And How You Kept Your Head So High....
I'll Never Know.
I Guess You Knew You Had A Better Place To Go

Now.....
You've Got A Room With A View
A Window To The World
You Always Had Your Sights Set High

And Now That You're Gone
Your Memory Lives On

And I See You Smiling In My Mind
With Angels As Visitors Dropping By
Your Room With A View

I'll Always Miss You
I'll Always Feel The Loss
I Have To Remind Myself
That You're Better Off

I Gotta Believe Even Through These Tears Of Mine
Wherever You Are There Is A Sun
That Always Shines

And.....
You've Got A Room With A View
A Window To The World

You Always Had Your Sights Set High
And Now That You're Gone
Your Memory Lives On

And I See You Smiling In My Mind

I Could Keep Pointing Fingers
I Could Stay Mad As Hell
Just Let My Anger Linger
But As Far As I Can Tell
It'll Be Alright

So I'll Think About How You Made Me Laugh
And Even How You Made Me Cry
Forget Who's To Blame
Just Remember Your Smiling Face
Well It's A Choice Ive Had To Make
So I'll Think About You That Way.

Seems Like I Paint You Now
In Colors Of Forgiveness
I Lost The Pain Somehow
And In It's Place There Is

This Part Of Me That Sees You In The Light
I Saw You In Before

So I'll Think Of You That Way......

wow what a day!! Waking up not feelings so wonderful... didnt ruin my day! Its the first day of the New Year! 2006! woo hoo. We planted Aarons Tree today out at the Cross... it was awesome! Im so glad most everyone made it out there to help. Props to the guys who dug the big hole and put the tree in! and Props to the girls who watered it! I just  hope that as time goes by we Keep the tree alive and well. Just as it took effort to plant it there's still that needed effort to make sure it grows!! Im sure Aaron was looking down proud!

Along with doing that today.... i enjoyed spending time with the Hicks and everyone I havent seen in a million days it seems!! I loved spending time with everyone and Im really blessed to know everyone. Im really thankful these days for my friends and the wonderful people i know and love with all my heart!!

Tonight i found things a little rough..... I miss Aaron soo much. I still am trying to comprehend the fact that someone so wonderful can be taken away so easily. Sometimes i feel its as if im just waiting for someone else to just leave my life. I know its not any positive way to look at things but sometimes the thought is there.

I hope 2006 will be better than the last year.... i am thankful for last year even though i went through some very hard times. But in some way Ive grown up and grown from it all. I definately look at things so much differently.... and i owe it all to Aaron and his family... as well as my friends.

I cant say enough how much i wish aaron was here physicaly but as each day passes im learning to deal with that change.... and the way its effected my  life. I wish nothing but the best for everyone and that we all make the right choices.... there will of course be those times when we dont... but i hope its not a ever lasting decision that changes us all.

welll.... Merry Chirstmas and all that good stuff to all of you! Hope you had a wonderful christmas and got some nice things! I had a good christmas this year.... but then it was weird cuz it didnt really feel like christmas... i duno why.

Everything this year seemed really rushed and everything with the shopping and what not.. i just felt like there wasnt much time for anything!! But i managed to get all the shopping and everything in.

New years Eve is coming up! I hope everyone has a wonderful night! Being safe of course!! And Responsible! I miss everyone... even my bestest friends! Cause i still dont get to spend enough time with them.... It'll be 2006!! and 5 months till we all graduate! Crazy huh??? I just dont feel like the time could go by faster!! Its a-mazing... 

well i hope the best for everyone! and hope you can stick with a new years resolution! haha cause i havent been able to keep up with mine these past couple of years... its kinda hard. But this year i have a good resolution and i really want to stick with it! lol

well take care! Love ya bunches
*erika*

So0o0oo its official I'm Still ALIVE! lol

Ummmm Ive been on house arrest for awhile now.... things got real real crazy and horrible at the same time around my house. If you dont know the story... wow your in for a treat. lol But I dont feel like explaining right now soooo just ask if you wanna know what happened. Ive basicaly been shut off from the world and everyone who makes me happy!!
But now that all that crazy-ness is over... hopefully things will start becoming a lot more better between me and my mom. Cause i cant argue with her anymore.... even if she is being ridiculous about the smallest things! Cause it all comes down to one thing.... I need my mom because Im cant provide or support myself with the job that I have. I cant afford to move out or pay for my car and all those other things. Yes I may be 18 but it is so unrealistic to even think about leaving this house when i still need to go through college. lol

Sooooo christmas is just around the corner! This sunday! And i hope everyone has a wonderful christmas and gets what they wanted! And just enjoy the time with your families while your intown from college or what not!! Cause its CHRISTMAS! its a wonderful time.

I still have a lot of christmas shopping that I need to get done... for my family! I should prolly get started haha Cause ummmmm its clearly guna be packed in the malls with all the Last minute shopping!! so i hope everyone else has gotten all of theres done if not almost finished with it!! lol

The 9th just rolled right by.... i cant believe its already 8 months.... this time has been going by like crazy. I hope it snows this year... since i wont be going up north to be with all my family like last year.  Last year aaron did some snowman tackling haha  I missed out on all that fun. But go figure he was always doing something crazy right?? New Years definately wont be the same this year! I spent last new years with aaron and ryan and all them at a beach house. It was fun watching the guys be dumb dumbs lol That night ill  never forget me and aaron had a little game going on that whole night haha And we just ended up getting mad at each other. It makes me laugh now that i think about it..... When i remember new years it just sit and laugh cause i member aaron dancing and all the guys singing and having a good old time like always. Not to mention it was freezing outside!! haha!

Oh wow ive got some stories!!!

We were out on the beach house balcony and aaron was sitting on the railing like a dumb-dumb! And i was standing out there talking to him... and i was like aaron you should prolly get down so you dont fall! and his truck was right bellow him. He was like erika im not guna fall.... haha so typical aaron. And i go i just had this horrible image of you falling and landing on the hood of your truck!! and hes all laughing it up! So i wrapped my arms around his leg cause he wasnt guna get down! lol Well sure enough one of the post of the railing broke that aaron had his foot around and he lost his balance and he grabbed on to part of the roof and of course i had his leg! haha So you know me!!! I go AARON  I SO CALLED THAT!!! And he was all like no im cool i wasnt guna fall... i go yeah good thing i grabed on to your leg! haha and end of story was he got down. and i didnt get back up there the rest of the night. Crazy Crazy aaron.... i miss him so much! I have a lot of awesome memorys from that night with aaron that just make me laugh... and then some that i regret. But i dont regret going cause atleast i got to spend it with him and everyone else.

Then there was the time when everyone wanted caleb to go get his guitar out of aarons truck and play his famous songs. lol I dont member exactly how it happened... but Aarons keys got locked in his truck!! and Caleb never ended up getting his guitar out. So Sure enough they came up there and was like Aaron your keys are locked in your truck! And you know he got pissed! Soooo the thought of just busting out his window crossed his mind!! hahah  lol Well next morning they were still in his truck sitting on his passenger seat... So you know Aaron with his Bright Ideas! So he stuck a hanger in through the window and pressed the unlock button on his clicker and all problems were solved haha. He was just like i should have thought about that last night. lol SO it all worked out and all was well. haha

i miss those fun times... i miss all those memories.. it drives me insane.... because i wont get to have anymore of those adventures with him. hahah But i cherish the little moments i did have and thank god hes in peace. And i know there will come a day when we'll be with him too.

Have a WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS!!! And a SAFE BUT HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

P.S. CONGRATS TO YOU HEATHER!! Im SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND BRAEDON! THAT IS WONDERFUL! Im glad you are happy and Hope the best for you two!!! Luv ya!

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Hiii-

anywayz sarah thinks i should start writing and stuff. So i suppose i will write. lol Hmmm since my birthday I duno.... its been kinda hectic. Between my classes and wanting to go to school. And then work! And then finding the motivation to actually do my school work after WORK! and making sure it is done! I duno.... I guess there is just one word for it all and I'm STRESSED! Not to mention my mom has been driving me insane lately.
But thats a parent for you. I know she wants the best for me... But sometimes she just doesnt stop and LISTEN to anything I have to say. Its like Why dont or cant she just sit down... "talk" with me... and be understanding to what I have to say and then go from there!???
I feel like somewhere lately shes forgotten how to be understanding...

But Oh well... anywayz.... Well I've been hanging out with Steph and Sarah and Matt and some other peoples lately. I like seeing my strangers!! lol Everyones got their things that keep them busy.
And on Thursday night i went to Snos and we made a TERRIFICLY-AWESOME/ THE BESTEST GINGER BREAD HOUSE EVER! lol
And then Matt of course came over and gave  his sarcastic remark of "wow it looks nice" haha
We worked really hard on that thing! and That icing was definately the worst part! it was everywhere!! all over our hands and ummm yeah we did a couple of no no's in the beginning and had to kinda find out own way to put the icing on our HOUSE! So we decided our fingers were the best choice! lol What little kids we are. lol
It was fun and turned out CUTE! even though it started out to be a complete disaster! But thats the whole reason of why i bought the ginger bread thing because I knew me and sarah and sno would have fun getting that thing together haha.

Well besides all of that... I still miss aaron... and its his favorite Season!!! Christmas Time. Isnt weird how i cant think of a single thing that I truely want??? Yeah.... Well anywayz... Hope everyone is doing good! Luv Ya