Why do people have this built in need to cut down anyone that has a lot of confidence??? Ok, guilty. BUT I was just thinking today..... I started off my teaching career with so much confidence, and I feel like I've been fighting people (breaking me down and treating me like I'm stupid) ever since. I KNEW I wanted to be a teacher. There was no quitting option. Actually, I don't even think that I ever wanted to quit. Oddly enough, having people beat down on you can be extremely tiring. There's just nothing to counteract that.
I received word today about a math teacher in my building quitting. She teaches precalc. I wanted to step in and take time out of my day to teach that class because the students wanted me to. I receive an email from an administrator saying that he doesn't want me in that room and that a different teacher will be taking care of that class. I'm sorry, if my students from last year ask me to teach them because their teachers don't stick around long enough to teach them everything, should I just sit back and say, "I'm sorry, I can't do anything. You're going to fail." It makes me want to fight for them because of who is replacing the teacher. The replacement replaced another teacher last year and THOSE SAME STUDENTS were not successful in the English class. You think I'm going to let them go through that again??? Well, my administrator is keeping me from doing anything. I'm not happy about it.
I can just see myself breaking down and yelling at this other teacher who tries to use the fact that I'm a Christian against me. She says to me "You're a Christian, you should do this.......You're a Christian, you should act this way." She's telling me that she expects me to fit in this box and get along with her, but whenever I try to talk to her on a civil level... I'M the one that gets yelled at... BY HER!! The thing is... she claims to be a Christian too. *sigh* I understand the whole community thing, but there's no connection and I feel like I'm dumb whenever I talk to her.
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