| real closure.so as i mentioned before in a blog i accidentally deleted. i'm shutting this blog down due to abuse.
i do want people to read my blogs but im tired of some of this crowd.
one thing i decided i'd like to end with since all of my posts have been emotional and it would be a failure on my part to end without emotion.
I hope to God that at the end of things, and when I look back on my life, that you were a friend [a REAL FRIEND not this half assed crap i keep getting] and not "the one that got away."
that's it for this xanga. peace out.
<3samBAM!!
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| apologies.sorry to everyone who just got caught up in my stupidity.
when you keep yourself caged in for a little while the smallest thing will set you off and more often than not its something that you have no right to hate on.
im sorry i made it seem as if you were nothing. im sorry i cheapened everything.
im sorry i let myself feel anger that i didnt have to worry anymore.
i am an idiot, and as an idiot i apologize. i'm not gonna take that down though, we all do stupid things and we should all learn from them.
i'm sorry. i'll butt out like i know i should have.
<3bam
p.s. i'm not going to apologize for feeling anything because quite frankly we're all entitled to feel however we damn please. and if one more person chastises me for having emotions im just going to give up on this fucking thing and on letting anyone in at all. and maybe if people would stop and think for a minute, i have every right to say whatever i like on this blog as its mine. and if i choose to use it to vent then maybe what i write should be taken into context.
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| one more thing.fuck this friends after bullshit i keep getting left behind and trampled on.
like my aim status says:
anything with a penis can go SUCK IT.
i'm over this BULLSHIT.
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| what the fuck.that was fast.
wow. are you forreal?
im in shock. and it hurts just a little to think that you'd be able to jump into something new so soon. it hurts. friends huh? friends would've mentioned that.
did you have the others talk to me to see how i was doing? whatever.
this is something new to me, so i guess it should be expected that it's hard to deal with. it just feels weird that you, the one was hurting so bad, and you who was so desperate to stay up to date with each other suddenly decided to leave me in the dark and only communicate when it served your purposes.
but then again that was always the problem wasn't it. tell you what, make sure you actually work on that this time around, and maybe she'll come close to being as happy as i was. thanks for the info. pfft. who am i kidding?
i would've cushioned it for you. but hey, thats fine. i was always doing more anyways.
if anyones wondering what the hell im talking about ask me in person.
have fun with your moved on life, i really hope thats how it is.
here's a tip for all of you out there. don't ask someone to be friends with you if you aren't going to give them all the decencies of friendship. i should've known better....but there i go again, being softhearted and caring when NONE of it was returned...
yes im angry, yes im shocked, and yes ill probably take a small percentage of this back later on when i've cooled off. i think i hate you right now. and i know im for sure disappointed in you. that i won't take back.
<3BAM
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| hold strong.stay the course, and let life pull you. and be careful not to drown. never let emotions blind you, they're out to make you a clown.
life's a rollercoaster, a churning monsoon...
high's low's and everything in between. flitting debris of images and situations...
crazy shit.
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