I don't know what to write about.  Amanda is going on a date tommorow.... that should be exciting.. I better get to meet him.. hope he isn't a psycho!!  Anyways... life has been strange.  Hanging out with Heather, Michael, and Jennifer.. that's a weird story.. ummm oh yeah and  Jordan drinking and dealing with drama.. and recently Amanda.. and Moogan... Me and Amanda didn't hang out because I ignored her.. .(she made me say it)... She didn't have a car and I didn't have a phone and she always missed me when she came by..anyways.. i have a phone now and she has a car and her cell phone back.  I think this is enough..because I don't really like writing in here..

To amanda's daddy:  You ain't bumpin like I'm bumpin

~* $a$ha *~

I just got a new computer so I will be able to update a lot more now.  There's not much to say right now.  I really need a job.  I can't seem to find one, and I dont really want one so thats probably why i havent found one.  I am really getting sick of having to live with my grandmother all she does is bitch.  Its getting really annoying.  Christmas is coming up and I have no idea what to buy anyone, and i have no money either.  this really sucks.

I woke up today.  Woke up right awake in an empty bed staring at an empty room.  I have myself to blame for the state im in today and im dying doesnt seem so cruel. 

hey guys...

It has been some time since i have actually written in here..

Umm so it has been an interesting 8 or 9 days.. well actually like 3 or 4 months but nothing has actually been done till now.. so umm yeah me n jordan arent together anymore and contrary to some ppl's beliefs it was not easy and it was very hard.. and contrary to even more ppl's beliefs it was not for someone else.. it was for all the shit i have had to go through and just finally got sick of ! The interesting twist to the whole story is that I have been hanging out with steven for the past 8 or 9 days.. which was really really strange at first because its been like a year since i have even seen or spoken to him( its normal now).. but he is obviously the reason that Jordan is so pissed off and wants to beat him up because the whole week jordan wasn't talking to me i was hanging out with him and Jordan broke up with me 1st i just never let him come back when he begged because it just wasn't sincere to me anymore.. the way he would talk really bad and mean to me and then be all no i love you just give me another chance .. i mean how can i believe that he is going to change if he is just constantly talkin shit and still at this very moment probably doing so.. and that does hurt because i did love him and i did try my hardest and i tryed to be as nice as possible throughout the whole things but there are just certain things id rather not write about that pushed me over the edge in the last few months and i just finally snapped.. some ppl are happy about it and some ppl arent but it doesnt matter what everyone else cares about its.. me.. so umm yeah anyways.. I have just come to the conclusion that there are only maybe a select couple of ppl that i even consider friends and ppl that i trust and there are a few ppl i thought were friends but thats what i get for trusting a girl.. so yeah fuck all girls cept amanda and megan and the maybe one or two others who haven't just completely fucked me over because that is just what girls are good at it and i say it all the time.. you just can't trust hardly any of them to be honest and loyal to you..  i have to say that name at least because she is the only one that will be there for me for EVERYTHING no matter what and i love her for that and i need her a lot right now.  Um anyways that's pretty much an update on my life right now... interesting huh.. welll umm yeah ill write later probably..

~! Sasha !~

We're going down, down in an earlier round

And sugar, we're going down swinging

I'll be your number one with a bullet

A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

renosucksbutt: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASHA!!! renosucksbutt: U SEXY LIL BIOTCH Lol

jeeplambolover : tell her happy b-day

SmarterChild: Well happy birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!  <-- from some dude named cameron that i dont really remember a lot lol

lol yep its my birthday and last night.. my cell phone the computer and amanda's cell phone all were like a min a part so she sang happy birthday 3 times.. and then she made a recording and played it a few times. she is sannnne!! Jordan called at 6:30 this morning.. Jordan M text messeged lol.. a lil confusion there..

and zak said happy 18 really big and he's a MONKEY!! ;) and manda told him i giggled.. I Dont Giggle !!

OMG ! yesterday i went on a field trip and i saw someone.. hes gorgeous  but im not telling you who it is! only if you

and now amanda said i better not have had birthday sex... who's this girl??

okay well yeah buh bye