im writing a new entry!

mood: remisiscant

well, i havent even written in this thing for so long i doubt anyone still reads it but, if you do... i <3 you for it. actually, the only reason im writing this is because casey has inspired me to. this thing reminds me of when we went to school together and omg... i miss it so much! i miss seeing casey everyday! i havent seen her in so long and it kinda hurts... i hope she doesnt read this cause shes gunna think ima total dork for it but i even miss her being a hick. i miss her talkng about cows, salsa dancers, trucks, bullriding, country music, and life on the farm. i miss her sitting next to me at lunch when i knew there was someone i could just lean up against and feel completely happy. i miss talking to her on the phone for 1 hour every night. i miss her yelling at me for not commenting on her myspace and xanga. i miss her cheering me up when i had a bad day. i miss her calling me up freaking out because she was nervous about going on a date. i miss buss rides with her when the bus used to always smell bad. i miss that time i got off the bus at her house and she gave me the biggest hug ever. i miss that hug more than anything. i miss her smile. i miss her face. i miss her attiude. i miss her occasional patches of ghettoness. i miss making cakes with her. i miss making fun of her grandma with her. i miss chicken parmigan with her. i miss spaghetti with her. i miss stupid mtv shows with her. i miss being on the phone with ricky while i was on her bed. i miss her grandma getting drunk. i miss brushing the horses. i miss walking through shit with her. but most of all... i miss being her best friend...

ok im totally writing a new entry... so how are things going for you guys? i miss this damn xanga thing... so things have been ok for me... almost getting kicked out of the old houser thanks to the parents, but ill survive one way or another. went back to school after spring break today... it was really wierd, things seem so different, i mean, i totally thought i was in love with someone and then the next week i could totally care less if he was there or if he was burning in hell... so i went to a doctors appointment after school today. i had to give a urine sample and it was really wierd to do. i dont understand how people do it. then i went to mcdonalds and got some unhealthy food and a water to try to justify the unhealthyness of the food. lol, i know, im an ass... so i called nicloe today, i have to teach her how to dance before the sophmore sock hop so it shoudl be interesting to see if that works out or not. hopefully we will win best dance couple, but even if we dont, oh well, at least we had fun, tahts all that really counts... aight, well im going to go shower and brush my teeth so ill ttyl

its been a very long time since i wrote in this thing... things are going ok for me i guess. its actually the first time ive been happy in a long time, but at the same time it sucks ass. you ever want to do something really bad but you were too scared to do it? well yeah, ive been doing that a lot... if you dont know you can ask i guess but it sucks. sometimes i wish i could tell exactly what ppl thought of me, then other times i think about how scarry that would be... i just wish for once, that things would work out for me the way i want them to. so anyway, bev is about to get here. YAY :D i got a letter from land of make believe this week, it made me thing about all my freinds from there... i love you guys and miss you a lot. it wont be too much longer before were back together again! peace out

Josh

hott damn, i DID go to a movie with ryan, kristen, kelsey, and nicole! wooo! so then i went to see phantom of the opera for the 4th time yesterday with katrina and lauren, god those to are so kool, and funny as hell. we had so much fun throwing popcorn, makinf fun of ppl, and pretending to "slip" on the popcorn... lol, good times. so yes, im very bored right now, just finished my history outline and i have to go to pburg later and get a picture blown up to finish the project... dinner calls, must be going

"to my secret admirers" <3