I think I might get rid of my xanga. I don't use it very much anymore.

Other news . . . I might just get a job that has to do with my major. I'm pumped about it. I have an interview Wednesday, so we'll see. Interviews always make me nervous, unfortunately. But I gotta say, I'm still excited.

just for smiles

I've been taking care of my grandma all summer, and it's been an experience to say the least.  To see someone who once was so strong now so weak is hard. But even though she is so ill, I must say her attitude is amazing and truly inspirational to me. One minute she'll be struggling for a breath and then the next she is pulling a prank on me. Well, one day I came over and she was very down. I asked her what was wrong, and she responded that she was tired of doing nothing and felt useless. I decided we needed to come up with a project for the two of us to work on everyday. My first suggestion was a puzzle. I got an unpleasant look. (She hates puzzles.) Another was to put a scrapbook together.  She said that was too boring. After a couple more of my suggestions were shot down with disgusted looks, my grandma's eyes brightened up. She smiled and told me she knows what we could do together. Build an elevator. Yes, an elevator. In a very serious voice, she explained how she would give me a hammer and a saw and I would go into the storage closet and make a big hole in the floor. . . what could I do but smile? 

(For the record, I declined her suggestion, but I give her an "A" for creativity.)  

I'm starting to feel less overwhelmed about the whole gotta-find-a-job-to-start-your-career-because-you-don't-want-to-be-a-bum thing.  I still have no clue what I am doing or what I'll be doing, but I am strating to embarce it rather than dread it.  It's kinda of exciting in a sense.  I'm in this in between state--waiting--like many people I know right know, and although the waiting part isn't the most enjoyable thing, it is often that waiting brings good things.  This in-between state might not make sense, but I truly believe in God's plan for our lives, everything happens for some reason.  Whether it is to prepare us for the next phase of our lives or just to teach us to trust Him completely and utterly, it is not meaningless.  So sure it's scary, but I'm just trying to focus on all the possibilities.  Good things come to those who wait . . . so they say. 

So last night I showed off my film at the festival. I don't think I ever been that nervous before. It's a scary and an exciting feeling to share something with others that you spent so long working on. But it was such a great experience--in so many ways.  I got to work with some pretty great people, I learned so much, and best of all I got to spend some good quality time with my grandpa and grandma.  Yes, last night was great.  One thing I realized is I don't want to stop creating stories.  I want keep going in some shape or form.  There's just something about stories that connect people, and I really like that concept.  I pray that God will use me in that way. 

Ok I don't want to brag or anything, so I'll list this quick as possible and try to contain my excitement. When There Are No Words received four awards: Best Supporting Actor, Best Actress, Best Director, and Best Film!

Ok I'm done.

Thank you everyone who helped me and supported me in this year long process!!