holy crap i havent updated this thing in a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooong ass time. lol wow. o well. im bored. at my friend anthony's house. he's at practice n im waitin for him to get back. then im goin back to my house n im just sittin there the rest of the night. fun stuff. nothin much really happened. me n meg went to the renissance fair last weekend. that was really fun. it was so great i got to be with her all day long. she quit her job so we'll have a little bit more time together not much though. so thats the only thing that sucks. idk i wanna talk to her so bad just to see how shes doin ya know? i cant talk to her for 2 straight days. literally i cant call her n shes not gettin online. friday she had a game. then her and her friend gretel went out afterwards. dont know were though. then today shes goin to a competition n then gettin home at like 11 n she decided shes gunna go out again lol so yea i cant talk to her at all... idk alot of things have been goin wrong latley. im kinda ok now its just i got alot on my mind. n baby i just want u to know right now...the past 2 days...yes i have had things pop into my head like what are u doin. but dezeo made me realize somethin....now this doesnt go for everything...but say u went to a club without me...as long as ur havin fun. its ok like ok this is what he told me. i went to that dance last night. n basically it was a giant rave and just a giant group of people all dancin together. n i really understand now....yes guys will look at you. but he told me if u do decide to dance with someone, it doesnt mean anything to u. like its hard to explain but he asked me: mark, when u were in that giant group of people and all those people came up to u and asked if u wanted to dance with everyone and you did, did you feel anything when u were dancing with them? did u feel like u had a thing for them? and i told him no i felt nothing like that. and he told me: mark you and megan are so close its unbelievable, and if your dancing with a group of people like that and u dont feeel anything special just the fact you are havin fun...dont u think meg would be the same way if she went dancing without you? and it made me think n i realize now.. ur doing it for fun. and if u want to go to a club, i wont mind. i really really do understand now. hes the only one who put it in a way liike that. baby i trust you with all my heart. i know that you wont do anything bad to me. im to special to you and i know you love me with everything you have. and baby im the exact same way. I love you soo freakin much and now that he told me that. i can live in peace now that i am sure about eveyrthing....i love you so much. its so clear to me now n i understand everything!!!

I love you so much baby thank you for everything ur are so good to me i cant wait to c u tomarrow plz call me then i love you!!!!!

Hey i know its been a while since ive updated but ive been so tired latley i havent really goten a chance to write. but anyways! lol everythings good wit me n muh baby.everytime i get an im from one of my friends there always like hey how are u and megan. n ill write them like a 4 paragraph im sayin how much i love her n how much i miss her n how we wanna grow old with eachother n everytime i get the best feeling inside because i get to hear all of them say they are so happy for me and they all want good things for me n meg becuz were perfect for eachother. Nd i believe every single bit of it because we are perfect for eachother n i honest to god dont know what i would do without her. shes my life and no matter what she will always come first no matter what. but other than that, everything else is goin pretty good. i have 2 more days of camp! i cant freakin believe it the first week went so slow but its already going on thursday..that is so freakin ausome its unbelievable. its not hard. and i got a scrimmage this friday nite. its gunna be ausome...the only thing that i want is for my scrimmage to be during the day....becuz at nite meg has her parent preview thing n i wanna go to that so freakin bad. thats the only problem with camp..other than that im like dead tired. i start school monday!!!! im pretty happy...but not all the way. i mean my summer has been freakin great... like i met the girl of my dreams right at the beginning of it...its been so good becuz every day i was with megan and i just dont want it to end. like as soon as school starts its gunna be harder to see her. cuz i got school, and then i got practice right after...but i know me and her can do it..i know we can baby i know everything will be ok i promise...even if i fall asleep with u in my arms from bein tired. i would rather do that then no see u at all...n i love you sooo freakin much baby! k well ima go watch tv n wait for megz to come home cuz shes at work! k lata

I love you so much baby!!!! soo freakin much  i cant live without u ur everything to me mwah mwah. i love you!!!!! You make me the happiest guy in the world! Baby ur the best i'll do anything for u. u know that i will! i love you!!!!

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