the truth has arisen....the reason she hasn't called me was that her parents kept her locked up in her room with no way to get to work...well we got this figured out...when i move back down to augusta next weekend...i'm going to get her out of that house...i'm going to get a job and attend college at augusta tech and make her life easier....she will continue to work at the same place she's been working...we'll just find a good friend that we can pay to take her back and forth from work...cuz her parents aren't going to let her keep the car....after she payed soo much for it...and they still owe like 3000....they can't afford it.....so some way or another they are going to have to give her the car....if not....i'll have to put her on my insurance and teach her how to drive my car....lol that'll be fun....teaching her how to drive a stick....fun fun fun....i might even join the military...it's not what i want to do...but if it means taking care of her...then i'll do what it takes.

i give up...there is nothing i can do anymore. i have become a lost soul...i hate all that is me...because i am the reason she isn't with me....i am the reason that i hurt...there is no other explanation for it...yesterday at around 2:30 pm...the love of my life seperated from me....i am no longer whole and i feel like shit....if it weren't for me...her life up until now would have been a lot better...her family wouldn't have treated her the way they have... maybe now she can find a boyfriend that her parents won't have a problem with....i thought i'd let ya'll kno that the one known as shifty has seperated from darryle and has died...shifty has died and the only one left is darryle...without shifty...darryle is nothing but a depressed soul waitin for life on this pathetic little planet to shrivel up and disappear... their is only one person that can revive shifty and that is Gladymar Rosario...but i don't think she loves darryle enough to do so....but the only way for way for me to post in xanga ever again is for that special someone to come and put love back in my life...

.........................................................................................................goodbye

just to clarify this entry isn't about gladymar...altho i do love her with all my heart and soul....but this is an entry cuz i'm mad at class.....

i'm sittin in class right now...and i finally figured out how to get this program that we have been workin on for 4 days....now i don't think anyone in here likes me cuz i'm like smart and shit...i didn't mean to boast when i said i was done...i was just happy and how you say....over-joyed that i'm finished with this shit. now all i gotta do is submit and get out of here....but he might want us to do something else...so oh well...i think i'm gettin out of class early today...lol...now it's time to look up augusta tech...i'm going to x-fer there...i would be playin some solitaire right now but this computer doesn't have it cause the school issued it to us and they didn't want us to have any type of gamin on it so we wouldn't be encouraged to dilly-dally or waste our time in class...well what the fuck else am i suppose to do when i'm finished with my work for the day and i have 3 hours left in class....i'm so fucking bored right now...and i really think everyone hates me for being smart....that's y i didn't do my work in high school...so people would hate me for being the first one done....this shit is gay...l8r

been a while...well i think it's time for me to come out of my box cuz things just decided to turn from alright to HELL...and i've gone from happy to depressed...i can't even eat a bowl of ramen right now because i'm so sick to my stomach...but i kno i don't feel as bad as my fiance does...cause everything in her world but me is going wrong...no in her family trusts her because of me...don't believe anything she says because of me....like they will say the stupidest shit and call her a liar if she deny's it....like her mom and dad accused me and her of having sex at her job....HOW THE FUCK CAN YOU HAVE SEX IN A SHOE STORE WITH CAMERS....think about it....and the only reason she said that was because they didn't see us in the store from the car....if they would have moved the fuckin car up like 2 more feet they would have seen me sitting in a fucking chair and her standing up in front of me...but they want to say stupid shit....that pissed me off but i got over it.. sunday while i was at her house, 2 of her sisters came home and brought over friends, and i left 15 minutes afterwards(only because i'm suppose to be out of the house by 11:00pm) as soon as i left, her sisters friends started talkin shit like..."just by looking at him, i can tell he doesn't love you".....HOW CAN YOU TELL IF SOMEONE DOESN'T LOVE THE OTHER PERSON FROM LOOKING AT THEM FOR 15 MINUTES WHEN THEY ARE SITTING ON THE FUCKING COUCH WATCHING TV...ALL HUGGED AND CUDDLED UP....THAT'S FUCKING REDICULOUS....sometimes i think they are just fucking jealous because of how much we actually love each other and they wish they had what we had....i really just wanted them to jump in a fucking whole for thinking shit....but if that doesn't finish it...they say that she stopped going to church because of me....that's not so....she has to go to work every fucking day of her human life except thursday because that's her day off....her only day to really rest...every other day...she has to go to work from 12pm-8pm...and the gay thing about it is....she doesn't even get to work for her money....she is working for her fucking parents....she pays almost $700 a fucking month for a car and car insurance....and she only makes like 200 a week. whatever she does have left over, she has to put in her car for gas and what's left from that is food...and that isn't all...her lazy, spoiled, no-good bitch of a sister gets to do whateva the fuck she wants...and all she has to do is say she wants tio go somewhere and my girl has to let her sister borrow her fucking car and let her go and drive wherever she wants...and my girl is the only one that puts gas in that fucking tank...it's fucking rediculous...she's overpaying for a fucking car as it is anyways...our cars are the same year...1994 and mine is in better condtion than hers and she is paying $2000 more for hers than i did. gay isn't it...now when i do come down to augusta, i get to see her at her workplace and at her house...but i don't think that shit is possible anymore cuz of the shit that just occured in our lives. if you have racist views then don't answer this question, if you were a puerto-rican family and your daughter was in love with a black guy, would you dis-own her for not leaving him? now her sisters are starting to say that i don't love her. for the whole time i've been going out with gladymar, i've been trying to figure out why her parents/family doesn't like me. They only possible thing i find is racism...they've known me for a fucking year and 3 months now...that's a long time to know somebody...or at least kno that your daughter goes out with a guy...and they let her sister go anywhere she wants with a guy after only knowing him for a 1 day...and now they've known him for 3 month....i'm done typing...i'm going to look for different shit..