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| Wow, it's been quite a while. You know a shotload of stuff has happened. lol Nothing too major though. I went to three Warped Tours this summer. AWSOME!! Can't wait till next year, of course! I'm about to go to Allentown to see My Chemical Romance and Taking Back Sunday. Fun, fun! November it's Silverstein and Aiden. I love Aiden!!
Had a few parties this summer, of course. Nothing too bad happened though. lol I love parties at my house I've realized. Weird. Hope to party more!! I'll be 21 in like 105 days!! Go me! Oh, I discovered this band at Warped and met the lead singer. They're amazing!!
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - *Cat And Mouse*
Softly we tremble tonight
Picture perfect fading smiles are all that's left in site
I said I'd never leave you'll never change
I'm not satisfied with where I'm at in life
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted
It comes with a price
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted
It comes with a price
You said that you would die for me
We made plans to grow old
Believe me there was truth in all those stories that I told
Lost in a simple game cat and mouse
Are we the same people as before this came to light?
You must live for me too
For me too
You said that you would die for me | | |
| So not much has been going on lately. Just work and sleep. The last party action was St. Patty's Day. That was a good one. People had been drinking since like 1pm so they don't even remember me getting there at 10. lol Can't wait to do it again!! I went up to school to visit Nate for what could be the last time.  Who knows. But, yeah, I don't think I'm going back to school. I'd rather find an apartment and move out. I don't want to work in an office I realized after being at the Y those 3 months. I need to be up, moving, and active. This is what Hoss's has done to me. lol I'm so happy cause I don't work salad bar for at least another week!! I hate that hell hole. Well, leave me some love if anyone even reads this anymore. 
*Vermillion Pt. 2* - Slipknot
She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame
All the torment and the pain leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her for myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do when she makes me sad
She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
The song that no one sings
The unattainable
She's a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do when she makes me sad
But I won't let this build up inside of me
A catch in my throat, choke
Torn into pieces
I won't, no
I don't wanna be this
But I won't let this build up inside of me
She isn't real
I can't make her real | | |
| I saw this lil thing on someone else's site...liked it and thought I'd post it:
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.
So love the people who treat you right,
forget about the ones who don't,
and believe that everything happens for a reason.
If you get a chance, take it.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said it would be easy,
they just promised it would be worth it.
Wow, when I read it again, I realize it's like the motto of my life. Makes me think of people I love. *sigh* God, when I think about him leaving it rips me apart inside. Actually any of my friends leaving. Anyone I've ever loved and cared about has left me. Friends, family, significant others...I can't believe I even open up any more. It took about 2 years at work to get social. And now some of those people aren't really a part of my life anymore. It never gets easier either. The pain just hurts more and wounds get deeper. Oh well, I enjoy the times I have with them and I'll never forget some of those nights. Even though I never really knew what happened some of them anyway. haha Here's a good song I love to sing and has the best line, You were the last good thing about this part of town, in it. Makes me think.......
Fall Out Boy - *Grand Theft Autumn*
Where is your boy tonight
I hope he is a gentleman
Maybe he won't find out what I know:
You were the last good thing about this part of town
When I wake up
I'm willing to take my chances on
Who I'm against
Cause you hate him more than you notice
I wrote this for you, for you
Cause you need him
I should be him
I could be a accident
But I'm still trying
That's more than I can say for him
Someday I'll appreciate in value
Get off my ass and call you
In the meantime I'll sport my brand new fashion
Of waking up with pants off at four in the afternoon
Where is your boy tonight
I hope he is a gentleman
Maybe he won't find out what I know:
You were the last good thing about this part of town | | |
| Wow...lately I've had an awesome life. I mean that I haven't been as depressed as usual.  I feel like I "fit in" more with people, and that people want me to be around them. lol I know that should be nothing astonishing, but to me it's important. Not like I'm totally happy though. Last night I had a melt down, but I guess these things will happen. I can't wait to go out and party again. Last Thursday was effin awesome! I took a lot of pictures and drank a lot of Mike's. Mostly the pics help me remember what the Mike's made me forget.  Oh, I got like a million cds yesterday. lol Music makes my world go around. This is one of the cds I finally got...and I love this song! It makes me wanna hug someone and die in their arms. lol I'm such a NERD!! Leave some and check out my super pics!! http://community.webshots.com/user/DeviateShortcake Comment!! :-p
Coheed and Cambria - *Wake Up*
I'm gonna ride this plane out of your life again
I wish that I could stay, but you argue
More than this, I wish you could've seen my face
In the backseat staring out the window
I'd do anything for you
Kill anyone for you
So leave yourself intact
Cause I will be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I love you
The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up
I've earned through hope and faith
On the curves around your face
That I'm the one you'll hold forever
If the morning never comes for either one of us
Then this I pray to you wherever
I'll do anything for you
This story is for you
Cause I'd do anything you want me to for you
I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you | | |
| I just had an awesome night!! I actually got out of the house and did something with people!  I went bowling at first it was just gonna be me and my sis. We tried to get other people to come though. We only got Jeremy to come with us. We bowled two games because we had the bright idea to go to Pizza Hut, which closes at 9:30. But the second game we speed bowled. lol I did awesome too. I got like a 134. Not bad for me.  Then we went to Pizza Hut and ate and laughed a lot. Fun times....Banana Girl and Deep Throating Breadsticks. Wow. I've gotten back into the bowling every week thing. It seems to be Wednesday night that I have off work...and that's half price night, yay me!! Well, take care until I update again, and leave some loving for me!!
H.I.M. - *Rip Out The Wings Of A Butterfly*
Heaven ablaze in our eyes
We're standing still in time
The blood on our hands is the wine
We offer as sacrifice
Come on, and show them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul
This endless mercy mile
We're crawling side by side
With hell freezing over in our eyes
Gods kneel before our crime
Come on lets show, them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul
(Rip out the wings of a butterfly)
Don't let go
(Rip out the wings of a butterfly)
For your soul
Come on, and show them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul
(Rip out the wings of a butterfly)
Don?t let go
(Rip out the wings of a butterfly)
For your soul
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