If there was one thing I could do for the rest of my life it would be a hard decsion. I would have to chose between looking in your wonderful eyes, feeling your wonderful smile on my face, being in your arms, knowing you were the only one for me or spending eternity with you.

The one thing I'm scared most about right now is that I'll lose the one thing that makes my heart skip a beat every second of the day. Having him there to hug, to hold & to kiss makes everything seem so perfect. He's the one who makes me want to wake up in the morning, makes me feel like going to school & to stay awake at night. I smile & laugh every second I'm with him & it feels like time just stops when he's there with me. I cherish the time I spend with him now because who knows if something would ever happen to break us apart. All I really want is him to be with me for me, not for something more. This is the first time I feel that I can't screw this up because if I do, I know he'll just leave & I'm not letting this one go because he's real, the one that understands me out of every guy out there that I've ever met or known. I'm scared to get hurt again, too many tears lost, too much time wasted. I hope that he's the boy that's going to be there for me, always. The one who actually keeps his word & promises.

I needed to come and vent for a second. I'm tired of working my ass off and getting no appretiation. The old GM quit so now I have to wait for the new one to see if he thinks I deserve a raise. I think I do. I rarley ever call in sick and I'm always there. I cover for whoever needs it and I  have complements on most anything I do. I have so many people saying "I have never seen a bathroom that clean". Most of the time I'm the one that cleans it. I work every sunday and only ask for saturdays off. I had one day off this week and I"m fine with that. I'm tired of getting hurt but then I'm accident prone so thats nothing I can handle. I don't mean to be bitchy or anything like that but I am. I'm rarley ever home and I when I am I'm being told to do chores. We don't have school today or tomorrow so I'm going to stay home and help around the house I guess. I have nothing else to do. My brother and sister are at my moms house because again second time this year that SRS has been called. And now I'm being stuck in the middle like always becuase I'm the oldest and I should know everything that is going on right? No. Like I said I am never home and all I know is what my mom tells me. I don't talk to her as much as I should or as much as I want to but I still talk to her when I can. I had prom last weekend. It sucked. But it was cool becuase before that I was with Will BG and My mommy. We went to Texas road House. They have the best damn rolls I have ever had. And then we went to the Hyatt to get pictures taken in front of the waterfall and they came out really pretty. and then we went to prom which sucked!!!! We stayed to take pictures and then we danced to one slow song and then we went to church which was so much better. I had the best prom even though I wasn't there for the real one. But it's ok because I spent the whole night with Will which made everything better and made it so much happier. Right now I'm sitting at home I still have to do dishes and work on my room so I should go. Thank you for taking the time out your busy life to read something that made me feel better. I'm glad you had the patience and I will talk to you later. I love You baby!!!! And I will be on again soon. *hopefully*

Robyn