I just got a new computer so I will be able to update a lot more now.  There's not much to say right now.  I really need a job.  I can't seem to find one, and I dont really want one so thats probably why i havent found one.  I am really getting sick of having to live with my grandmother all she does is bitch.  Its getting really annoying.  Christmas is coming up and I have no idea what to buy anyone, and i have no money either.  this really sucks.

I woke up today.  Woke up right awake in an empty bed staring at an empty room.  I have myself to blame for the state im in today and im dying doesnt seem so cruel.