What do you do when you don't know what's right for you?
What do you do when everyone but you sees the truth?
What do you do when all you ever do is question the path you chose?
How do you go back and change?
What if there's no going back?
What if there's nothing for you back there?
Do you wait?
What if there is nothing for you no matter what?
How can you go on?
How can you live day by day?
How can you not be depressed?
How can you put on that facade?
What do you do if you're not happy?
What do you do if all you think about is your sad life?
What if they were all right?
Do you really belong here?
What do you do if you want to end it all?
Do you just do it?
Or do you just slowly go insane until you can't take it anymore?
What do you do if everyday you cry instead of laugh?
Bleed instead of smile?

I know, I know..."What if I can't get her any of these things?" I know exactly what you're thinking..well, here is a second list!

It's a Hello Kitty mini frig!!!

That is SOOO me!

It's a hello kitty speakers!!!

But the one thing that I want the most...:

 

Is this man here...but good luck wrapping him up

 

Damn I haven't written in a while...Hmmm....

My scene is being performed this friday! Been working with my actors and I think it's coming out pretty damn good. (I'm directing if you didn't know).

I'm planning on doing an overload of classes next semester so I can get the hell out of here. DVC shouldn't even be called a college...actually I don't even think people even know it's a college....how sad. For the first time I feel like I'm the smartest kid in the class..even more sad!

Got invited to a drama party...wild and crazy...

visited Josh at UCSB. I miss him <3

Let's see...Next semester I'm planning on taking seven classes. I'm thinking about double majoring with Law and Broadcast Communications/Musical Theater (I know..)

Went to Ryan's chior concerts (and for all of you who were performing and reading this you all did AWESOME!) The Eric Whitacre concert was mind blowing! Got a picture with him and spent the whole night full of shock trying to calm myself down from the shock of having Eric Whitacre touching my shoulder in the picture! (Note: I will never wash my shoulder!!) The dude is FINE in person! lol.

Hmmmm...for halloween I'm going to SF with some friends. I'm gonna be Cho Chang from Harry Potter..but more scandalous. Example: I'm wearing a mini skirt and a low cut buttoned shirt. My boots goes up to my knees. I'm trying to find a robe but haven't found one yet...I'll take pictures!

Hmmmm...That's about it...can't think of anything else...HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!