Apart of me feels happy, and full of life....but the other part of me feels sad and lonely. Every where I turn, I end up in a new struggle, that im forced to get through it myself. Having to feel left out, and pushed to the side, isnt really at all helping me. Everyday I just feel like curling up, and just sheltering myself from the world. Eventually ill find myself whole, and ill feel wanted. But in this point in time, I just wanna run away, and hide all my feelings from everyone. The one person I felt I could turn to isnt always there, as I expected him to be. Being in love doesnt mean everything is going to be perfect, although I really wish it did. I have the most amazing boyfriend  I could ever ask for. But lately it just seems like we're actually growing apart. Summer has changed everything. Everyone is acting differently, and spreading it to others, making people feel outta place. I hold back what I truely feel to everyone, as I face eachday alone. Friends grow up with you, but in the end there not at all as close as you wished theyd always be. Picturing myself in the future, is still all a big blur, but unfortunately ill have to decide which path I wanna travel down. Life isnt just about fun and games, its about facing fears and facing reality....