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Country: United States
State: Tennessee
Birthday: 9/19/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: My one true love Jesus, missions, soccer, reading, dancing,serving others, making people laugh,sleeping in, staying up late, hole in the wall coffee shops, my church at home and at school, singing, music of all kinds, the outdoors, camping, my family,listening to other people's stories, camopants, anything by John Piper, strawberries, snow, going to football games, watching clean movies, writing, cats, Aida, hanging out with my friends, Zeta Tau Alpha, taking pictures, tutoring, cooking, etc.
Expertise: Being little miss social butterfly
Occupation: Social Worker
Industry: Nonprofit
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AIM:  BonitaAshlita83
Member Since:
12/17/2003
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| I am crazy.......I have put off and put off my last assignment from my summer classes my research proposal. i just want it done but I have not motivation to do it. I am turning it in tomorrow and it is going to be crap. I am sorry for all of you who haver heard me gripe about being in grad school. It is just that I am so ready to be out of school. I just do not want to do any work. I cant believe how easy summer classes were and I made some really good friends that also do not want to be in school.... the amazing things is we used to love learning in undergrad.... now we all want to drop out. None of us are driven...... This stupid paper has effected me so much and it shouldn't have been this way. I keep on thinking that I need to get it done and how I am letting it consume my being... Jesus should be the only consume me.... on another note I am now Ashley Marsee, LSW... I feel old and in 9 months I will be Ashley Marsee, MSW, and in two years nine months I will be Ashley Marsee, LISW and will be able to diagnose. I have no clue what I want to do after graduation... It frightens me because I like to always plan ahead. I just have no clue where God wants me... Pray that God would make His will clear to me. Well, man if I could get this fired up about my paper man I would have it done in like 3 hours but yeah I will probably stay up all night before class on Thursday to finish my paper..... I do not think I like being an adult and having responsibilities. I just want to go back to Union and hangout with my friends.... Please pray for me... I need it so much. | | |
| So 10 days until I graduate.... I am so freaking out. I am afriad that I will not be able to make it in grad school. I also feel like I do not belong anywhere because I cannot stay in Jackson because I am graduating and so are all my friends but I have been away from Ohio for four years and we have all changed a lot. I know I have changed in many ways... I just wish I had a place to belong.... | | |
| So, 12 days until I graduate from Union University! 26 days until my lil's wedding. One month and 11 days until I start grad school. | | |
| I decided on OSU! I am so excited but I do not really want to start less than a month after I get my BSW from Union. I have 27 days until graduation! It is a little bit freaky! God is so good. I love where I am at in life! | | |
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Paradigm
Everybody loves a rose,
But will you be thankful for the thorns?
Love is easy when you're loved,
But do you curse another when you're alone?
Chorus:
Oh, I give my life to You
So I can gain it back again
Oh, I stand solid
While the paradigm is shifting
You say live and let live,
But people are dying everyday
And you say what I don't know won't hurt me
But if what I do not know
Is the very thing I need,
Then I say...
Chorus
Humanity sees truth
Through a shattered window pane
That blocks the view,
And plants the seed
So we draw the curtains to close but I say
That the sun can still shine
Behind a closed mind
And sticks and stones do hurt
When tossed from the tongue of mankind
Chorus
When I was driving back to school today from being at home for spring break I popped in this CD that I had not listened to in forever. I think at least six years. I got a totally different meaning now since I have grown and matured. Their were so many songs that I listened to today that touched my heart.
It has been over two months since my last post. So much has happened. I got into both OSU and UC. Now I have to decide if I want to go to the cheaper school or the better grad program. Pray that God would make it clear where it is that He wants me to go. I have also scheduled to take my BSW test for Ohio on April 13. Please pray for me. It is a big deal if I pass or not.
It has been rough lately thinking about all of the things that I am going to face after graduation. It is a little overwhelming. I have to pay for grad school and find a job. I am moving back in the house with my parents just while I am in grad school. Pray for us all. It will be a major adjustment. I have this fun wedding that I am going to be in..... my Lil's and all I can think about is how I have very little money and not enough to pay for school, a new computer, insurance, all the stuff that goes into being in a wedding... let me tell you if you have never been in one it is a lot of fun but you spend soooo much money. I know that God will provide but sometimes it is just hard to trust. Sometimes I am afraid to grow up and I wish I could be a kid for the rest of my life but I also want to grow up and build my own life and see what God has in store for me. It is just freaky thinking about growing up.
So, for any of you who know about the Broadway show AIDA and the first actress that played Aida Heather Headley is the sister in law of the guy who just got the position to work with my sister. He said I could meet her and that he would get tickets for me. She is one amazing singer.
On a happier note.. I had a great time at home with my parents and the rest of my family. Katie and I got to hang out and have some fun times...but we always have a blast. I saw Teasha and Ash too. Great times. I made a Rachel Ray dinner...it was so funny and so much fun. By the way if any of you did not know it I love to cook! Well, I need to go! I hope all is well with you all. | | |
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