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| Man I feel where your coming from and you know "People" have a tendency
to do exactly what your doing. Comparing situations that their in now
to situations that they might have witnessed or even been
in..especially me. I can't say it's a bad thing but,I say always go
with your gut feeling ma. I usually have nothing to say I just be like
"ohh fa reall...that's crazy" lol you know me, but if it's constant
signs and steady flashing you back to the point your saying you don't
want to end up in the same situation as moms then you do what you think
is best...Then again you have your wholeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee FUCKIN life to
live you know. I know where you coming from when you say you tired of
the game, tired of starting over..but, the shit is just beggining. I'm
not saying live today and not worry about the consequences tomorrow.
What I'm saying is you don't even know for sure if this is who your
going to be with so if he start acting stupid there always someone who
will have better ways. Maybe not today and maybe not tomorrow but maybe
in college. Talk to him and if talking to him doesn't make him change
his ways (seriously talk too him) then do what you have to do. Don't
let it stress you! Don't let SHEIT stress you. We're too young, too
pretty, too smart, too much of a woman to let a mans actions effect or
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sonnnnnn .
i don even kno .
like i am soooo tight
right now because
spitzz asked me ta
teach him how ta graphic
design kuhs i edited a
pic of his && it came
out ill . iss not like
he askin me ta teach him
on the side he askin me
ta teach him on the spot
like wtf && i was tryna
tell him how difficult it
is like how imma teach
yu sumthin that took ME
yrs ta learn ya kno?
this nigga sayin it like
iss juss so fckin simple.
fckin anybody cud do it .
this art shit is my life
and he makin it seem like
O...that thass nuthin
juss start me off &&
i gott this . that shit
is really irkin me.
part of me feels
overwhelmed like
hes always dominating
fckin everything like
shit where the 5O/5O line
at? like was promised .
iss not like im aimin
to leave him especially
not over this but i just
feel like 75% of the
relationship is my
anger sometimes .
like all we do is
fight . && i don
want it to be like that
because thats not what
i signed up for
or was ever looking for
yu kno?
but i care about him so
muchhh iss juss like im
real happy im in his life
but on the other hand i feel
sad because iss like a
foreshadowing . iss like
i already KNO how shit is
gonna be . nuthins changingg .
in 20 yrs the same bullshit
that i cant stand that irks
me but i take is gonna catch up
like the whole reality of this
7O/3O (or atleast it feels like)
im gonna be bothered by this same
shit && im not gonna be able to
complin because it was like this
since day 1 . . .
shittt i juss don wanna end up
like mom . wifed up to a
overprotective, i run shit,
controlling, my way or the
highway type nigga yu kno??
i feel like bong thass a
whole nother situation.
kuhs my baby is my heart ,
we could never be like that .
but what is iss same game
different names && faces??
I cant HELP but wonder
sometimes . iss like
does the good outweigh the bad??
does the fact that i care so much,
and i love everything about him
swagg down to last name outweigh
the fact that i am TERRIFIED of
ending up with sum 1 like my dad
dead ass I cant be like that .
I cant live like that or put
my kids to that .
the stress of keeping a tyrant happy...
his way or no wayy ... out of control ...
stubborn ... no nonsense .... unreasonable...
i cant do it. but iss too early ta tell
if spittz is like....they even the same sign
well spittz falls on a cusp so hes a taurus
some times and otherd an aries like my father
which scares the hell outta me....
man idkkk . i really don kno......
realll talkk .
=/
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| y que joda?
que el problema?
wat the fckkk
whass hiz problem?
SHANEE musta done lost his bloodclott minddd ya knoo!
dis nigga rite....so BOOM nigga not even cute at all at all at alllll
so n e wayyy ii went by his brib real quick oncee....well his kuzzin brib or sumthin
kuhs iss like a 3-minute walk frm ma house [ probably less ]
juss ta checkk him outt....kuhs ii givess everyone FAIR GAME! =D
so n e whoo ma dumb ass left ma bagg ova dere >.<
&& it had ma bed,bath,&&bodyy werks set in dere [O YESS]
soooo n e whooo ii wasnt tryna fck with him too muchh afta dat day
so ii guess he kud tell or sumthin? .........wateva......
but BOOM he STILL gott da bagg
soooooo ii be OD kallin him dis past like weekk....
ma kalls have been gettin IGNORED earlyyy!
I kalled frm ma kuzz cell....a numba he don kno
&& magically he pickkss up!
coincidence?? HELL FCKiN NOO!
but iss watevaaaa so dude was mad at sumthin && he was all skreaminn && im on ma 'excuse-A-ma-shit'
like 'que'? who dude THINK he whilin at so he like imma kall yu backk
&& im like but chu NOTTT
so watevaaa
he DID kall backkk
but ii whiled on him kuhs we ain spoke in a gud 3 weeks
dude start talkin bout
I ain waitin around fa no relationship...
hmmm.....?????.......
who sed ne thing bout a relationship nigga??
I WANT ME [EFFiN] BAG!
uqqqqqqqqqkkkk
dude like 'yo imma kall yu backk'
ii em two seconds away frm re-iterating the fact that I am contacting him for the sole purpose of receiving my belongings!
dude actin like im on the jockk....on the 'swagg' or sumthinn
ii really DO NOT understand dese niqqasz
ii DONT
uqqqqqqqqqqqqkkkkkkkkkkkk
&& andre....today our anniversary && da last time we spoke [ && he hung up ]
was da 30th so iss WAT-THE-HELL-EVAA
.....gott da nerve ta hitt me on aim like 'yooo'....
is he crazyyy???
iss watevaaaa....&& once again all thee exes is returnin [as usual]
sha,,jarell,,jay,,uri.....to name a few *wink wink*
LOL
lataaaaaa
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| && why do ii feel like makin another xanga?
>.<
but naaaa dis wun is where da memoriesz isz at
&& why em ii stuck in the past?
it's making me feel weak but maybe I am weak for being strong for so long
who knows...........
what dha hell evaaa
mangg im so tight dhat mierda isss juss happenin evrywhere!
kuzzin bitchin but again thass nuthin new
darren sis whilin but again dhass nuffin new
andre neva answerin hiz fone but again thass nuffin new...........
&& the past takin a toll on me
iss like karma ii guess....
sumthin like pero different because.....idkkkk
iss like built-up regret
as muchhh as ii KNO ii CANT stress it CANT control it CANT change it
at da end of the day im backk in the same mind-set like damnnn
miss dha boo-boo pierre....
it isz wat it isz
ii guess im juss not used ta havin ta DEAL witt shit
ta really NOT get ma way && dere bein no way around it....
watevaaaa ma sis commin backk && SHE was usin da cpu....lolz
so ii gotta goooo
illl beeee backkkk!
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| son,,, is it just me or did my knockerss juss grow tremendously....
seriouslyy ii em lookin so much *PLUMPERR* =D
---
PERO , on another note .
is it just me or wen a dude doesn't wanna talk aboutt a girl itzz
sssssssssssssss
*SUSPECT*
like que joda! ;; wtf?!? ;;
how yu willin ta deadd OUR relationship overr herrr
kuhs at the end of the dayy thass wat it come down too....
yupppp it hurtz;;suxx;;&& makes me a likkle sadD.
O WELLZ
' You want to be seen as the strong one, Capricorn. Capable, sure, even
stoic, you shy away from the realm of emotions and are loathe to let
your vulnerabilities show. Others end up leaning on you, but what
happens when you need help? You need to learn how to let others past
your defenses and love you. Once you shatter the illusion that you're
invulnerable, then caring becomes a two-way-street and true intimacy is
yours. '
a likkle knowledge on capricornsssss . o yesssss . =D
uqkkkkkkkkkkkk . dis niqqa bout ta let me go over shortyyy
at least im a [fckin*] inspiration! HOWEVER ii kan NOT be no DAMMED
enlightnerrr
if dha niqqa'sz a yunggie-dummie
&&++++++++++++ yu wanna kno wat else!!!!!!
he'z actinn righttt now =D ;; lol..........
im out fa ta nitee
LATE [errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr]*
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