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Saturday, September 10, 2005

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 14:25:03 GMT

holy crap i havent updated this thing in a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooong ass time. lol wow. o well. im bored. at my friend anthony's house. he's at practice n im waitin for him to get back. then im goin back to my house n im just sittin there the rest of the night. fun stuff. nothin much really happened. me n meg went to the renissance fair last weekend. that was really fun. it was so great i got to be with her all day long. she quit her job so we'll have a little bit more time together not much though. so thats the only thing that sucks. idk i wanna talk to her so bad just to see how shes doin ya know? i cant talk to her for 2 straight days. literally i cant call her n shes not gettin online. friday she had a game. then her and her friend gretel went out afterwards. dont know were though. then today shes goin to a competition n then gettin home at like 11 n she decided shes gunna go out again lol so yea i cant talk to her at all... idk alot of things have been goin wrong latley. im kinda ok now its just i got alot on my mind. n baby i just want u to know right now...the past 2 days...yes i have had things pop into my head like what are u doin. but dezeo made me realize somethin....now this doesnt go for everything...but say u went to a club without me...as long as ur havin fun. its ok like ok this is what he told me. i went to that dance last night. n basically it was a giant rave and just a giant group of people all dancin together. n i really understand now....yes guys will look at you. but he told me if u do decide to dance with someone, it doesnt mean anything to u. like its hard to explain but he asked me: mark, when u were in that giant group of people and all those people came up to u and asked if u wanted to dance with everyone and you did, did you feel anything when u were dancing with them? did u feel like u had a thing for them? and i told him no i felt nothing like that. and he told me: mark you and megan are so close its unbelievable, and if your dancing with a group of people like that and u dont feeel anything special just the fact you are havin fun...dont u think meg would be the same way if she went dancing without you? and it made me think n i realize now.. ur doing it for fun. and if u want to go to a club, i wont mind. i really really do understand now. hes the only one who put it in a way liike that. baby i trust you with all my heart. i know that you wont do anything bad to me. im to special to you and i know you love me with everything you have. and baby im the exact same way. I love you soo freakin much and now that he told me that. i can live in peace now that i am sure about eveyrthing....i love you so much. its so clear to me now n i understand everything!!!

I love you so much baby thank you for everything ur are so good to me i cant wait to c u tomarrow plz call me then i love you!!!!!

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 22:23:13 GMT

Hey i know its been a while since ive updated but ive been so tired latley i havent really goten a chance to write. but anyways! lol everythings good wit me n muh baby.everytime i get an im from one of my friends there always like hey how are u and megan. n ill write them like a 4 paragraph im sayin how much i love her n how much i miss her n how we wanna grow old with eachother n everytime i get the best feeling inside because i get to hear all of them say they are so happy for me and they all want good things for me n meg becuz were perfect for eachother. Nd i believe every single bit of it because we are perfect for eachother n i honest to god dont know what i would do without her. shes my life and no matter what she will always come first no matter what. but other than that, everything else is goin pretty good. i have 2 more days of camp! i cant freakin believe it the first week went so slow but its already going on thursday..that is so freakin ausome its unbelievable. its not hard. and i got a scrimmage this friday nite. its gunna be ausome...the only thing that i want is for my scrimmage to be during the day....becuz at nite meg has her parent preview thing n i wanna go to that so freakin bad. thats the only problem with camp..other than that im like dead tired. i start school monday!!!! im pretty happy...but not all the way. i mean my summer has been freakin great... like i met the girl of my dreams right at the beginning of it...its been so good becuz every day i was with megan and i just dont want it to end. like as soon as school starts its gunna be harder to see her. cuz i got school, and then i got practice right after...but i know me and her can do it..i know we can baby i know everything will be ok i promise...even if i fall asleep with u in my arms from bein tired. i would rather do that then no see u at all...n i love you sooo freakin much baby! k well ima go watch tv n wait for megz to come home cuz shes at work! k lata

I love you so much baby!!!! soo freakin much i cant live without u ur everything to me mwah mwah. i love you!!!!! You make me the happiest guy in the world! Baby ur the best i'll do anything for u. u know that i will! i love you!!!!

Leave em'

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 18:51:57 GMT

3rd dau of camp n still tryin to go strong. Its not that its like brutal brutal, its just its 2 practices in one day n it gets old after a while cuz u do the same thinge very day. but its cool. ill be fine. lol me n meg got done both are camps yesturday n went down in the basement n played a game n then mom made bry go upstairs cuz he was freakin staring at us while we sleeped. how gay is that. he just like sat there. it was so dumb i was like thinkin in my head bryan were going to freakin sleep we dont need u sittin there so that when we finally get comfortable u decide to say somethin to make us get up. god im tired of that. ill be ok though lol but yea then we got on the couch n me n meg like passed out. it was great even though meg was like a freakin oven with all her sunburn! lolz ull be fine baby dont worry! so yea n then today i cant see her cuz no one can pick her up or anything. bt tomarrow i get to be with her as soon as im done practice!!!! i cant wait baby girl! anyways rough times me n meg are both tense about stuff, for her:parents, sleep, bitches at practice me: practice, sleep, bryan bein with me n meg like 24/7 when shes here lol. Everything will be ok baby i promise u everything will be fine it takes a matter of time. Just as long as me n u are together forever!!!!!! mwah mwah mwah i love you so much soooooo freakin much all i wanna do is be with u! god i miss u im so glad im with u im the happiest man alive. Baby i realized somethin the other day, untill i met u, all i ever wanted to do was be somebody else like : i wanna be him cuz hes not as big as me, or i wanna be him cuz hes older than me or something. but when i met u n i started going out with u. i realized...i dont wanna be anyone else at all. it feels so good to be able to remind urself that if i was someone else, i wouldnt be able to be with the girl of my dreamz. baby ur the most beautiful girl in the world to me n i know u say u arent. but no matter what u are so geourgous. I love you so much megan .so much

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 14:15:21 GMT

Heyy this weekend was pretty good. Meg was with me almost everyday!!!! lol except thursday but i wanted to be with her cuz i start football camp tomarrow nd i didnt to be like lazy n all that cuz i miss her to much. so i got some of it outa my system. K well are anni was friday n we went to mcdonalds n then back to the house! she loves my presents! alot she told me alot that she loved'em so i was happy. N i love the presents she got me! i got 2 shirts and a blockbuster gift card! lol sooo yea n then saturday me n meg n ashley n jesse went to pennsburg to club embassy. n i had to sit there n watch a shitload of guys hit on n stuff to meg. black guy told her he would give her mardi graw beads for flashing him like i wasnt even there. all i did was stare at him cuz i know meg doesnt like fightin n stuff so i try n keep my cool around it all. but i cant help it if i get mad meg. any boyfriend is gunna get pissed off if he sees his baby girl get a shitload of attention from other guys who are asking if she can flash them. but im finei promise u that! mwah n then megz comin over tonight n were gunna hang out on my last nite of summer! camp starts tomarrow. i wanna go so bad but i dont lol its gunna be ausome though

Megan, i want u to know that i thought u were gorgeous last night, but it doesnt matter to me cuz ur Drop Dead gorgeous to me every single day of the week.

I love you soooooooooooooooo much megan i cant wait to be with u tonight its gunna be the best. I love you so much soooo fucking much. ur everything to me. n no matter what ashley says, no matter what u say ill NEVER get bored of u. n i know u say everyone does. but u know im madly inlove with u n i cant let u go if i do i dont know what ill do.i love you soo much mwah i miss you!

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 01:24:51 GMT

August 12, 2005

Mark and Megans 2nd anniversery

If you dont know for the past 2 months i have been with the most beautiful, amazing, sensitive, caring, and loving girl ever to be alive and the only thing i ever want is for me and her to spend the rest of are lives with eachother. I want you by my side and in my armz forever. I love you megan, With all my heart. If there are any flaws ever made in you and your beautiful face i would take a bullet to my head. And it must be really good because i havent taken a bullet to my head. Which means you have no problems, no flaws, baby what u are to me is perfect.

I love you so fucking much megan. I know you dont like cursing but i need you to know how much i care for you and so that i can express myself even more i need to curse cuz its just that much further in my feelings. I want you here in my armz forever. I love you so much n i miss you with all my heart. Happy anni baby girl.

Monday, August 08, 2005

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 22:11:55 GMT

Well ive had a very interesting weekend. Friday meg n tabby came over n slept over! n then we decided to sleep in the basement wich george didnt take very well lol he was pissed. N then saturday we went to dorney park with was like the best i got the hold day to be wit megz!!!!!!!! n then that nite we came home n watched like 5 minutes into signs n then decided to go to bed cuz we were to tired to watch movies. n we went to sleep n woke up n then i took meg to work!!!! lol then i came home n moped around cuz i missed her lol n then we had an issue but im not gunna talk about that. n i think everythings ok now. but enough of that

I love you baby sooooooooooooooooooo freakin much n im so glad ur happy with everything n i dont know if ur still mad at me but i really dont want u to be. I love you so much i really do ur the world to me. I love you n i miss you n ill see ya bright n early tomarrow! mwah ttyl i love you!

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 21:53:17 GMT

Last day of work is August 4th 2005! lol i cant wait...n the rest of the weekend is gunna be like the freakin best. tomarrow meg is comin over, n friday shes sleepn over with tabby,n saturday shes goin to the beach with me!,n saturday shes stayin at my house again! lol but sunday she has to go back to work....: ( o wellz ill have to deal. i love you megan u dont even know like i wanna be with u all the time n wen im not i wanna cry! i love you soooooooo freakin much!

Cant wait till the weekend ima go to bed soon so yeaaa i love you! mwah nite baby ill talk to u tomarrow! mwah mwah nite i love you miss you too!

Monday, August 01, 2005

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 00:01:38 GMT

Heyy ...Its my last week of work!!!!!!!! i start football next week!!!god damnit i cant wait! i gotta get to bed though. Im just doin somethin wit muh psp n then goin to bed. Meg came over today!!didnt get to see her yesturday so i was happy. I love you!!!!!! tomarrow she is comin over again too i cant wait for that either! i love you so much baby ur the world to me ive never been happier and i want u to know that i never ever ever want anything to change cuz i love u so much and i swear to god i wouldnt do anything to change that. I miss you already and everytime u leave the room or u go to the bathroom or get a drink or somethin i miss you so much i wanna cry...thats how strong my love is for u n i hope ur the same way!!!!! i love you

Mwah i love you baby ur the world to me i would trade anything just to have you. i do anything for u.mwah miss you i cant wait to c u!!!! i love you!!!!! mwah miss you 6*12*05 n still goin strong almost 2 month!!!!!

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 22:49:53 GMT

Well i know i havent written for a while...but thats cuz i normally write when megan writes so that we can commmentt eachother...but she dont do that to much cuz she likes to update in the morning. but anyway. i finished summerschool friday!! it was niiiice n now i get a full two weeks of work which are my last two weeks so i should be gettin about 600 dollars this paycheck which is sooo freakin sick. another thing that i just realized is that, since i dont have summerschool i get a full 40 hours a weeks. and wen i do that at work i normally fill up that week by thursday! that is so freakin ausome cuz i normally get like 39.5 hours by thursday which means friday i dont have to work. Omg i cant wait.this week was pretty good! ok ill start on friday,i got done work and came home and quick got a shower and went to dinner with muh baby girl,tabby,and rob was sapposed to come but he couldnt. so after that we went to megz house and went swimmin and rob showed up there. n we just went swimmin and relaxed. Then on saturday, i went to megz new work!!!! which is the collegeville pitstop...she works on weekends which kinda sucks. but its ok. but anyway, so yea i went there and got to meet the people she works with which is ausome cuz they all know me now and i can get like free stuff lol. so yea we just talked while she worked the cash register and then tabby and rob showed up. and me rob tabby bryan and megan went miniture golfin and then we drove the go carts. after that megz dad picked us all up and took us to megans house again lol. we swam for a lil bit while meg didnt want too cuz she didnt want to get her hair wet. and then we went inside and watched fast and the furious...lol meg dont like action movies so we just cuddled and layed there. then my parents picked me n rob up and rob slept over last night...we came home and just chilled in my room till we fell asleep. woke up around 10:30 and then cleaned the house and went back up to the pitstop! i road go carts and almost got in a fight cuz the one guy who works there tried gettin me in a fight cuz i had a pink shirt on. o god i wanted to just unload on him. but then i would get kicked out! so i didnt. and i went n talked to meg untill like 3L30 and went home. me n bry watched amovie untill six and then we went to pick her up! lolz that was nice she came back to the house with us and went to the basement and played ddr and watched two movies. meg was really tired from work. now she knows how i feel most of the time! lol so we layed there and took a nap and then george took her home and i started talkin to her online! but then she wanted to go to bed and so here i am! Sooo yea tomarrow i cant see her cuz i dont want my mom to get mad cuz ive seen her every day this weekend. so were gunna wait untill tuesday...idk how ima do it baby i love you soooo much. god i cant wait untill then and i cant wait till friday cuz ima take u out! Thats all for now. Late

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MEGAN! Your my everything! i cant wait to see u tuesday! god i miss you so freakin much. nite baby mwah. i miss you so much i love you!

Some people forget that love is
tucking you in and kissing you "Good night"
no matter how young or old you are

Some people don't remember that love is
listening and laughing and asking questions
no matter what your age

Few recognize that love is
commitment responsibility no fun at all
unless

Love is
You and me

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 23:15:11 GMT

Hey i just got back from megans house!!!! i have been there since about 5:00!!! it was great. i feel so good anymore...like shes the only person who makes me feel this way i never had that experience becuz im always with her and we love eachother so much we never wanna be apart. its soooo freakin good. Your all i think about baby i really hope u know that cuz ur always on my mind.

Tomarrow me muh baby rob and tabby are goin to applebeez double date. and then were goin megz and goin swimmin.

I love you baby soooooo much ur all i think about and i miss you with all my heart dont ever leave i never ever ever will leave u. Till eternity. mwah I love you baby miss you cant wait to see u tomarrow nite <3333333