So I haven't typed on this thing in quite some time. I have been pretty busy I guess.

So a quick run down on what has been up. I am now in the process of joining a congregation of believers. These are some mature people who love the Lord and are going to be key in my growth. The process to joining the church is a 12 week course called "Foundations" the Pastor and other Elder take turns teaching. I think the worship leader is going to teach the class on corporate worship. So far it has been pretty educational. The Pastor is a Godly, humble man as well as is the other Elder. These men care deeply for the body of Christ and take their commitment to the sheep that they have been entrusted to watch over very seriously. This past week was the first week in the first meeting facility that the church will own. It was also the international day of prayer for the persecuted church. We had an amazing worship service and it was followed by a good message. Tim showed us a video with some persecuted brothers and sisters on it. They were telling of what they have gone through and told us of their need for the bible and it made me realize what I have, and how oblivious myself and all of Americans are to the rest of the worlds problems. Then he let us know how lazy hiself and we are in our faith and how we are called to be zealous. Something that he said was very sad, but true. He stated that he was tired of hearing people say evangelism is not my gift and using that as a crutch. God has gifted the church with evangelists but evangelism is something that all believers are called to do.

Aight thats all I am going to type for now... deuce it

1 John 2:6

"whoever says he abides in Him, ought to walk in the same way in which He walked." (ESV)

This my friends is why I do not put up with sissy Christians or stupidity, whether it be in my life or someone elses. If you claim Christ read this verse. This is what claiming Christ entails. How did Jesus walk? He loved, He served, He washed feet, and He bled and died on a cross for God's glory (Triune God). I am not saying you will be crucified, but one must be prepared for the consequences of claiming Christ in this world. The world does not like the truth.

Moving on is always a strange feeling, but is usually worth it. This time I know it is worth it and very much called for. Looking for a new church will be a very fun process.

So how is everyones summer going? I have no idea why I am updating this thing... no one uses them anymore. I am just really bored. If anybody that reads this wants to hang then call or e-mail me. Peace

I always wondered why I never all the way fit in with any group of people other than my close church friends. I never really knew why I could get really attatched to any one group of people at school. I mean I loved them in the sense that I would do things for them, but there was also a distant feeling between me and them. The distance of I could leave them and not feel the need to look back. I could discontinue conversing with them forever and I would still remember them, but it would not be quite as hard as when William left for China and there was a possibility I would never see him again. He is still gone, we e-mail and I miss him. Or say if Tony left, or Billy and Kim. I have grown close to the two of them over the past year, and Tony and I have been good friends for some time.

Well now I will answer my own question... Why was this so? Well after Billy's Sunday night sermon from Hebrews 11: 13- 16, I realized all this was because I am an alien in a foreign land. I do not belong to this earth. I am a citizen of a different kingdom, I have a homeland far from this one. I desire that better country which is heaven. Where one day I will be home with my Father. Here is the scripture passage:

Heb. 11: 13-16   "These all died in faith, not having received the things promised, but having seen them and greeted them from afar, and having acknowledged that they were strangers and exiles on this earth. For people who speak thus make it clear that they are seeking a homeland. If they had been thinking of the land they had gone out, they would have had opportunity to return. But as it is, they desire a better country, that is, a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared for them a city." (ESV)

That last sentence says God is not ashamed to be called their God... that implies that he can be ashamed to be called someone's God. Uh, I don't know about you guys, but I do NOT want Him to be ashamed to be called my God. This made me think, it made me wonder, and it made me sad. Why? because the more I thought and pondered on this, the more I realized I had given Him every reason to be ashamed. I then became happy again because I realized that there was hope. I could still grow in my walk with Him! With prayer and help from the Holy Spirit I could have a totaly different out look on life and aproach to witnessing. Why? because I really don't have to worry what people think simply because I am not here for long, and every missed opportunity has to be acounted for when I stand before Him. Now can you imagine standing before a Holy and Righteous Savior... the creator of the universe and all things in it, and trying to explain to Him that you cared more about your own comfort than someone elses sole and getting the story of His life and death to them? I can see myself now... with my head down and my hands in my pockets saying, Lord there is no excuse other than my own lack of faith! Forgive me, please! Your love for Him should be beaming from you in everything that you do, and His light should shine out of you. When you enter a room people should be uncomfortable with cussing around you. Something I have been praying for is a sensitivity to evil. Like when someone even cusses I want cringe and ask them to try and control that. And mostly if someone says GD then I want to shutter with fear and total hatred of that word being put with my God's name. That is just what is on my heart right now. That and totaly changing my own habbits and the jokes I tell sometimes. Peace like a river