| Goodbye, Xanga. 
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| So I was just reading old entries (I've had this thing FOREVER it
seems) and it's weird how I've changed. I can't really explain it, and
I don't think it's a bad change, but it is a change. I think that kind of change is just inevitable. I'm older. BUT, like they say in Under the Tuscan Sun,
I do want to keep a childish wonder. The reason I was looking back was
because I am typing up my resume for Into to Business and I, for the
life of me, couldn't remember what my title was when I worked at the
library. I never found it either. Grrr! I'll just ask Marie tomorrow.
Life update: College is a lot more difficult than I thought it was
going to be. Not just the work you have to put into it, but other
things as well. Relationships. Personal limits (this includes money,
mind-altering substances, and sleep). Health (physical and
mental). Just a lot of things you have to really work on. I'm sure it's
more difficult for me than others. My biggest struggle is with time
management. Oh Lord. Please help me!
I've been home a lot it seems like but I still miss my family so so so
much. And it doesn't exactly help that my Grandma is getting very old
and her body is just not giving her what she wants anymore. She can't
even go out. It's sad but she's at peace and that's what keeps me sane
for this subject.
Jessica, my roommate, is amazing. I love her. I can't even imagine
living with anybody else this year. And next year for that matter!
We're hopefully getting a house in The Retreat with Sarah Johnson.  How exciting!
I'm in desperate need of a job. I miss paycheck Fridays. That's another
thing: you hear about "poor college students." Well, it's true. I'm
poor. What happened to ALL that money I got this summer? I really don't
know where it all went. Clothes, little things like makeup. I hate
myself for that kind of stuff. It really adds up! But you never think
of that when all you really want is that lipgloss and new Cosmo...
I don't want to make college sound completely depressing, b/c it's not! But a lot of times I miss high school. It's just so different
now. Maybe I'm being so weird b/c it's almost 5 in the morning. (Oh how
I miss my momma making me go to bed at 11:30...) I don't know.
I miss Deidre, too. I miss just be able to see her whenever we felt
like it. Because now it's not really even possible. I mean, it is but
it's just really time and gas consuming. All I really want is for it to
be sunny, 80 degrees, windows down, Deidre in the passenger seat, music
cranked up as loud as possible, just driving around Snellville. "Lame,"
some may say but whatever. That's just what I want to do.
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| FALL BREAK!!!! 
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| So apparently 3 days it all it takes.... I'd have to agree.
Deidre - I love you so much and can't wait to see you this weekend!
Yes, we will probably have too much fun but good because that's just
us. 
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| I just can't seem to figure anything out... like why certain things
happen or why things are like they are. Why does Deidre go to GA
Southern and not here to UGA? Why am I here at UGA? Why don't I ever go
to sleep before 3 am? Why do I have such selfish thoughts when I know I
shouldn't? Why doesn't my grandma ever answer her phone? Why do some
people find their husband/wife in college and others don't? Why do some
people get caught and others don't? Why am I so blessed? Why can't I
just be the person I want to be? I have faith in God and I know that
he's got a plan for everyone and therefore everything happens for a
reason, but it's hard to see that sometimes. Life is just weird
sometimes. I think I'm just in a rut and I need to change some things.
One day at a time...
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