holy crap i havent updated this thing in a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooong ass time. lol wow. o well. im bored. at my friend anthony's house. he's at practice n im waitin for him to get back. then im goin back to my house n im just sittin there the rest of the night. fun stuff. nothin much really happened. me n meg went to the renissance fair last weekend. that was really fun. it was so great i got to be with her all day long. she quit her job so we'll have a little bit more time together not much though. so thats the only thing that sucks. idk i wanna talk to her so bad just to see how shes doin ya know? i cant talk to her for 2 straight days. literally i cant call her n shes not gettin online. friday she had a game. then her and her friend gretel went out afterwards. dont know were though. then today shes goin to a competition n then gettin home at like 11 n she decided shes gunna go out again lol so yea i cant talk to her at all... idk alot of things have been goin wrong latley. im kinda ok now its just i got alot on my mind. n baby i just want u to know right now...the past 2 days...yes i have had things pop into my head like what are u doin. but dezeo made me realize somethin....now this doesnt go for everything...but say u went to a club without me...as long as ur havin fun. its ok like ok this is what he told me. i went to that dance last night. n basically it was a giant rave and just a giant group of people all dancin together. n i really understand now....yes guys will look at you. but he told me if u do decide to dance with someone, it doesnt mean anything to u. like its hard to explain but he asked me: mark, when u were in that giant group of people and all those people came up to u and asked if u wanted to dance with everyone and you did, did you feel anything when u were dancing with them? did u feel like u had a thing for them? and i told him no i felt nothing like that. and he told me: mark you and megan are so close its unbelievable, and if your dancing with a group of people like that and u dont feeel anything special just the fact you are havin fun...dont u think meg would be the same way if she went dancing without you? and it made me think n i realize now.. ur doing it for fun. and if u want to go to a club, i wont mind. i really really do understand now. hes the only one who put it in a way liike that. baby i trust you with all my heart. i know that you wont do anything bad to me. im to special to you and i know you love me with everything you have. and baby im the exact same way. I love you soo freakin much and now that he told me that. i can live in peace now that i am sure about eveyrthing....i love you so much. its so clear to me now n i understand everything!!!

I love you so much baby thank you for everything ur are so good to me i cant wait to c u tomarrow plz call me then i love you!!!!!