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SENIOR YEAR FUCKING KICKS ASS!!!! sorry i just had to get that out there.

So thursday it was lakes first football game and everyone was there of course. And friday it was senior skip day so like 15 girls went to spend the night at Ambers bc shes a total badass and let us all stay there!! Annd It was really fun Except when Moe was yelling at me to get up at like 730 in the morning and im like absolutely not!! haha i love her though..

Then Friday afternoon i went to crystal with Michael so we could drive on the beach n stuff and it was sooo relaxing. We got home around 8 or something and hung out at his house. And if anyone wants to know how we're doing, the answer is goooood

Today i woke up with a headache so i kept going back to sleep and finally got up around 12. I was lazy but then decided to take a bath and my dad ruined it by calling constantly to tell me to go get my car washed from the vball car wash thing at norman frede so i went and did that. THEN i took a nap bc i was still tired for some reason and around 5 i went to Michael's and hung out there and then Huff and Jamie came with us to the mall to eat bc Michael wanted "wang chungs" AKA Famous Wok. (Dont ask lol) After we ate we went and saw "Red Eye" which was pretty good but you know me, i was scared. It was really suspensful. But i did pretty good actually by watching the whole thing! lol

So now im here doing nothing but trying to occupy myself so i dont have to listen to the storm bc i hate storms I'm also stressing out bc i have a lot of shit due monday and a quiz and test to take also.. grrr.. i thought my classes were going to be easy but it seems like its not gonna be that way. Oh well. I'm done for now.

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heyyy

So schools been alright.. i cant really complain since i get out at 12!! haha But im gonna have to look for a job soon bc my parents dont like the fact that i have so much free time and their right bc sometimes its boring. I'm probably going to work in the mall bc i really dont want to be a hostess but who knows what will happen. Its still hard to believe that im a senior and that i'll be graduating in like 8 months!! its crazy.. and its actually kinda scary. But im also excited bc i'll get more freedom!! I really dont know what i want to do with my life though. I have dreams but their not really realistic so thats a problem. I'll most likley stick around here for a while bc i screwed up my freshmen and soph year.. oh well.

Michael and I were on our way home from the movies last night (we saw 40 yr old virgin) and were talking about regret and if we had any. And he made such a good point that i really dont have any regrets anymore. He told me that noone should ever have regrets bc its something you cant change and you learn from it so why be upset over something you cant go back on? It definately made me feel a lot better about some things.. But anyways i'm done for now. Hope everyone likes their classes!

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In a really depressed mood but im trying so hard to get out of it.

Dont worry though im not going to bitch in this entry.. thats kinda gettin old. Right now im just tryin to kill time so i dont have to think about the things that im upset about.

School is tomorrow and im not quite sure if im excited about it or not. There are some plus's like having a parking spot and having 6th lunch and being able to go home during lunch or after bc i have my off periods 7th and 8th. Also its SENIOR FUCKING YEAR and i cant WAIT to graduate!!!  But there are some negatives about school starting up like getting up so damn early!! And now that im not playing volleyball i have to get a job sometime soon. Anyway... i hope everyone had an awesome summer and i cant wait to see everyone tomorrow!!

Quote of the day (havent done this in a while)..

Ron Burgandy: "Ladies and gentlemen, can I please have your attention. I've just been handed an urgent and horrifying news story. I need all of you, to stop what you're doing and listen. Cannonball!"

im kind of like barbie.. only without the huge plastic boobs. i've got some fake friends; there's always a stupid theresa to always fuck up me and ken’s relationship. i’ve always have to look after my stupid younger sister, kelly, who gets everything. people think that i’m a slut, and that i sleep around and i’ll steal your man. everyone thinks i can do everything. i’ve always had to pretend to be strong with that permanent smile on my face. i’ve gotta endure people’s shit and act like everything’s fine. they talk about me when i’m right fucking there acting like i can’t hear them. people hate me because they only think i’m perfect. but i’m not. i’m just like you. maybe with a more fucked up life than the average girl but i’m still like you. i just have a better way of hiding things. so yeah, i guess you could say that does make me barbie then.

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heeyy guys

i just got home from a party that was definately for all ages or something. From 21 to 15. and the 15 yr olds... lets just say they were so damn obnoxious i wanted to kill myself. Dont u hate it when girls try to ACT drunk just to get attention? i mean grow up and have some respect for yourself! Anyways so it wasnt really fun.

I quit volleyball like 2 days ago and thats definately a huge deal. I mean, ive played sports all my life and now i have nothing and i kinda feel worthless. No offense to anyone who doesnt play any sports..im just not used to it. But dont get me wrong i am kinda excited about having more free time so thats a plus. I gotta get my schedule changed too so im not in the volleyball class cuz thats gonna be akward I just hope my friends on the team wont like disown me or anything bc i still really care for all them i just couldnt put myself thru all this stress. And volleyball is somethin i can control so i decided to give it up.

Well schools almost here and i guess im pretty excited since im gonna be a senior.. and im cant wait to see the ppl i havent seen since school got out! Only 4 more days.. lets hope its a year we'll never forget.

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hey guys...

I've been having a really tough time in my life right now and its hard to go into it all. But i just got back from New York today bc of my grandads death so i wouldnt exactly call that a vacation..

I've been really depressed bc i have so many regrets with my grandad.. i always put off calling him and i kept telling my mom i was going to call him but i never did. Now for the rest of my life im never going to forgive myself for not talking to him one last time and letting him know how much i love him. i'm also upset bc unlike my other two sisters, im not very good at showing affection to my family and its been really upsetting my mom and we definately dont have a good relationship right now. I feel really bad that she lost both her parents in the last 10 months but i dont know what to say and im also trying to deal with it. Another thing that has been getting me down is volleyball. I have to go out of town again for a volleyball tourn. in duncanville from thursday to sunday and i really dont want to go. I mean.. we're getting home late sunday night and the next day we have school! it sucks so bad. I'm sorry that im bitchin so much..im just tryin to vent some but i wont go into everything else.. i'll just write later.

To everyone though: appreciate everything you have bc u never know when it'll be gone.

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