disease.
you're dirty and you're sweet.
you know you're everything to me

The greatest irony of life is knowing that the best things worth living for are just as good to die for.

Take nothing but photos. Leave nothing but footsteps. And kill nothing but time.

COMMENTS?

when you were little -
did you ever spread your arms out and spin?
its like love inside.
you're telling yourself to stop because you
might get hurt but you don't want to -
you just want to » keep on spinning «

Nothing makes sense anymore . . .

when murder is just a mistake

that you made.

miss him ;;
not enough to want him back ..
just enough to hurt.

I hate this feeling. It's one I know well -
It's a thing called heartbreak .. and it
hurts like hell.

Forgiving is not forgetting,
it's letting go of the hurt.

It could be so simple but you'd rather make it hard. Loving you is like a battle & we both end up with scars.

you got take some chances,
you got risk it all.
you got close your eyes and jump
cause it might be worth the fall

The only time I walk away is when I'm pushed too hard.

I'm sinking slowly, so hurry hold me
your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on

When hell intertwines with earth, only the young are safe. When the drunk abuse the innocent even Satan seems anodyne. And when your body becomes immune to the worst in life, greatness is only a step away.

 Too young to die
& too old to believe
in promises

 I am the mess you chose, the closet you cannot close, the devil in you I suppose

never regret anything because at one
point it was exactly what you wanted

Let's Get These Teen Hearts Beating. Faster, Faster
So Testosterone Boys And Harlequin Girls
Will You Dance To This Beat, And Hold A Lover Close?

Well, She's Not Bleeding On The Ballroom Floor Just For The Attention.
Cause That's Just Ridiculously On. Well, She Sure Is Going To Get It
Here's The Setting ;;
Fashion Magazines Line The Walls Now, The Walls Line The Bullet Holes

Raindrops On Roses And Girls In White Dresses
And Sleeping With Roaches And Taking Best Guesses
At The Shade Of The Sheets Before All The Stains
And A Few More Of Your Least Favorite Things.
Inside, What A Wonderful Caricature Of Intimacy

Talk To The Mirror, Choke Back Tears.
And Keep Telling Yourself That "I'm A Diva!"
Oh And The Smokes In That Cigarette Box On The Table,
They Just So Happen To Be Laced With Nitroglycerin.

Swear To Shake It Up, If You Swear To Listen
Oh, We're Still So Young, Desperate For Attention

YOU'REAREGULARDECORATEDEMERGENCY

When You're Left With Only A Bullet
I'll Bring The Trigger And A Promise To Pull It
I'll Be The End Of Everyone Who's Ever Entered Your Life
And Taken Pieces Out Of It.

I Know Forever Isn't Long Enough To Forget
The Faces And Places That Played Out Your Tragedy.