i tear my heart open i sew myself shut...my weakness is that i care too much....my scars remind me that the past is real

theres only about 4 days left of school then finals...i only have about 2 finals so its gonna be really easy...i took a week and a half off of work so i can be at the lake...

im kinda confused...should i play softball this summer and waste two nights out of the week...lol i know it not alot but i love summer and i dont wanna miss out again like i did last year...6 weeks of western civ. really sucked ass...

im really pissed...almost a month and my grandparents are selling the lake cabin on turtle i wont get to enjoy much of it if this fucking weather doesnt change i wanna go swimming at least once in the lake...its gonna be depressing...but i still have my grandmas on pelican...but i dont like her much lol

i think im done updating for awhile...i wont be sitting on my computer during the summer...talk to you guys later! xoxo jess call me...3888267

:*:*:all he ever said was i promise:*:*:

ShE asKed HeR boYfRienD if He WoUld pLaY tHe QueStioN gAMe wIth Her...

girlfriend: do you like me?

boyfriend: no

girlfriend: do you want me?

boyfriend: no

girlfriend: would you cry if i left?

boyfriend: no

girlfriend: what would you choose...your life our mine?

boyfriend: my life

ThE gIrlFriEnd rAN oUt oF thE rOOm cRyIng...hE rAn AfTEr hEr...ThE rEasoN wHy YoU woULd nEvEr CroSS mY miNd Is BeCAuSe yOUr aLwaYs oN mY minD...The rEaSoN wHy I dOnT LiKe YOu iS bEcaUse I loVE yoU..thE rEasOn WhY i DonT waNt yOu iS beCAuse I neEd yoU...thE rEasoN wHy i WoUldnT cRy iF yOu LeFt is BeCAusE i WouLd DiE if You LefT...ThE rEasoN Why Im noT wiLLinG tO Do aNyThIng fOr yOu Is BeCauSe I woULd eVerYtHiNg foR yOu...tHE reAsOn wHy i ChoOse My LiFe iS bEcaUse YoU Are My LiFe...

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DiSnEyLaNd called me on monday night...i was really confused because they were like this is the disneyland lost and found and wed just like to say that we found you phone...is this jessica...im like ya...theyre like ok can we have your address and we will ship it to you? im like wtf ive never been to disneyland...haha but i figured it out i sent benny a text while he was there and they thought it was my phone or something

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wow people talk so much shit...its kinda annoying...im not saying i dont talk shit but its crazy...half of the stuff isnt even that big of a deal...you only have about 2 more years with these people...i dont think you should waste it...you hardly talk to the people that you are friends with in highschool once you start college...everyone moves away...

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HoLy ShIt...just about 20 days left of school...im for sure not taking summer school i wanna be down at the lake as much as possible...laying on the dock tanning...floating out in the middle of the lake on tubes not noticing...wakeboarding tubing having bond fires till the sun comes up...late nigh walks...STUBS...wow its gonna be so much fun!

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short week of school...then prom on saturday...im not goin im a loser but me and kelly are goin to the grand march...thatll be fun...this weekend was kinda boring...friday was carissas bon fire...and the cops came ime and kelly left at like1230 and went home though...alot of people left after they cops...then saturday we drove down to iSlAnDs...it was so much fun! all of us FaRgO girls were dancin on the stage...i love you! then we came home and got fucked...cause we said we were staying at carissa when we were goin to...until that night when she went down to DL with alli and them...no big deal but it just kinda sucked...i didnt get in trouble but karis dad wanted to talk to here mom...

yOuR mOrE tHaN a LoVeR....

idk what happened it kinda suck...not talking to this one person...

well im gonna go not to much to talk about call me over the long weekend if you wanna hang out! talk to you later! love you lots xoxo jess

<>wow this weekend was fucking gay...friday drove around sat at t bell went to this one kids house had to leave and went home...pretty gay...friday um we went to this guys house...sat there for a bout an hour nothing to fun then snuck out and me kari and derek played beer fuck/four play (there werent enough cars to just play beer fuck) til 4 in the morning...lets just say i suck at that game and derek is awesome...karis just a pussy! haha jk i love you...<>

i thought it was over
we said our goodbyes
but i cant go a day without your face
goin through my mind...

happy early birthday carissa...friday shes having people over...sAtUrDaY is isLaNDs!! im so excited..i like it there...no one knows you really and you can meet new people...doesnt matter how you act...itll be fun...

LeT iT bUrN...dont understand this song haha 

GoOD lucK girls...first sOFTbalL game in GranD FoRks....

<>the way you shake it i cant believe it i aint never seen an ass like that<>

iM conFuSEd...doNt aSk me So MaNY qUesTiONS i DonT KnoW aNY anSWeRs rIGHt nOW...i DoNT kNoW whAT iM fEelIng BouT YoU...iT sUCks....

wtf im puttin my kenny pics in here this week! talk to you guys later love you!

well...looks like cheerleading is over...

i made JV boys basketball...my third pick...i love wrestling too much! haha im serious it sounds gay...but its such an intense sport...so im gonna be a stat...i feel bad ditching out on my cheerleaders...but im pissed why wouldnt i make it!?! im not trying to sound gay or anything...but i was on it last year...and its varsity...i didnt think i got worse...my coach said i got alot better...WTF im pissed...im gonna miss wearing that lil outfit and cheering for our boys! ahh im pissed...i wanna be in comp. too...i liked flying...wtf the coaches can all die! i dont even care...jk thats mean but im so pissed i could cry ...well this weekend better be fun!

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bOoM iTs On...

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                     xoxo jess

<>mary is holdin both of her shoes in her hand said she likes to feel the sand on her feet<>