Currently Gaming Tekken: Dark Resurrection By Namco Bandai see related

Time To Move Along.

Hmmm February and time to update I guess. I recently Got my hair cut into a Devil-lock When I get a picture of it I'll post it up here.I now have my Firts FORMAL Job. I work at Outback Steakhouse, nothing big but we gotta start somewhere right? I haven't really done too much lately.Either that or I have a terrible memory. xD Maybe it's all the booze.I shall no longer be living at my current residence of (parents house) 654 apt #4 poinsettia ave. My family and I are moving to this place over on lantana. It looks like a house instead of an apartment, So I guess it's ok. Jen and I no longer speak to each other. If you want to know why we'll keep it simple and say that she's a woman, and can't be reasoned with. None of them can. But shit happens.I spend entirely too much time on myspace whenever I'm near a computer, but then again what else are computers for other than games,e-mail,AIM, and porn? Oi, I haven't had a drink in almost 2 weeks and it sucks.And worse yet I haven't been laid in nearly 10 months! -_- I swear to god the next beautiful girl that turns me down for sex, i'm going to strangle...and not with my hands either. Not a whole else lot going on for me right now. Oh unless you count me Withdrawing myself from highschool.XD YES! I AM FREE FROM THAT HELL HOLE KNOWN AS LARGO HIGH! XD *does the happy dance* Now I am trying to work and go to SPC. Got to gets me hands on mah GED NIGGA!

Well I'm bored  so time for me to leave and to tell you to piss off when your done reading this.

Oi, New month, New Year. Time for the Usual Update. If anyone out there actually gives a shit.

But uh, Yeah so I spent some more time with Jen, Still getting to know her,though she still doesn't trust me.Don't know why though. But the last time We spoke face to face I think we connected pretty well. She told me something she said she's never told anyone else, and that there was still  2/3 of the story left.And I'd be more than happy to sit  next to her and listen to every word.BGL had their lock-in on December 30th. It was fun overall, even though this place is still lacking a lot of games now cause Val sold the place and some games in it.It was fun for the most part but I was looking forward to seeing Jen that night and Having her stay with me at my house.But somehow I knew that wouldn't happen and yet, it bothered me anyways.Don't know whyUMM...OH SHIT I forgot, almost anyways. I went to my friend Mike P's birthday party and DAMN! that was a fucking party. I drank so much clear and dark liquor that night, well we all did. I'm surprised that no one succumbed to alcohol poisoning. But I'm glad no one did. That party was awesome, Drunken DDR, Drunken SoulCalibur 2. Best of all I STILL WON, even drunk so eat the cum bitches, eat it and swallow. I was hung over for two days after that party but luckily mike let me stay at his house and shrug it off. New years was ok I guess, I spent it for the most part alone until I decided to Give Steven a call and he invited me over there. But that wasn't until like 11 p.m. But It was Steven,Kari(His girlfriend and good friend of mine)KT(Kari's sister) Myself,Justin,Nicole(Justin's girlfriend) and Dave. It was nice, we lit fireworks and Had eggnog and such. Nothing un-usual.I've been playing Need for speed Most wanted lately and even though that game is repetitive as hell, it's all worth it. Cause just recently I bought myself a Dodge Viper. My dream car (WHICH someday I WILL be owning and having you all envy me) Um, Oh I talked to kelly, had her bitch me out and had her accuse me of having a small dick because her pussy is so loose she couldn't really feel it.Hey it's not my fault fucking Kelly was like throwing a hot-dog down a hallway. But she did give good head though xD . I spend entirely too much time on myspace now, but really there's nothing else to do. I frequent 2 forums and one is down right now and the other is getting slow,Due to a lack of members. Well Today is my mothers birthday and tomarrow is Jen's birthday. Bad thing is tomarrow is also like 10 other people that I know's birthday. and I have like $20 to my name. So I think I'll just have to give them all birthday cards,cause I can't afford anything else.But luckily I was smart and Got jen her birthday Present Early, WAY early. But I do want to get her something else. Oh which reminds me. Jen and I have a small bet going that she says it's impossible for her to get drunk.Now you all know I am one hell of a drinker,and can hold my liquor quite well. And I drink quickly also. I try to hit 4 shots in about 5-10 minutes if possible, which it usually is. So Jen is quite or going to be smashed. Cause she said the first time she was ever drunk was a little while ago and she drank 12 shots in 30 minutes. So I thought, wow. Pansy.

So anyways people, I bid you Adue.

New month, time for another entry.

Well Last month, was.....very mixed. I spent a lot of time with Jen I got to know her better.Her and Dave came to visit me over the break, That day...Was great.She came over, her and I wrestled (Seriously wrestled, Ask dave if you don't believe me.) We talked, then we went to the park for a little while where she proceeded to tease me beyond anything I had even been teased with before.And Dave and I sat back and drank soda and ate chips and watched her prance around and be energetic. Then afterwards we all went to the beach, where she sang for me (Unknowingly) and I watched her prance around in the waves.I don't know why but I was so happy to be spending that night with her. And before she left, I got to kiss her.....God...It was great.I felt like I was ten years old again and kissing a girl for the first time.Then the next day she came over and sexually teased me beyond the brink of insanity, And when I say that I mean..here I'll tell you exactly what happend. She strattled me and then began to ask me questions like, "Would you fuck me if you had the chance?" (You shouldn't even have to ask what I said, if you do your a moron.)and things like "Do you wanna fuck me?" or "If I gave you my entire body tonight would you take it?" And my arm started to shake and I started Kissing her chest. (No lie) NO WE DID NOT I REPEAT FOR YOU MORONS DID NOT have sex.and Luckily I answered with something smart. I said "I'd love to, but I couldn't do that unless you wanted to completely.....BUT I'D DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO MAKE SURE YOU WANTED TO! Afterwards, we went on a walk and we get to BGL ( Here is where things start to mix ) I made the mistake of introducing her to Doughboy (Alan) and from there on in the rest of the fucking night I was ignored. She flirted with him right in front of me!*shakes head* She got mad at me whenever I said anything that night, And I didn't know why.On thanksgiving day I had already had quite a few drinks of "Liquid Courage" so I called her, but I got her message system, so I left her one saying, "Hey Jen, it's me Griffen, I was just calling to tell you happy thanksgiving and I miss you. Bye beautiful." So she calls me back like 5 mins. later. And we started talking. She asked me why I hadn't called her in a while. I said "Well I got the feeling that you didn't want to talk to me."  but we had to cut the conversation short cause someone else needed to use the phone.But the worst is here. Monday at the library she IM'ed me on AIM and we started talking like nothing out the ordinary and We got to finish our phone conversation.And then it happened. She told me She liked Alan more than me. and that it didn't matter anyways cause, well I'll put it in her words.  This is the conversation. "Me: I thought you didn't want to talk to me, that and it seemed like you liked Alan more anyways. Her: Oh, I did and we hung out the other day but he started treating me like garbage so I moved on. But it doesn't matter now anyways cause I have an Awesome boyfriend. Me: -_-

After that I put up an away message  locked the computer I was on, ran to the bathroom and  there, I proceeded to go ballistic. I screamed so loud that the entire library staff heard me and came running in and started asking me if I was hurt or something I simply replied "No, I'm just under a lot of emotional stress right now and need to be alone." I cried and  screamed for an hour. There I was mourning the loss of something that was never mine.....And from that day till yesterday I didn't speak a word. Totaling 3 days of not a single word. That's about all that's happened since the last update. I might as well change My Nickname from Griffen to Alone. Since I'm gonna be for the rest of my fucking life.

And you wanna know something that pisses me off? When people ask what's wrong and you tell them and then they say things like "Oh, STOP YOUR FUCKING WHINING!"  If you don't want to hear it, then don't ask you fucking JEW! or when people say "Oh be quite, there are people who have it worse than you do!" IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER? KNOWING THAT SOMEONE SOMEWHERE ELSE IN THE WORLD IS MORE MISERABLE THAN I AM? Fucking Idiots!

And even though Now I'm talking, I don't really have much of a desire to. I just don't understand why I'm so hurt.Cause i'm NOT in love with her. I would know if I am.

Yesterday I asked my friend Tyler if he would do me a favor and burn me a CD of the following songs.

NickelBack-Photograph

Stone Sour-Bother

Smile Empty Soul-With This Knife

Killswitch Engage- End of Heartache

Smile Empty Soul-Bottom of a Bottle

The Ataris-Boys of Summer

NickelBack-Feeling Way Too Damn Good

Limpbizkit-Behind Blue Eyes

Linkin Park-By Myself

Killswitch Engage-When Darkness Falls

Fuel-Million Miles

DJ Sammy-We're In Heaven

Everlast-What It's Like

3 Doors Down-Away From The Sun

The Exies-Ugly

and I told him to fill the rest of the CD with depressing Techno.

It sounds good. I'm happy with it, and the cover turned out badass.The CD is called Griffen:The Dark Light.

Everyone of these Songs, and everyone of these Lyrics sound like how I feel right now.Which Is emo I know....if you don't like reading this stuff, THEN FUCK OFF YOU STUPID JEW!

And now for a Quote that seems to ring true with me right now.

"What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying, is the person who made you cry in the first place?"