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| oh xanga...i could never leave you.so freshman year has been over for a few weeks now. good times. no lie. it feels weird. i'll just say that if you think you feel old when you graduate high school...just wait until you are a sophomore in college. it gets really surreal. you actually have friends that graduate and go out into the real world...never to return to school again. you are being forced to grow up, and you realize that in three more short years that will be you...going out into the work force...never to return. dun dun dun!
anyway. so i've learned a lot in the last year. as much as i get along with my parents, being on my own has really let me be myself and get to know myself better...and let me know that i have a couple of medically diagnosed mental health problems. but whatever. who doesnt these days? i've learned that, as cliche as it is, that your true friends REALLY do like you for you. AND that there are many more different types of people than you thought there were. i'm not talking "culturally diverse" people, i'm talking like...normal americans. growing up in jones county seriously warped my mind. no lie. everyone isn't a close minded racist redneck?! surely you lie.
not to say i don't have friends from jones county. i have gamble, tiffy, sunny, and kristin. i think that about covers it. and in all honesty, the only one i ever really hang out with is gamble. probably because he also got out of jones county.
freshman year has also taught me that i have horrible money management skills. HORRIBLE. i mean they seriously suck. i've got to work on that. who am i kidding? i've been telling myself "i'll work on it" for like 10 months now. my poor parents. no...literally...i'm making them poor.
i'm such a jet setter these days. well...not really JET...more like car. i'm all over the south on road trips. not that it is any cheaper than actually owning a jet. it cost me FIFTY DOLLARS to fill up my car. i drive a f*cking mini cooper. thanks president bush. no...really...thanks a lot.
speaking of politics...presidential elections anyone?! presidential debate at ole miss?!?! my ass is totally going to get on CNN. oh whatever i'll stoop to fox news if i have to in order to get on national television. can i say that there isn't a presidential canidate that i particularly like? i mean i find flaws in all of them. eh. i guess everyone has flaws. possible "leaders of the free world" included. i encourage everyone to actually vote for a person and not a party. don't vote for mccain just because he's republican. or hillary or barack just because they are democrats. half of you dumb asses dont even know the issues and that really bothers me.
and i REALLY hate people who vote republican because its the "christian" thing to do. umm..the bible said turn the other cheek...love thy neighbor...all that good stuff. not wage war on your neighbor for the sake of oil. or even because of a terrorist attack. remember that "turn the other cheek" thing? yeah. he meant that. it is also God's job to judge...not yours. if someone deserves something...they'll get it. its not your job to inflict justice. kthanksbye.
well this has been a long rant. i don't know what made me want to get on xanga...but i'm glad i did. it is good to vent sometimes. holla.
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| SUCCESS! i remembered my xanga password.
me and k. sax are totally starting to xanga again(thats right i turned it into a verb) and we know you all still get those subscription digests. so enjoy reading them. mwuhaha.
oh, how things have changed since that last post. remember that cool roommate i got along with? yeahhh. we didnt get along. but thats ok. because if i dont like you im insufferable and he moved out. so now i have a single room WOO HOO!!
ole miss is AWESOOOME. its so nice to be away from effing laurel, MS. i've made so many new friends. actually...all of my friends are new. with the exception of jason and mary. but whatever. they are kinda new. i pretty much spend everyday of my life hanging out with kelle and tyler (who is a girl. the name thing gets confusing). if im not at their house, im at jason, mary, and hannah's house. or occasionally brett and brian's apartment. im random like that.
i dont really talk to anyone from l-town anymore. well...i talk to gamble, tiffy, sunny, and kristin. well, kristin is an odd one because we just became friends again. so we really havent gotten to hang out. we just text. haha. its nice when you can stop talking to everyone you dont give a flying fuck about from high school. haha. GOD high school seemed fun when i was there...but now...i dont know how i didnt kill myself. laurel, MS is full of nothing but retarded rednecks. i now see why i turned to drugs.
hmm this new xanga is confusing. i dont know how to work it. it angers me. i mean, apparently i can TAG people in my blog? way to rip off facebook, xanga.
for the last two saturdays in a row...i've gotten home like, after dawn. its been rediculous. i didnt even do that when i was on X. i need to cut down on the partying. wait...what am i saying? its college. i might as well party hard while i can. what can i say? memphis is fun. i have a lot of random memphis friends now, too.
i used to think i was crazy for partying on both friday and saturday nights. NOW i party on mondays, thursdays, fridays, and saturdays. and sometimes other days. ahh, alcoholism.
college has taught me that im actually pretty sociable. i mean...i make RANDOM ASS friends. i guess now when i think about it i did in high school too...i just didnt notice.
speaking of random...this post is the most random thing i've ever done in my entire life.
bonneroo this summer with gamble and kristin and random others?!?! im PUMPED to say the least. im going to be a hippie from here on out. i cant wait. i even had a dream about it last night. in the dream, i argued with gamble as to the location of the music festival.
new addiction=one tree hill. every tuesday night i watch it with tyler, kelle, liz, and occasionally whitney. for those of you who watch...IS NANNY CARRIE NOT THE BIGGEST SLUT BAG ON THE FACE OF THE PLANET?! sorry...i get emotional.
well ok. i guess im done with this. i've ranted on long enough. besides...im pretty hungry and cocoa krispies are callin' my name. holla. | | |
| hmmwow. today is my 630th day of xanga subscription. i got on here because kristin updated. thats idontremembermyuser name...as they know her on the streets. well on the streets of xanga.
im not even sure what that last entry was...it looks blank?
my picture on here is RETRO. like two years ago retro. whatev. simpler times.
so...graduated high school...going to ole miss in the fall...couldnt be more happy...awesome roommate im actually friends with...blah blah blah.
college is kinda scary, though, you know? well...not really. im pretty good at making new friends.
why the fuck am i even on this thing? i mean i DID say goodbye forever.
so much has changed. ive lost friends, made friends...but i guess thats life. i hope its all for the better. i dont guess im bitter anymore about any of it. people just change and sometimes its better for them not to be friends anymore.
torrey butler died. car wreck. so sad. i was at the beach so i didnt make it to the funeral. i feel so bad though gah. its so weird that i can never talk to him again. part of me thinks its all a joke and he'll text me laughing and still wanted me to get him a date with tiffany. i guess thats the denial part of the greiving process. i dont think i spell well. whatever. thats off the point. the point is that you never know when your life will end. that was always such a cliche until now. it was always an old person that died. or if they werent old they were at least an adult. but now that someone i went to school with all these years and talked to every morning of my senior year is gone for good it just doesnt seem so cliche anymore.
i think my xanga post reveal how ADD i am because i can change topics faster than a mofo without even realizing it.
in summary, life is good. with the exception of torrey dying. but you know...i hope he's in a better place. and im sure he wouldnt want anyone to be sad over his death. in fact i can picture him making fun of me for writing about this lol. im ready to move to oxford. laurel sucks. but like i said...life is still good, i suppose. holler.
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| sometimes i update. im bringing xanga back yo.
holla. *edit* i didnt bring xanga back. im just too damn lazy ok! goodbye forever. www.myspace.com/tchwj07 facebook me, also. | | |
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