Currently Reading The Memory Keeper's Daughter By Kim Edwards see related

haahahahahahha. I'm making a new entry. and as much as I want to bitch about my life and how "angry" I am.. I'm not going to. I'm going to smile. Even though everything's not okay. Maybe it will be if I try. So

=]

here are warped tour pics

i like to thank emily and the other peeps that carried me on their shoulders so i could take these pictures!

Currently Watching The Notebook (New Line Platinum Series) By Gena Rowlands, James Garner, Ryan Gosling, Rachel McAdams see related

Its kinda late but I'm bored... I should be really sleepy. My party pooped me out.

Let's start with Tuesday.

YA I had to wake up at 6 am (hah, on my effin birthday...) so I could get contacts! It took me 3 hours ... It takes forever to put in the first time! Seriously! Or I'm dumb cuz I drop it right before it can even touch my eye. Plus they're so floppy I have trouble determining which side is the right side up. Then I stopped by streets of tanasbourne since it was across the street then yadayadaya hung round the house yadayadaya desiree was the first one to come and then we were tap dancin leperchauns to Liszt's "Hungarian Rhapsody" lol. I got it on film... You had to be there.. uhh 2 hours later tessa came and then we went to pick up Cayla and then we met up with Julie and Allana and hung around went shopping then ate at Newport and then it was like really late and then there was a random shopping cart in the parking lot.. so common sense.. YOU SEE A SHOPPING CART, U JUMP IN! and ... that I did. they pushed me around a few times .. (and let go as I went in to the road so they could kill me lol) wait ignore that 'lol' hey that was scaaaaaarry! Then we just pushed it all the way around the mall then the security car came with flashing lights and desiree lost her scarf and we were all screaming cuz we thought we were in trouble lol and we got out of there and went swimming. We played chicken , went to the sauna (it was really hooot... blah) and the hot tub. And ya we got back up around midnight and watched Team America (which was hilarious) tahahah dick pussy asshole thats funny. And then julie allana and tessa fell asleep so cayla desiree and I watched the grudge (for like the billionth time for me) and then slowly fell asleep ( i fell asleep on the remote and had to suffer horrible back repercussions from that)

Wednesday - ate really early breakie, mall again (for like a long time and I stayed with tessa teh whole time) and then ya julie and allana and tessa got picked up then we were left with ze ASIANS! we drove back and cayla bothered the people on my buddylist and desiree and i tried to dye our hair with expired cool aid! HAHAHA since we were visiting st.cecilias and we would be like ELLO 7TH GRADERS, WE CAN WEAR SLUTTY OUTFITS AND HAVE PUNK HAIR CUZ WE DONT GO HERE ANYMORE AND THE RULES DONT APPLY TO US!  but the kool aid didn't work lol but ya it was funny when we visited, 5 mins in the building 3 teachers yelled at us and we dont even go to that school anymore still, its funny. we had to drive to pick up a pizza we ordered and then while waiting for the pizza we walked to the Albertsons across the street from the godfathers and we screwed around with that. then we drove back to my house, ate the pizza and jumped up and down to the ramones (it was kinda funny) and then desiree got picked up and we dropped off cayla and ya my life is boring!!!!! myspace is an addicting drug.

Currently Playing International Superhits! By Green Day GOOD RIDDANCE (our class song) see related

I haven't updated in a while ((not that anyone would notice))

It's cuz I've been on myspace (add me, I don't care how random you are) and my computers been weird and I haven't had much motivation to go online lately anyways.

MMM god I'm tired I just got back from Callie's party (laser tag fun fun) and I haven't been getting much sleep (hah can't u tell from all the fun acne that i didn't have before). Omg after school walking to the library with Cayla, Katie,Ashley, Peter and Annie I just randomly started crying at the thought of leaving St.C's. God I feel so fucking retarded. I couldn't help it. Then we talked about every single memory at the library and every single memory at school. Then lol they all realized that they had at least one bruise on their leg from me from last year when I had anger problems. lol. Every single one. Idk I thought that was funny. Sorry guys.  But anyways..

Holy shit this is too real. I can't believe it.. We're finally graduating. Yeah 8th grade graduation isn't as big as high school graduation but come ON! Pretty much the same 27 kids (some have left and some have joined us) ever since kindergarten (well 2nd grade since thats when I came in).. The same endless routine everyday.. Of course I'm ready to get the hell out of there! Even though I'm seeing like 17 out of the 27 in high school, it's going to be so different. SO many memories and friendships and inside jokes!! And they're gone just like that...

Somewhere [B e T w E e N] the ...
procrastination..the homework..the friendships
& the nasty cafeteria food.
the calls to old friends..the I miss yous
the what are we doing tonights?
somewhere [B e T w e e N] all of the..
changing & growing
& the skipping classes..the studying for tests
& the pretending to be studying for tests,
& the downright not studying for tests...
I forgot..I forgot what it meant to cry ..
I forgot that pretending to be happy doesnt make you happy
I forgot that pretending to be smart doesnt make you smart
& that pretending to be ok doesnt make you ok
I forgot that you cant just forget the past
in fear of the future &
I learned ..
i learned that its OKAY to mess up ..
& that its OKAY to ask for help ..
& that its OKAY to feel like crap ..
i learned its okay to complain & whine to all of your friends for a whole day ..
that somehow they`ll make it all better.
i learned that sometimes the things you want most you just CANT have ..
i learned the greatest thing about middle school ..
isn`t gonna be who is the most popular or going to the most parties .. not even the hook-ups.
its the friendships .. which means taking chances.
i learned that sometimes the things we
FORGiVE & FORGET are the things we most need to talk out ..
i learned that letters from friends are the most important thing ...
& that sending cards to your friends make you feel better.
but .. basically .. i learned that my classmates .. both close and distant .. are the most important people to me in the world .. <3

I'LL NEVER FORGET THE LESSONS LEARNED IN MY 7 YEARS AT ST.CECILIA'S! I'LL NEVER FORGET THE MEMORIES! I'LL NEVER FORGET THE LESSONS LEARNED (ACADEMICALLY AND SPIRITUALLY) I'LL NEVER FORGET THE AWFUL TEACHERS WE HAD TO BEAR! I'LL NEVER FORGET THE FIELD TRIPS WE ALL HAD TO SHARE (HOLY SHIT THAT ACCIDENTALLY RHYMED) AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, I'LL NEVER FORGET THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE HELPED ME THROUGH THESE YEARS EVERY SINGLE DAY!

HOME AT LAST!!!! yaaaaaaaay yayayayayayayyyyyyayyyyyyy!!!

Ok I guess camp was fun in ways. Its just different without toilets... and showers..

So heres a shit load of pictures and a long story for those who are extremely bored! Ok lets start from the beginning! (THE PICTURES GOT BLURRY WHEN I UPLOADED THEM TO THE COMPUTER, THEY'RE ACTUALLY ORIGINALLY CLEAR SO DONT BLAME ME)

Monday -  First got to school and forgot my spanish big ass project ((wow thats about 40% of my spanish grade)) .. hehehe oh wellll!! Then we all loaded the bus! Desiree and I sat in the very very back and Tessa and Cayla sat in front of us. We listened to music, read magazines, and took pictures of random shit..

Heres andrew reading Vogue.. he didn't know Cayla took the picture.

Julie, Allana, and Megan of course.

Desiree and a Jojo poster we found

Tony got shaving cream all over Peter. What? it's amusing to me.

OH AND I DREW A PICTURE OF THE ASIAN FAMILY!! (I didn't say it was good)

It was like a 4 hour ride. Then we got there and settled in I guess ((I brought 4 bags.. they were heavy.. )) Then we walked around the place and stuff. Then we got back. They had some good turkey stuff. Then holy shit I dont remember anything that happened after that so uhh moving on to the next day!

 Desiree's eyes are closed..

 Desiree blinks too much.

At last! Desiree has open eyes! And I? Retarded smile.

Oh and we had girl talk allll night. Fun shiznit . I was in the columbine cabin  (yea I thought of the shootings when I heard that name too)with Cayla , Tessa, and Annie. ( I had top bunk and I was right next to the window and the tree had like a man being hung on it. Well thats what I saw.

Tuesday - Woke up early.. we didn't get much sleep. our class got split in half for the field study stuff! It sucks big hairy ass monkey balls! I DIDN'T HAVE N E BESTEST friends IN MY GROUP! (uhh no offense) but come on!!!  There was allana, peter, chris, andrew, brandon, ashley, shannon, jordan, ian, milena, annie, and martie.

Peter sprayed my travel sized phoenix in the car so Mrs.Galmiche took THAT away...  Everyone didn't get enough sleep and we were all falling asleep on each other in the car.. Like literally.

Well anyways we went to this one place. They had a toilet there. Then we went to the caves. It was dark and I hit my head three times when we had to crawl for like 20 mins there and back. It was cool though I guess. Maybe if Ashley and Shannon would stop screaming every 10 seconds.. But anyways then we went back and I dont remember the rest! And.. I have never seen so many cute squirrels in my life.

(I have a billion more pics of the, just ask if u want) I saw at least 20 within one day! Then we went to the cave which was cool!

We walked like a mile though then we had to craw the rest of the way (The thingy was about as high as my shoulder and I hit my head a lot on the little thingys)

Then we got back and stuff and the other group was doing the challenge thing and then during rec time we all jump roped.

Then campfire, and sleep. Oooh fire is pretty.

Well. not really .I was a little high. I made up a song!!! WANNA HEAR? It's in the tune of hello mother hello father.
"HELLO HEATER!!
HELLO WEINER!
THESE THINGS DO NOT MIX!
UNLESS YOU'RE (NAME OF PERSON WHICH I CAN'T PUT RIGHT NOW BUT IF I TELL YOU YOU WOULD BE PISSING UR PANTS LAUGHING)"

Wednesday ~ Well today was the day the class could go together to climb smith rock. Oh it was hell. 4 miles. Well I was just really sleepy, it wasn't really exhausting though except when you were like a million feet in the air and theres like a narrow path and people tripping each other.

Then we got up there and met with the other group and ate lunch on top and Chris Allana and I did some research since it was our research group. and Andrew and Peter taught me how to skip rocks!! I've always wanted to do that. Mr.Kose (aka Kandy man with a K) skipped his across the river! I only had 3 skips but hey its better then none!! Then Mr.Kose caught a SNAKE! It was soo awesome! We all touched it. I love snakes! yayaayay!!

Then we got back and worked on the projects with my pretty crayons I accidentally brought and we presented and April was mean about it.... Hmph, we did great and she told us we incorrectly identified 2 plants even though they said it was okay if we did!! Oh well. Rec time. I couldn't hold my piss anymore so I went in the little outhouse thingy (which dind't flush and was literallly just a hole with crap around it and went 10 feet down where u could see other peoples shit and piss and god i dunno.) Then to get rid of the smell, the girls would just hold the baby powder to their noses and I tried to squat over the thingy and I lost my balance, fell, and squeezed the baby powder which went all over me and all over the place and I screamed on top of my lungs. I walk out and all the girls see me covered in baby powder mostly and shit. It was funny. Then some other stuff I dont remember then at campfire. Cayla played GOOD RIDDANCE on the guitar and we all sang along and we had smores.

some dude was walking around the campus and Ashley, Cayla, Shannon, and Erin I think saw him and they made a biiiiiig deal out of it and they were sobbing all night cuz they were scared shitless and like i dunno I wasn't there but I think tehy overreacted.... I mean, it IS public property and campers cut through there and to be crying and screaming to see the guy again (which they did cuz we had to fetch the guy just to prove he wasn't a murder) is overracting. Julie and I were trying not to laugh at them cuz they were seriously scared shitless.Then we went to bed really late.

Thursday - Went to the stream. I only caught one bug. fun fun. there was a spider in my bag when i opened it and I freaked out and dropped it and started hyperventilating and freaking out. Chris carried the bag the rest of the way since I refused to touch it. Then we went to team challenge! wowwwww our class really got at each others throats. It was ridiculous! Yelling screaming fighting , and we never finished it. Its amazing ! Family , my ass!! Then rec time (all the girls just tried on their baithing suits) Desiree found it funny to see me banging my had against the walls yelling twinkle twinkle little star. THen Julie came in to the cabin to ask for somethign sharp and.. uh.. I'd rather not finish this. But it was the funniest thing ever. Then SWIMMING!! holy crap it was fun. We watched the guys go off the high dive and then I did too.. the First time... -- MY TOP DIDNT POP OFF! WHAT A MIRACLE! I got so excited that it didn't I went in line to go again..
Second time...-- MY TOP CAME OFF, MY BAITHING SUIT WENT UP MY ASS, AND IN THE MIDDLE OF ME FALLING I EFFIN LANDED FLAT ON MY SIDE AND MADE A BELLY FLOP NOISE THINGY! ouch. I have a big ass red mark on my leg, and side and it still burns . But it wasn't as bad as jake! damn. Then I vowed not to do that again and joined cayla in the spectator side of the pool. (i didn't have mhy glasses so i was asking whose that every 10 seconds) Then shower. Holy shit naked old ladies walking around ass naked in the open shower area. And miss floerke comes in when half the girls aren't done getting dressed and rushes us out. In the car Andrew sprayed tony's axe and Mrs.G , once again took her axe nazi role and took away his Orion! We must plan to get it back...  Then sleep.

Friday - outa thurr. bus ride was fine i guess. I watched Rugrats all grown up on Milenas video now thing or whatever. Good episode! Then Mrs.Galmiche effin took tonys axe and sprayed it just cuz she was curious. Mrs.Galmiche started laughign like a maniac and giggling like she was stoned and Ms.Floerke kept moaning OHHH ! OHHH! It was the weirdest thing EVER! Then we stopped at burger king and funny stuff happened.
me: im gonna get a fork to eat this pie.
*cayla whispering when i was gone*: shes so stupid she'd probably come back with a spoon.
*I came back with a spoon not knowing caylas comment*

then we made up pickup lines using star wars characters on the bag! holy shit its fucking disgusting so just scroll down if u dont wanna read this. and NO i am not a horny lesbian! it sounds extremely wrong but lol trust me its not like that. hahha its funny.
cayla: can i reveal your darth vader?
me: hahaha chew  on my bacca  first.
cayla: let me r2 your d2 first.
me: show me your jar , your other jar , and your binks.
me: then ill princess leia (sound it out)

there was more but im out right now. then desiree and I just took those retarded quizzes on all the girly magazines lol. then we got to school and then desiree and I wanted to say hi to Laura christine and some other 7th graders so we ran in to the classroom prertending to get something, waved, and left! More pics..

(Outside of my cabin!)

Idk how to explain it.

Chris's pot. naught naughty.. nah its just plants.

NOW IM HOME!! peace out !