(i found some old stuff that i wanted to put in here.. heheh it's my some of my old poems dat i made =p and some are just plain corny.. iono wat i was thinking about but oh well i hope u enjoy them! oh and some other wun i put in the bottom are things i found around asian avenue. Bolded and italics are separates!)


08/16/03
02:50 PM

A Promise...

Is a thing you can't break.
Is a thing that must be kept safe.

Is my heart to yours.
Is a thing that was before.

Is everywhere.
Is somewhere.

Is heaven.
Is chosen.

Is forever love.
From up above.

Is family.
Is can "we."

Is something we keep.
Is something we leap.

Is something we try.
Is something we cry.

Is hopeful.
Is beautiful.

Is daring.
Is feeling.

A love that's true.
My promise are these things to you.

*~~~~~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~~~~*

Our promise is broken.
So it was chosen.

It was written in your choice.
It was said in your voice.

Our promise is gone.
But it was fun.

I admit that.
Every night when we chat.

It's the past.
And hopefully the last.

I can't ever be with you.
Cuz our promise together,
Wasn't true.

8/18/03
8:12:08 PM

Asian Boy
(LOL)

You make asian girls fly
As you walk by

You give hard looks
But never like to read books

You give hard stares
And don't give a care

You look good
And you know it's true

Cuz when ever you're around
You hear girls whispering sounds

You know they're talking about you
And you be like "TRUE, TRUE!"

You make cute smiles
And girls can smell your cologne
Over a mile

But hell nah!!!
You my man!
Fo sho!!

So move out the way bitches!
And keep your wishes!

Cuz this foine ass asian boy
Is not a toy

Little girls shouldn't play with him
So play with your Sims

Cuz he my asian boy!
And I'm his asian girl!

Fo real!

8/18/03
8:22:54 PM

Gangsta FOB
(LOL)

You is a ugly
sunafabitch

Thinking you is all dat
When rilly is you all fat!

When you have gel up in your hair
Nobody cares

Gettin cheap ass import cars
And can't go no where too far

Gettin ugly bitches anywhere
For you and your ugly friends to share

You is a monkey
And you smell all funky

You is a hairy
King Kong!

The best sport you play at..
Is ping-pong

You can't sing no song
Whenever you eat at Fongs

You is a hater
And a faker

You carry a knife
Thinkin you all tight

And when you get into a fight
All you do is bite

And when you try to get the "hook up"
From a true pinay
You just yell out and say...
"BONZAI!!! GO OUT WITH ME CUZ YOU FINE!"

Then when pinays come to slap you
They bring out they're pinoys
And you better run FATCHOY!!!

And when you get beat up
You look all fucked up
Lookin like a fucked up king kong
in a bunch of make-up
But it's all natural
on your face

So you is a gangsta fob
And it's your job.
To get your ass beat
Fuckin ugly ass fob!

8/15/03
2:52 PM

Lost

Gone,
Nothing,
Betrayed,
Confused,
Lost.

Gone.
Are the words deep
Inscribed within the walls
Of my mind.

Nothing.
They flow deeper
When I see your face
Or when I think about you.

Betrayed.
Is when you said you liked me
When I thought we had something
But everything just flows up to nothing.

Confused.
You left me
Stranded and clueless
Making it hard for me to understand.

Lost.
I finally found out
What everything was about.

I understand.
You used me.
Nothing about us being together
Was special.

You left me lost
To find out everything
I thought I did wrong.

By myself...
I was lost.
That is a feeling I never want
To experience with you ever again.

08/15/03
11:10 PM

Now That I Know

Everything that we did,
We even acted like kids.

Everything that I know,
You didn't even show.

I didn't even know you,
I didn't know that it was true.

You were so mean,
OMG SHEESH!

I can't believe it,
I didn't see it coming.

It'd be the last thing I'd be thinking,
It'd be the last thing I'd be wishing.

No it's not true,
But it is.

But that's you,
I didn't feel everything is true.

Now that I know,
It was all a show.

You are like that,
Be whatever.

Cuz now that I know,
I don't care.

We could've had something to share,
But now I just can't bare.

You are something else,
But the love we had,
I thought I felt.

Now...
Now that I know.

8/19/03
1:17:04 PM

Sunny Days

On sunny skies like this
It seems like a forever bliss

On beautiful days
You never want it to fade away

On a bright blue sky
Seems like you want to fly

Honey-scent flowers bloom
Right next to your window's room

You get up with the sun shining on your face
Then it's time for you to pick up the pace

You want to have a good time
And hope everyone will be kind

You hear uplifting bird sounds
You say, "Finally, things are turning around."

You go out and looking great
And fate has found you a date

You guys go out
All round and about

Then, you don't know why you stop and think
"What is the meaning of this?"
Then, you don't realize you got a kiss.

On beautiful sunny days like this
Is something you'd hate to miss.

You then sing
What will tomorrow bring?

On sunny skies like this
It seems like a forever bliss

8/19/03
1:39:11 PM

The Good Stuffz

Falling in love
Sunny skies
Getting presents
Having a fast computer
Having cable/modem
Watching a great movie on theaters
Eating good food
Getting cheered on karaoke even though you suck
Your crush likes you
Getting your favorite pairs of shoes
Never feeling blue
Feeling cool
Seeing cool people at the mall
Your crush catching you when you fall
Hanging out with friends
Going to a good concert
Hot chocolate
Going to a fun party
Going to the ocean
Having lots of money
Having cool free stuffz
Having a cute puppy
Being lucky
Getting a good revenge
Having a great time at skool
Hearing your favorite music on the radio
Swimming in the pool
Playing pool
Going to the strip
Having fun in Game Works
Playing and not missing any arrows on DDR
Eye contact with your crush
Your crush buying you something
Hearing rain beside your window
Smelling baked cookie dough
Looking at your old pictures
Thinking about good memories
Getting nice clothes
Getting that favorite shirt you wanted so bad on half price
Chatting online
Having a good chat on the phone at midnight
Hanging out with your friends at midnight
Being at the right place at the right time
Getting a great unforgettable kiss
Laying in bed thinking about what happened good today
Smiling for no reason at all
Sleeping and having a good dream
Waking up and thanking God for another beautiful day!

8/18/03
7:12:12 PM

The Last Hearing

I hear your voice
Echo within the walls
Of my mind.

I hear your name
Being called
In my pounding heart.

I hear the phone ringing
In my sleeping ears
And recall what you were saying.

I hear you whisper you miss me
Oh how it felt so good
When I thought it was meant to be.

I hear your faded footsteps
Even though you're far away
I know in my mind you were there to stay.

I hear you heavily breathing
In P.E.
There you were playing basketball
Is what I was seeing.

I hear your thumping heart beat
When we were close
And felt the rising heat.

I hear your glistening eyes
Just looking at me
Saying this is meant to be.

I hear you at lunch
Oh how loud you were
With the Asian bunch.

I hear your funny singing
When we held hands together
There was so much love we were exchanging.

I hear you when you're near
When I take a test in class
Then I smile and had no fear.

I hear this is lasting long
I'm so happy
I know where I belong.

I hear this is a relationship to last
I felt so relieved
But that was all in the past.

*~~~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~~*

I hear you walk away
You are then not here to stay.

I hear your ignores
This is something I haven't
Heard of before.

I hear you didn't want me
Anymore.
This, for sure was not meant to be.

I hear your last voice
Over the phone
Oh how it hurt.

I hear my heart racing
When I felt it coming
To hear your last words saying.

"I want to be single."
Came out of your soft voice
That was the last hearing.

To hear your voice
And to call you again...
Is not my choice.

8-15-03
2:30PM
Times Like These

Times like these,
When I'm lonely and cold,
I just want a hug from you to squeeze.

Times like these,
When I miss you being by my side,
I just have to sit here and cry.

Times like these,
When I think about you,
I feel more blue.

Times like these,
I want you out of my mind,
But in sleep,
It's you I'll find.

Times like these,
When our relationship was built with no good-byes,
When actually they were all lies.

Times like these,
When I wanted you to stay,
You blocked me out and went your way.

Times like these,
When I want to scream out,
What was our stuff about?

Times like these,
I think about wasted time,
Meeting you was wasted time.

Times like these,
I recall the memories we had together,
But you said to let go was for the better.

Times like these,
I'll never go back to you,
Begging you,
Please.

09/21/03
8:49:34 PM

Tired

I'm a tired girl
Who had a lot of thrills.

I have a tired heart
When it's been torn apart.

I have tired eyes
When it let out all the cries.

I have tired hands
Making stuff for my man.

I have tired legs
When I have to beg.

I have a tired mind
When I have to think of lies.

I have a tired soul
When it has to be bold.

I have a tired life
When I think of you twice.

I'm tired.
Of making this poem.

8/17/03
2:44 PM

To Get Over You
(obsession)

To get over you.
The sky wouldn't be blue.

To get over you.
I wouldn't say "I love you"

To get over you.
I wouldn't write this poem about you.

To get over you.
I can't stop thinking about you.

To get over you.
The birds wouldn't fly.

To get over you.
Would be the end of the world.

To get over you.
People would be walking around naked.

To get over you.
I'd sleep on the clouds.

To get over you.
I can't ever wake up.

To get over you.
Everyone has to slap me.

To get over you.
YOU slap me.

To get over you.
TELL me harshly.

To get over you.
MAKE me cry.

To get over you.
GET someone else.

To get over you.
KISS HER in front of me.

To get over you.
OMG! I CAN'T HATE YOU!

To get over you.
.....

Iono man.
I think I'm still in love with you.

8-12-03
9:04 p.m.
To Know You're There

If you were there,
I'd just stare.

If you were mine,
I'd be fine.

If you cared,
I'd bare my whole love to you.

If you were feeling blue,
I'd be there to show you
that my love is true.

But to know if you were there,
I'd always share my love.

Cuz without a clue,
You and me would make
our dreams come true.

I tell you this,
So you wouldn't miss...

This joy that we are missin out on.
But....

If I knew you existed,
If I knew you were out there,
Somewhere...
If I just knew you are there.
Tell me.

So this happiness would come true.
Then for sure,
I know you are there..

8/18/03
8:50:40 PM

Twinkle Little Star
(this poem is plain out stoOpid)

Twinkle, Twinkle
Little Star

May I make a Wish?
Can I hab sum fish?

So I can slap diz pinay
Cuz she actin all dat
When seriously,
She all a stupid shit.

Twinkle, Twinkle
Little Star

May I make a Wish?
Can she smell like fish?

Make the stinking
Do the thinking

So the smell will never go away
And it's buried under her skin for it to stay

Twinkle, Twinkle
Little Star

May I make a Wish?
Can she stop actin like a bitch?

She a fuckin witch from hell
Can't you tell?

Twinkle, Twinkle
Little Star

Can you get rid of her?
And never come back?

Twinkle, Twinkle
Little Star

She wants to kick my ass
Cuz I called her a fat ass

Twinkle, Twinkle
Little Star

Give me strength,
I've come this far

Let me get rid of her uglyness
So her suffering would end

Twinkle, Twinkle
Little Star

I've lost the match
And all my friends is what she has catched.

Twinkle, Twinkle
Little Star

Is the twinkle star up there?????

8/19/03
7:11:18 PM

Unanswered Questions

I sit in my lonely room
With no love going around
Missing you

Wishing to ask you
What just happened here?

I've asked so many different people
If they knew anything about us

It turns out they did know.
That I didn't know.

You couldn't tell me in person
When I asked you if anything was wrong...

You lied and said "nothing"
But I knew there was something

When you broke up with me
I wanted to ask you why

Was it because I didn't show
The love I had deep within the walls of my heart?

And I couldn't show it to you
Cuz I'd feel embarassed.

So if I could...
I'd ask you...
Where did I go wrong?

Just because I didn't go with you?
When I could've went with you?

Was it because you thought I felt ashamed
Of kissing you in public?

Was it because I didn't show much love
Like I think you were giving me?

Was it because you want a girl
Who would go out like your FRIEND can..

You just want a girl who you can hang out with
No not me.
It was a mistake.

But I was willing to take it.
Cuz I have no regrets going out with you.
I had a good time.
I have to admit it.
Like I can't admit to other people.
And you.

I love you.

08/17/03
2:27 PM

We Had Something

we had something,
that could've lasted.

we had something,
it wuz one thing.

very important to ME
cuz...

it wuz LOVE i had felt.
wut about U?

something u couldn't FEEL?
something u couldn't steal?

but it's gone.

i FELT the love.
cuz you TOOK my heart.

and TORE it apart.

you think you're smart...

but you're not.

even though we never fought...

it HURTS for you to walk away.
just like that.

and i GAVE you love.
you even GAVE yours too.

and i THOUGHT it wuz cool.
but i wuz a FOOL.

I'M tired of playing your game.
everything will ALWAYS be the same.

we HAD something.
we HAD something.

i REPEAT that twice.
and get it RIGHT!

08/16/03
3:38 PM

You

If you were kind.
If you wouldn't mind.

If you waited.
Just a little more time.

But you didn't spare,
A thought.

In your own little head,
In your own big bed.

To think about,
"us"

More carefully.

But you came to conclusions.
Not even cautionly.

I've made my spare time,
Finding out,
What kind of person you are.

And so far...
For three months.

Apart from you.
Mostly it was bad things.

About you.

So hopefully,
I should just forget about you.

And hopefully,
I'm not lying to myself.

I will never go back with you.
Cuz it's you I'm mostly talking about.

All through summer.
What a bummer.
It's all on YOU.

I just simply hate you.

(here are some of the interestin stuff i found on aa.. it's kinda kewl once you read it.)

[ love ]

love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. love never fails.
- 1 corinthians 13:4-8a

>> love cannot be written in words. it is felt by the heart. here`s my definition: god`s love for me, my family`s for me, my friends love for me andradie`s love for me. love is trust, faith, and being there for someone through good times and bad. but the greatest love of all is god`s love for me when he sent his son to die on the cross for my sins, giving me the gift of salvation.


[ stress ]

i am not saying this because i am in need, for i have learned to be content whatever the circumstances, i know what it is to be in need, and i know what it is to have plenty. i have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in what. i can do everything through him who gives me strenth.
- philippins 4:11-13

>> stress, something everyone experiences. many times, i`ve felt that giving up was the best solution when i`m frustrated or in despair. through these difficult times, i can still hear god`s voice speaking to my heart. i must remember that he`s taken me this far and he will never throw any hardship that i cannot handle. so with a changed heart and god on my side, i accomplish each task one and a time. it`s what brings a smile to my face and the feeling of satisfaction knowing i did my best!


[ prayer ]

do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to god. and the peace of god, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in christ jesus.
- philippians 4:6 and 7

>> this year, i`ve encountered many ups and downs in life: uni applications and acceptances, sars, my piano career, term1 of university (assignments, tests and exams included) etc. every situation i`ve gone through has show me that prayer is the one true source for strength whenever life gets tough and the joy that life brings when he takes you to another level. so don`t forget to bring give everything you have for god because he hearsour softest prayers loud and clear.



[ witnessing ]

therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the father and of the son and of the holy spirit, and teaching them to obey everything i have commanded you. and surely i am with you always, to the very end of age.
- matthew 28:19 and 20

>> 7 people die every second, 420 every minute, 25 000 every hour. at the end of the day 600 000 will walk off the face of the earth and into eternity. life is short. if you were to die today and walked into eternity, where will you be? heaven or hell?


[ self image ]

so we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal
- 2 corinthians 4:18
i want men everywhere to lift up holy hands in prayer, without anger or disputing. i also what women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety, not with braided hair or gold or pearls or expensive clothes, but with good deeds, appropriate forwomen to profess to worship god.
- 1 timothy 2:8-10

>> it disgraceful to see that people, especially girls in particular, make a big deal about how they look and weather they have the latest and hippest clothing, how their hair looks, shoes etc and everything. i`m not saying you cannot be in style because you most certainly can. i`m implying about how girls feel that they have to dress and pose provocatively in person or in pictures just to get a boy`s attention. what good is that? looks fade. it`s what`s inside that counts. god doesn`t judge you about how you look on the outside, he looks at your heart!



[ dating ]

it is god`s will that youshould be sanctified; that you should avoid sexual immorality; that each of you should learn to control his own body in a way that is holy and honorable, not in passionate lust like the heathen,who do notknow god; and that in this matter no one should wrong his brother or take advantage of him.
- 1 thessalonians 4:4-6

>> so many claim to be in-love. your definition of love may be different than mine but there is one thing love is definately not. just because you are in love it doesn`t mean that you have to have sex. it doens`t mean that you just have to wait until you`re ready or anything like that. love is waiting. waiting for sex after marriage. it is meant to be something to be shared between two people then and there. it is trust, faith, sorrow and happiness. lets prevent teen pregnancy, reduce the amount of stds that is being spread and practice abstinence. stay away from sexual immorality and keep your heart clean. it is where god lives. he lives in you!



[ friends ]

a friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity
- proverbs 17:17
perfume and incense bring joy to the heart, and the pleasantness of one`s friend springs from his earnest counsel
- proverbs 27:9
better is open rebuke that hidding love. wounds from a friend can be trusted, but the enemy muliplies kisses.
- proverbs 27:5 and 6
a perverse man stirs up dissension and a gossip separates close friends
- proverbs 16:28

>> friends have come and gone in my life. some for the better, some are just because we lost touch. i am so thankful that i have such an awesome group of friends who love me, care for me, and respect me. friendship is about quality not quantity. those who are true, know who they are and i am so blessed to have you in my life.

(these are quotes that i made.. but some are sayings that prolly other pipol made cuz i have no idea.. but i really tried to make my own.. and here goes all of 'em! But some may not make any sense to you cuz... some were just for my "x" and wat he did to me..eheheh.. well some of you may get the point.. some day..)

8/20/03
7:48:56 PM
Quotes
By:Rubie Lapena

"I don't get it, why is it the person we love, we always find something annoying about them?"

"We share emotions with one another. We feel like taking care of them mostly than ourselves. Why? Cuz I think that's why they say they have stolen your heart."

"When you love a person, don't freak out. Just be patient, then tell them when you feel like the time is right."

"Did you know that I've loved you and I didn't have the time to tell you."

"Love is something hard to let go. It's like a mother giving up her child to someone else."

"I'll be your lover, I'll be your friend. I'll be your someone until the end."

"My promise to you won't be broken. It'll only break when the sky has fallen."

"As long as the time is flying by. My love for you will never die."

"I just want you so bad. But I can't ever have you which makes me hella sad."

"I hate you. But thinking about you...makes me fall in love again."

"FILA: Filipino In Love Again."

"I love being with you. The love is so strong I can't ever let you go."

"A person as strong as steel, can melt by falling in love."

"Be with me. Stay with me. Fall in love with me."

"An unforgettable kiss will stay in my heart forever."

"A kiss is written in the heart without ever speaking of it again."

"I saw you once, I saw you twice, no, wait, This can't be right. Love came back to you and me thrice!"

"I feel his presence. I know when he's near. OMG this guy has captured my heart."

"I feel your heart beat. And you lift me off of my feet."

"Don't you see it's annoying? Get away from me so I can't love you anymore!"

"A promise must not be broken. So if that is. My promise to you is I won't ever break your heart."

"Someone who really cares for me, should love me for who I am. If you won't, stop wasting your time."

"Love is like a one way road. You don't ever know where it may lead to."

"When you walk on water. My love for you will end."

"If I could rearrange the alphabet. I'd put U and I together."

"If I could steal a kiss from your soft lips...Time would stop and I'd be forever kissing you till time ends."

"The time I've spent with you is an endless ride to eternity."

"Hold me for a second, and I'll never let go."

"If you loved me right. I wouldn't think about what happened to us twice."

"I want to give you this letter to you. But I can't... Something will go wrong I just know it! I've followed my mind. Not my heart."

"Help me. Your love can only save my heart from falling apart."

"I see you sleeping peacefully, so near and so close to me. I see myself touching your face. I wake up. It was only a dream."

"It was our last kiss. It will be the one I'll always miss."

"Oh now I see... you don't want me..."

"I LOVE YOU... eight letters... three words... one meaning."

"When you have kissed my lips. You have just touched my heart."

"Thanks to your love. Now we're flying above."

"I thank God. And heaven above. That you're mine."

8/21/03
8:17:28 AM
"As long as the water stays blue, I'll always be with you."

"Find me, then I'll find you."

"If you come here, you'll find me. I promise."

"It was back then I loved you. Now? You tell me."

"Love is confusing if you make it that way."

"I loved you too long. I thought I knew where I belonged."

"We all make mistakes. And it's a risk our heart makes."

"When you feel something is wrong... USE your MIND. NOT your HEART!"

"When you get hurt. Move on."

"My style: Don't dump him. Make him dump you so he feels the regrets."

"In my heart is a book written in your lips."

"In my tears are the thoughts of you fading away.
In my tears are the thoughts of you washing away.
In my tears are the thoughts of your kisses.
In my tears are the thoughts of fake love."

"I saw him today. He looked fine as ever. Now I love him all over again."

"When I heard your voice on the phone. A picture of you in my mind had shown."

"What does it take you to be back in my devastating arms again?"

"When you let me go... I won't."

"When I missed you. Did you ever felt the same way too?"

"Everything in my life was perfect. Until you came and even made it better."

"You're such and idiot! But I'm just saying that cuz I like you so much!"

"Yesterday, I was ok. But not today."

"Ever since high school started. We were parted."

"Even though we broke up. It's your love I won't ever forget."

"We've been through a lot. But we managed to jump through the dark spots."

"QUOTE! I loved you before! I don't want you no more. Even though your heart soars."

"You were everything that I wanted. You were everything I blunted."

"I want you to hate me. Leave me be."

"I cried for you. Did you cry too?"

"Everything was fine the way it was. Why did you answer my questions with cuz...?"

"Our love was already filled with love.There was no room for good-bye."****

"A huge big grass plain is so beautiful. Running with the wind makes you fly. Falling in love with you. Just you and I together."

"I sing a song deep within my heart. My words crack thinking of you. Tears come out missing you."

"You were my guy. But why did you lie?"

"My love for you can never be broken.
My love for you can never be sunk.
My love for you can never be shattered.
My love for you can never be single.
My love for you can never be cold.
My love for you is eternal.
My love for you will never turn off."

"Promise me, just love me forever. Then I'll show you what we can achieve together."

"If dreaming of you is something I can be near. I'll be forever sleeping."

"I'll be there for you. Will you be there for me?"

"When I said I needed you. You promised you'd always stay."

"My mind already hurts just thinking of you."

8/27/03
3:38:27 PM

"You're just always near me.. why do I have to put up with you being there?"

"It hurts just to see you not care for me n e more. My heart just sores. And the girl in front of me is what you're looking for."

"I want to move away from you. So I can get over you."

"We are not meant to be together. My mind says that to me forever.
We are meant to be together. My heart says that to me forever."

"TELL ME WHY? Why do I have to think about you so much."

"I hate where I sit. When I sit near you."

"Why do I think we'd be together again? When I know in my heart and soul it won't happen again?"***

"I'm serious, I think about you all the time. Which never makes my day shine."*****

"I know you like another. So why do I bother?"****

"I hoped in my heart you'd find. A place in your heart to be mine."****

"I sense you want me to be jealous. Which is working by the way..."

"I bet she likes you too. Why don't you just go out with her?"

"End my misery. Don't go near me."

"I feel hella hurt now. From everything that happened today. I hate you. It's all I have to say."

"This sucks. I'm here typing and thinking about you. Wishing you are thinking about me too."

"We've lost it all. I lost my ex who wants me back... and I've lost my other ex who doesn't want me back."

"Why is it that I hella want you back by my side? When I hella hate you all inside?"

"Empty tears flow down inside my heart. Just thinking of you is where my heart all falls apart."

"When I sit near you. My heart beats so fast. I dunno why. I feel so stiff too. Maybe. Just maybe...I still like you."

"Why do I still want you? When I know you'll still hurt me too?"

"Why can't I stop thinking about you? This can't be true. I can't get over you."

"I sit in the cold. Thinking in my mind you'd hold me in your arms again. I'd feel safe and warm."

"Now that school is finally here... It's you that I fear."

7:06:39 PM

"I hate people saying why we broke up. Cuz it does suck."

"Everything hurts today. And it's almost your birthday. I can't go there. No way."

"Sometimes I just like to say I hate myself. For loving you too long."

"I didn't dream about you. But when I woke up, I thought about you a lot."

"Unexpectedly, my heart gets up and down climates. Just because you're there so near me."

"I WANT TO GET OVER YOU!"

"Can someone please tell me... why can't I stop loving this guy???"

"Everyone wants us to be together. And I know that you know... it's not going to last again."

"Deep cries within my heart want to scream out... I WANT HIM BACK! But there is no way am I saying that out loud."

"Why do I have to have a class where I sit next by you? When we can't even talk to each other... Not even a simple hello to start off the morning day?"

"If you're trying to make me jealous... well I really don't care now..."

"I saw you flip your binder... don't hide it... when I walked by... it's one of those import car models... just admit it."

"I dunno what to do. Today or tomorrow... but all I know is that I'm gonna think of you. That's for sure."

"How does it feel like being alone? I'll tell you... It's when you feel that deep loneliness inside your heart that feels cold and unwanted... You want to be kept. You want to be held by someone you love who loves you back. It's that feeling of losing something so precious that you'd try to do anything to get it back. Or probably nothing at all."

"I feel odd. I feel like nothing at all. I feel lost. I feel crazy. I feel stupid. I feel weak. I feel cold. I feel lonely. I feel sad. Of having the thought of thinking of you so much, and the thought of losing you is the hardest thing that's happened to me."

"Why do I think of you, you ask? Cuz I'm crazy. Just plain and simple."

8/28/03
8:40:07 PM

"I told almost some people who I trusted. That I still wanted you and cared for you."

"This all became a story. Of a girl who can't let go."

"I'm hearing the songs you burned for me. I feel like Daniel Bedingfield."

"I can't get over you. Please tell me why?"

"When we sit near each other... GOD! I want to hold your hand once again."

"I feel lonely if you are not here right beside me."

"When I think about you... it's just sad.."

"Oh someone help me!!!! Help me dry these tears away."

"I can't sleep at night. With you in my mind, and in sight... We didn't even fight."

~~"Kailangang kita."~~

"I think of you every single day."

"I think this is how it's gonna be... I'll never be set free."

"Where is the love?"

"Everyday I wonder... do you think of me? As much as I think of you?"

"Everything feels so complicated. Be with me.. I'll be happy and scared. Of having the thought of you next to me always.. and having the thought of going to lose you again."*******

"I try to keep my love for you hidden at any cost. But my love for you is to great.. I have to tell someone who can actually talk to you."

"I hope soon you get the message that I miss you. And I hope that I know you'll miss me too."*****

"Everything feels like an endless dream... when I'm near you."****

"This is reality... you're not here with me."******

"I keep the hopes up for me. And soon it'll answer to me that I'm set free."*****

"24/7. All day long. Every morning. Every night. Every open eyes. Every first time today... I think about you."*****

"Sometimes I feel hopeless. But if I do feel that way... all I have to do is keep the hope up."

"What would you say if I talked to you again? How would our conversation begin?"

"I've tried to ignore you forever at school. But I know in my heart you're there in my mind all over again."

"Every day feels the same all over again. I want it to be different, then the same again. I want this feeling of being wanted to disappear. I want to be with you again."

9/21/03
8:41:01 PM

"Today is tiring. Today is boring. My heart today is soring."

"I'm all empty inside. But my heart never hides."

"I helped a lot yesterday. American Heart Walk day. I'll never forget that day."

"All I have to say... it's been fun. To bad we didn't even talk to each other. Just looked and stared at one another."

"I saw you playing DDR. You're hella good. Teach me."

"Wait a sec. Why am I thinking of you? AGAIN?!?!"

"This is bad. And is a lot sad. I'm thinking of the guy I once had...."*****

"I have to rest. For tomorrow hopefully will turn out to be the best."

"You looked fine yesterday. And probably today..."

"My mind hurts. I feel like it's gonna burst."

"I should stop now. Because my heart doesn't know how."

"Bye."

9/23/03
10:02:21 PM

"Why in the world did he have to switch?"

"Man everything turned out fine until today."

"Why is it that I want to change the way you look?"

"Where are you now?"

"I need you there. I need you here. I need you everywhere."

"I'm a confused girl who doesn't know what to do."

"Why am I in a love triangle? He loves me, I don't want him. I love another... he doesn't want me!"

"I hate it all. What can I do to end all my misery?"

"This is a shame. And who am I to blame?"

"Who cares about anyone else. It's you that my heart has felt."

"I've had second thoughts about you. I wonder if your love is true?"

"I want you by my side. And don't you ever say good-bye."

"Everything seems to be true about me and you."

"I'm ok today. I just don't know what to say. About me and you. Oh God I feel blue!"

"I'm so tired. Cuz in my mind... it's you I admire."

"I want to sing to you. And hold you into my arms again."

"Help me fill up my emptyness inside."

"I feel cold and dark without you."

"Everything is spinning around in my little world.. and it's going into a whirl."

"I don't feel like anything at all. Now out of the blue. I remember the Gallaria Mall."