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&& it STILL sucks!! 
So last nite I broke down. I've been puttin on this lil happy face for so long that I c ouldnt take it anymore. I don't even know why i broke down lyk that. I just hate who I am. I hate how i treat ppl and how i look and how i act. I hate the things i do and the things i say. I just really do hate myself and my mom was lyk "well you can change it" and shes right, i guess i could change SOME of the things. and now, to make it worse, i didnt go to school today cause right when i got up, i started crying again and all i wanted to do was go back to sleep so that i didnt have to think about everything. So i went to sleep and nobody woke me up so i missed school and that means that i lost credit for ALL my classes this semester cause i've already missed a lot of days and that just makes it worse, to know that i fucked up AGAIN. and idk....I just dont kno what to do...I hate it really, i hate everything.
Its 7 months today, so thats ONE good thing. and my baby's birthday is tomorrow so thats good but i dont have any money to get his present and i feel lyk shit for that. & Britt cant go to homecoming with me and i dont have anyone else to go with so that means that I cant go to homecoming so that sucks too. Im gonna be lyk, the ONLY one thats not there...I was really lookin forward to gettin a dress and gettin dressed up but THATS not gonna happen. I just wanna give up really.
But enough with all the sad stuff... i kno yall dont wanna hear it, so im out! bye guys.
-x0x Courtney x0x-
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| I HaTe mY LiFe!
Yall really have NO idea how bad it SUCKS right now...
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My LoVeS!...
What has everybody been up too? I've been doin the same stuff! Just a different day..go to school, come home, go out for a lil while, come back, talk on the fone, && then go to sleep! Just to wake up and do it all over again the next day! But on the weekends...haha. Thats a different story. So anyway...
Last nite I went..a WHOLE bunch of places! haha umm...i watched a freakin group off ppl fight..but it was so fast that it wasnt even a good fight! noo i dont lyk fightin anyway..but yea...we rode around and went to ppls houses to visit! Then we went to Garys party...we stayed for a lil while...but yea...it was fun!! after that I just went home at lyk 4 haha && went to sleep!! but i guess im gonna go!! Im gonna go get somethin to eat!! haha! <33 yall!!
-x0x Courtney x0x- |
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| Ok...Callie took my place k?! for anyone that wants to kno! lol..no i DONT go out with Jake anymore. Congrats Callie!
Things have been weird lately...I dont really kno how else to describe it. A lot of stuffs been happening && i just dont kno. Im gonna try to update this thing more. && for those of you that actually read it, sorry i haven't been! It just...idk but im gonna go!
-x0x Courtney x0x- |
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| Oh mY gOoDnEsS!...
Where do I start?! ok well I go out with Jacob! Which is good! haha...Things have been...ok i guess. I really need to meet up with my Britt tho cause i need to talk to her about some stuff! but yea..i've just been thinkin about some stuff and omgsh im SO freakin sick! i sound lyk a man! eww i hate it! its so damn annoying! but yea...ohhh its my birthday! haha i forgot! I didnt go to school today cause lyk..i stayed out kinda till 1 last night and i have to get up at 6...which Courtney needs a FULL 7 hours of sleep...at least haha so i woke up at 7:30 by my mom tellin me Happy Birthday and i said thanks and went back to sleep! hah....yea well she didnt care so neither did i! i skipped yesterday tho...yesterday was deff. NOT a good day for me! and plz dont ask me about it cause im most likely not gonna tell you! but yea...i dont need to stay outa school anymore! im so bored right now! haha thats why im updating in this..cause EVERYBODY keeps tellin me to! haha...it just gets kinda old ya kno?! but anyway...ohh yay! im gettin my hair highlighted!! i cant wait! cause i've been wantin to do it for SO long and i finally have an appointment! so yea....ummm i dont think i have anything else to say right now! haha but if i do then ill deff. edit this thing! But i hope everybody elses life is goin great and i hope i get lots of c0mments tellin me HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! ahhh yes yes its great! haha bye guys!!
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