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Be sure to check back for photo's from Japan to Cambodia, Europe, etc
Kiss, Emma    
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| A little trip back to Europa.. I must’ve been a gypsy in my past life....with long, raven locks, mysterious eyes, and many ethnicities, I suppose I'm a modern one now. Ah, I’ve reconciled with my love for Turkish Belly dancing, and the lovely melodies that precede it. My curiosity is a journey...there is no limit to what I desire. Random and Unorganized Jargon Life is beautiful I truly believe, but it’s people who pollute the world. Value nature and the earth deeply, because it’s the few innocence we have in the world. She’s very aware, and talks about it well -- but she is still part of it. Sometimes retreating seems it will ease the desire, but you realize the whole world is following this trend of globalization. When you think too much about it.. you almost lose your sanity. The fakeness of what is now considered real. The beauty, the smiles, the glam, the aura, the “life” --- it’s just a painted façade that easily depletes after a trickle of rain. But what’s worst is when it’s too late, when you’ve already sold you soul into it’s demon. Can you ever really turn back? And if you run far, will it still haunt you every now and than? The suffering can subside, but it never ends. The hole you dug is much too deep, so you live as being half dead. No love, but only desire to conquer....a prelude to the end. -- BUCURESTI, ROMANIA -- 
Beautiful lights all over the city of Bucuresti 
Train Station -- Bucharest ...on to Transylvania
-- COZIA SI GURA VAII, RAMNICU VALCEA -- 
Monastery in Cozia 
Ironically Borat's Kazahkstan scenes were not really in Kazahkstan, but rather a small Romanian village, which are everywhere outside the main cities. We stayed here for one week -- this is paradise compared to the villages I visited in places like Vietnam. 
A simple life... --- TRANSILVANIA --- 
Sighisoara, home of Vlad Tepes (Drakyula)
 
Strada (street) Visarion Roman
Sorry I did not present this vacation as enticing as the others..I did, however, have a lovely time and have many fond memories to share with close relations. My heart is....somewhere else, ..somewhere I can't be...and perhaps, somewhere I don't want to go anymore. Te Pup. Noapte Buna | | |
|  Sad Eyes Never Lie
The world is in motion, and she‘s pending, watching everyone…fathoming their joys, but unable to join their trance. I realize people cannot prevail in certain fields, but what happens when a person fails in the field of life? Symbols representing the underworld, nice rides, a few residences uptown and downtown, money, and an untouchable smirk makes a real man in my delusional world, but not in real life -- and sadly, all lessons are learnt at cost, usually sacrificing someone‘s pride. With or without “things”…..only one thing matters anyway, love. It’s nice to dream at times….but not so much for anyone who is aware that dreaming is really a dangerous thing -- it doesn’t get a person anywhere in life. I always say “one day”….as in one day, I’m actually going to act upon something I feel. That’s sort of like something I recently experienced….a lot of beautiful thoughts, but nothing that actually touched my heart. Some things are pragmatic, some are just illusionary. I mean, I can cut off my lovely hair , but I can’t peel off my smile, or tear off my breasts when I’m poisoned by my own thoughts. The only realistic thing I could do would just be to end it all, in one motion -- but, I just can‘t act upon it. That saying echo’s in my head, how people visit the doctor when they get hurt, physically…..but rarely does the same occur when a person is hurt, emotionally. The physical pain heals….and the emotions,.. Well.. And the only reason I cease to exist, is because of love. And love, sometimes, hurts like hell. Completely irrelevant -- I am returning to Europe, again. I leave in two weeks.
 
There’s something about Veronika Zemanova that captivates me (and it’s not the fact that she’s a busty soft-core porn star.) Her eyes reveal something mine disguise well, a mystery. Every serious admirer I’ve encountered says the same thing, “something about your eyes.”
But nevermind Veronika, and any other woman for that matter..........behold I am in LOVE, with the most sensational Arabian girl shown above. Those eyes! Apparently, this is why some mistake me for a treat from the Middle East
Pics from the usual Family Dinner My bambino...   Hmm Appetizers All these animals are real, --- perhaps terrifying to an Animal activist My Lil' niece being silly ...(though, being 5'9..she's not so little anymore) Kicking the air? I have no idea what I was doing.....I fell asleep shortly after, due to red wine.
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| *I had a good laugh, followed by a lot of aww's, when I saw these photo's of my lil' niece. She's a year old, she's got a few teeth, and she's cheeky as ever. 
"Show me your toothers.."
She went berry picking in our backyard, which explains the mess all over her dress
And my Mother says to me the other day, "I can't wait until you have babies Em!" She's probably the only Mother who loves the idea of her young daughters getting pregnant. I just laughed, and said "Ten years Mom."
The end of summer is nearing. I've been going out abnormally more than my introverted-norm. Life is ...err, interesting lately. I'm having lots of fun, but I can't say I'm pleased with my life at the moment. Then again, there's never been a point in my life where I felt I wasn't missing something. Consistency is my setback. He calls me 'hot and cold.' A love fueled by jealousy, that we both rather enjoy. I'm such a..(I will think of a better word later) weird girl.
The flame that was burning in June is slowly dying out. I am planning to return to Europe this December just to be sure my choice is wise. The proposition of a life-long commitment was dreamy, but rather more scary at times. I’m never good with making big decisions. And this new candle....it flickers. Extremes of love and hate. You drive me insane, but at the same time I'm addicted to your closeness. “If you give it up too easily, there is nothing left to offer.”
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"He fell into a manic depression characterized by suicidal feelings and flights of exileration. In other words, he was in love." - Bruce Benderson, The Romanian
Goodbye conventional ways of "beauty" and hello lets-focus-on-knowledge. I am so uneducated and inexperienced in ways that don't centre on worldliness -- and I want that to change. Anyway, there is plenty to say, but nothing really translates into words these days. Mind you, I'm still immersed in European nostalgia.
Watch my Lisa Ray as Kalyani in a beautiful film about widowed women in India during Gandhi's reign. It's called "Water."
The irony is how women have gained so many rights in recent decades, and yet these rights are invaluable when realizing the image society embraces for a woman.
*Why is it that deprived souls have such wicked desires? Such a beautiful thing is exploited, with innocent victims being emotionally slaughtered by it‘s mishandling. And this is why I have developed into a skeptical person -- are you genuine, or are you trying to manipulate me for your personal benefit? Sometimes, my heart cries for you, because winds of negative influence have put you in such a hopeless, desperate state.
Ego is a way for people to feel important. All it is ignorance; fear to think for self, fear to be self. It should be put in bold letters that ego is just a surface word for insecurity. Tragic.
Inspiration does not require a 10 hour-plus flight to a place far and exotique. I used to think so, until I realized solace is only a ten minute bike-ride from mi casa. I love the outdoors, and am very lucky to live in a city filled with beautiful, wilderness-lush trails.
 Te iubesc, si mie-dor de tine. Astept sô fiu cu tine din nou. | | |
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